陳皮村書話——文思慧

2011年3月12日 下午6:15

i am worried about the situation of the nuclear reactors of the power plants in NE Japan - local news says the cooling system has stopped working because electricity was cut off during the earthquake. that can be very dangerous - the so-called China Syndrome (core meltdown) is a possibility. the report also says that the "protective wall" does not work - it actually has collapsed...... so radiation cannot be contained.

so on and so forth.

all these "accidents" are not accidental. those of us who are against nuclear power plants have always tried to alert people of these real dangers but the anti-nuclear movement has not gathered momentum here. so many (i have lost count) reactors have been built in Daya Bay since the campaign ended in 1987, and more are coming. ironically the pro-building camp have used the advanced technology of the Japanese model as a "strong" argument against our query.

natural forces are powerful indeed but human folly, greed, and apathy are even more horrifying.

2011年3月15日 下午10:40

Just want to share my notes (March 15) with you:

It's very misleading to mention Daya Bay Nuclear Power Plant as if it is just the two nuclear reactors of 900 megawatts PWR designed by Framatome in France. No, since those days (1986) when HK people protested against the construction of these two reactors, 4 more reactors have been built in its vicinity - Ling Ao station (1 km to the east of DB), and more are on the way. All these belong to the Daya Bay Nuclear Power Plant family.

Unlike the first two Daya Bay reactors which use two pressurized water reactors imported from France and Britain, part of the Ling Ao station's equipment was made in China. Li Peng, who attended the opening ceremony of the first Ling Ao reactor on February 6, 1994 as premier, said 30 percent of the equipment at Ling Ao is to be produced locally. Needless to say, its operation is a "Chinese internal affair", only to be monitored by the toothless International Atomic Energy Agency.

In reading about this, i also recall when the French experts left Daya Bay after the period of their stationing there for transfering of operation and management skills related to the first two reactors was over, a SCMP report said they are very frustrated about being constantly complained by their Chinese counterparts as "making the procedures too tedious for the Chinese".

Technology-wise, the first two nuclear reactors of Ling Ao are 938 MWe PWR based on the French 900 MWe three cooling loop design, while the third and fourth ones are being constructed in conjunction with Areva, based on the French three cooling loop design. The third Ling Ao reactor is China’s first domestic CPR-1000 nuclear power plant.

Ownership-wise, except for the first two reactors, which the CLP Group in Hong Kong (so-called Hong Kong Nuclear Investment Company) holds a 25% equity, China Guangdong Nuclear Power Holding Company (CGNPC) is the sole shareholder. CGNPC of course has no obligation whatsoever to respond to any doubt or query of the HK populace.

CLP of HK, on the other hand, has continued to score success in the nuclear power plant business in China. Its most recent investment is to own 17% of the 6,000 MW Yangjiang Nuclear Power Station with six 1,000 MW PWR unit. Yangjiang, Guangdong is approximately 220 kilometres west of Hong Kong.

Chan Siu Hung, Director of CLP Nuclear Investment Company Limited, says "the Yangjiang project reinforces CLP's ongoing commitment towards low carbon generation to meet the interim target of increasing our non-carbon-emitting generating capacity to 20 percent by 2020, as set out in our Climate Vision 2050. This investment also supports the Central Government's announcement to cut 40 percent to 45 percent of carbon dioxide emissions per unit of GDP in China by 2020 from its 2005 level, whilst contributing to the sustainable development of the Pearl River Delta region."

How awfully hypocritical! So this is CLP - which conducts charity work such as running the "environmentally friendly" Kadoorie Farm and Botannical Gardens to greenwash its corporate image!!! So this is what the BUSINESS of "low carbon" and "sustainable development" is about!!!

While we care about what's happening in Daya Bay, we should also act against the Yangjiang conspiracy - even though the place is a bit farther away from us. Afterall, CLP is a HK corporation.

2011年3月16日 下午7:01

(March 16)

Also already undergoing construction in Guangdong are two reactors at Tai Shan. The following brief info about it is taken from Wikipedia. European countries (and Canada too, which has been very unethical in its nuclear business deal with China, by lowering the safety standard that is required by the same plant model when built on Canadian soil) have been extremely active in selling their nuclear power plant technology to China and other developing countries. The reason is simple - the no-nukes movement of these "developed" countries is putting up hurdles for business expansion back home, while business, according to Lenin's analysis on imperialism more than a century ago as well as the recent discussions on globalization, just has to expand (to less developed countries). The production of a whole lot of educated people to become apologetic technological experts or unreflective consumers of such dangerous technologies is an indivisable part of this grand business expansion scheme, of course.

Another part of this well-concerted (dirty) business expansion drama is played by the globalized environmental NGOs, which often hold very dubious position (if you are careful in reading their actions and inactions). One example is Greenpeace (China), which has been very vocal, since the beginning of this frightening nuclear "accident" of Japan, in attacking the HK Govt's recent attempt to shift to a higher percentage of nuclear power, while it is still dead silent over all these nuclear power plants that are (and will be) built in Guangdong and all over the mainland. Campaign strategy? Organization interest?

In a nutshell, people should have their own no-nukes movement.

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About Tai Shan's, please read the following.

Two units at the Taishan Nuclear Power Plant are under construction in Chixizhen, Taishan, Guangdong province, China. It is planned to go online in 2013 and will be the third site to house Areva's 1,700 megawatt (MW) European Pressurized Reactor (EPR) units. The project is owned by Guangdong Taishan Nuclear Power Joint Venture Company Limited (TNPC), a joint venture, which is 70% owned by China Guangdong Nuclear Power Group (CGNPC) and 30% by Électricité de France (EDF).

On August 26, 2008, excavation work began. The first concrete for the first unit was poured in October 2009.[4] Construction of each unit is planned to take 46 months, significantly faster and cheaper than the first two EPRs in Finland and France

2012年1月11日

Pao Yu has written a new article. Not his best, but he is really much more than a pretty face. Though pretty face is important too - in his case. http://blog.sina.com.cn/s/blog_4ab2f8360102ducu.html

2012年11月28日

各位：

立會「環境事務委員會」已將我們聯署者和市民大大出賣, 我們應如何表示憤怒？ 另, 此會已淪為陸副隨從 (理由以下列出), 而陸則為中電等利益集團的隨從, 故我們亦同時要考慮如何向這條無恥綠褲示威。

上回本是「環境事務委員會」約同「經濟事務委員會」成員一齊開其12月會議, 講電費結構, 其實已好可疑, 點解自我降格, 唔可以有環境的獨立角度? 我們的信發出後, 「經」會本周一開了自己的會, 蘋果報導昨天已寄了給大家, 當然是無恥黃男綠女會上自大廢up。而與此同時, 「環」會竟然取消講電費結構議程, 說「經」會已討論過, 剩下來主要是處理政府主導的議題, 包括無恥綠褲一向以來私人生意中力推的兩大項目----噉都得！！！

兩大項目是甚麼？

(1) 核生意------「環」會建議成立subcom, 專注無恥綠褲上任便宣稱要大搞的空氣污染 (另再加上噪音污染和地球之友最鍾意搞的光污染)。[大家留意, 沒有輻射污染不特止, 空氣污染排頭位完全是無恥綠褲及賣核集團的長期至愛-----減煤增核的代名詞是也。見昨日蘋果, quote "(陸)指市民應「睇闊啲」。她指煤電增加空氣污染，天然氣價錢昂貴，市民應多了解核電，而非一味恐懼。"]

(2) 支援買賣碳生意------ 無恥綠褲一向在中港之間大推用香港人d 錢 (立會批的九千萬/5年) 津貼港人在大陸開的廠, 以改善空氣方面的排污, 由此替「大陸」 (包括d廠自己！)賺取減碳 credit (所謂Certified Emission Reduction，在香港此稱「清潔生產伙伴計劃」)。這其實是令企業提高污染然後兩頭收水的全球性無良生意。 現時正值要立會批新的一輪津貼 (二千萬/2年), 就由「環」會先來蓋橡皮圖章-----當然也會裝模作樣同時撥些少給香港蚊型行業如噴漆業去改善改善...........

「環」會是甚麼東西？與陸 (及其所代表的利益集團) 親密成咁？mud 佢地唔係有好些人民選出的代表在其中嗎？單是其何秀蘭主席, 我們至少託兩個熟悉她的人先後和她解釋過我們信中的立場, 居然連封信給擺上其收到文件網頁的機會都無, 而這段期那頁已加了很多有關由甚麼廠商會等呈交的有關「清潔生產伙伴計劃」的文件, 簡直與「經」會掉轉角色 (「經」會則擺了我們的信), 奇哉！

如何撕破出賣人民的議員, 目中無人的黃陸, 及其背後的利益集團的偽綠色真黑金面貌？是反核所包括的課題。否則核謊言大家永遠不會知道。

而我們又怎樣向聯署者交代聯署信的下落與結局？？？

另，下星期誰來繼續在中電門口嘈佢? 持續發揮令它十分討厭的功能-------會陸續加強令它無癮的橫額。目前為止最成功 (令出入的人陰陰笑)的是Kadoorie, Eat your own nuclear waste. Don't nuke our place。快來接力。

2012年12月17日

初步定初三、初四兩天作周年探訪。有機農場成假日娛樂場所的趨勢下, 田租要加了, 地主要租給搵大錢的有(商)機娛樂農場了........

請來看看真正以農作物生產為生的農民昌哥、琴姐的境遇。詳情再通知。

按時間表農曆年那星期是停送菜的, 大家就到現場購買吧。
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報導一下最新情況：

昌哥被地主收回種了多年, 種到極靚的土地, 一再加租給他都堅決要收 (又不肯透露用來轉搞甚麼), 又因昌哥其它租來之地就在旁邊, 故這邊搞破壞、旁邊那有生態之完卵？ 故他亦要放棄。或可重新找地, 但開地工夫很龐大....... 我想大家有錢出錢有力出力兩樣都無就從旁打氣, 看看是否開地有得搞。香港如失昌哥田, 就是豎立走向滅亡的一塊里程碑-------這是我的看法, 因為種有機田就是種田、不搞任何gimmicks (或美稱副業) 的人在香港是一個非常稀有的品種(琴、昌之外, 大概一隻手的指頭都不足)，彼等是作了回到生活之本的選擇, 能這樣選擇是人權。

至於我們可能沒有他的菜吃, 則是活生生地說明城市人是多麼脆弱, 你認得一個可靠的農民是個莫大的福氣, 但對其遭遇我們又很難飛身幫助.......... 這次希望做到點甚麼吧。

2012年12月23日

年初四探訪昌哥時, 大家可實地看看正在發生的事。

昌哥說他田附近至少已有兩處高價租給「郊區娛樂事業」, 地主們知種田維生者不會出得起這價錢, 所以都懶得再向昌哥這類租戶提加租, 收回算數。現昌哥因已種了下造的作物, 所以要求四月才交回土地, 不然血本無歸。

香港劃作永久農地用地之地不多, 最可惡是根本沒有永久, 個個心知肚明既有補地價之惡法就無永久用途可言-------要不然琴姐所在的鶴藪是全港最大片永久農地, 何以地主們不種不用更絕不肯賣, 琴姐種的果樹都常被地主砍掉---------就是大家在等。之前爆出大浪西的醜聞, 賣給發展商原來又十分便宜 (我們多些人科款其實也買得起佢整條村), 何解？ 根本就是我們沒法知悉的秘密條件在銀碼之外。

其實琴姐鶴藪與錦田昌哥那邊一樣, 前年我們拜訪琴姐時又去旁邊的「有機」士多啤利園見識這「大型娛樂場所」, 嘩竟然不防蟲咬、無鳥來食(對比琴姐之士多啤利田上佈陣森嚴依然被「分嚐」到七彩, 已心知是甚麼回事, 但這些志不在種得老實種好生態的大租戶偏就是把田租節節推高, 令認真的小農不能不玩完......... 錦田昌哥的鄰居 Larry, 另一個低調老實無gimmicks 有機農民旁邊的田, 已租價高達$10000/ 斗地 / 年 (不要以為那不算貴, 因為以生產有機農產品來說一定不能回本, 搞娛樂或分租給假日「農民」或藉個農字申請種種名目的 funding才可以)。

當然可以叫昌哥琴姐Larry 變身做那樣的事但相信不是她/他們的職志, 對生態保育來說當然更是向下流走去。

我個人的觀察是這牽涉兩組問題：

(1) 大與小 ----------有機農耕由企業來搞不單趕絕小民自足生活, 更不會是來真的, 偽有機農耕是怎樣的Michael Pollens 本The Omnivore's Dilemma已用真實事例講得好清楚。有點像講再生能源如果由大企業來做一樣壟斷民生兼不會環保。

(2) 生活品位問題---------- 如果大眾永遠被官商發放訊息教育(洗腦) 為「打造農產成為品牌、趣味消費, 才是農業的出路」, 其實就是為上述那種最終由「大」全面取締「小」的方向鋪路； 今時甚至給你fundings 玩增值, 玩親子, 玩環保, 玩社區/社企 (而那個「社」卻往往不包括那位農民生產者在內, 或只以組織者和消費者的利益為中心)........ 明天真正認識那一片一片獨特水土生態如何與那些那些作物長久共存的一個一個小農, 就要完蛋。現時就是這個情況的反映, 即大家在愈炒作有機農耕為「食物生產以外」的玩意/創意之際, 大滅小及 fit 曬地產規格的趨勢已漸形成。有機農業立於此附庸或比附庸更不堪的位置 (其實總是商品化異化), 就是人的生活品位的進一步後退。

我們暫時能做的是一方面安定這些小農持續耕種的機會(失去有關的知識和人物, 是日後難以挽回的損失),但揭露有機耕種異化的各方面也重要, 娛樂消費是廸士尼, 不是農業, 這個訊息要清楚。怎樣幫昌哥渡過難關, 我嘗試繼續 co-ordinate一下。

2012年12月28日

電腦常被入侵, 索性關機度歲求清淨, 反核資訊緩緩收送, 一月再來行動, 現專讀蘇東坡, 旁及宋詩及宋史。

誠如錢鍾書言 (意思), 詩不必強分唐或宋, 詩人按本身氣質屬唐屬宋可也。然身為宋人, 自有其歷史時代之召喚, 將唐詩之未發發之；在後世來看, 則自是鹹魚青菜, 各有所愛。我則一向視唐詩為清風明月, 是生活的一部分, 甚至是無須意識其存在之必須品, 今讀多一點東坡與其同及後輩之作, 自覺與宋詩氣味甚貼, 尤其大蘇, 雖被袁子才等抑為「有才無情」, 卻甚是我杯茶。

再認識之下, 原來宋詩與哲學關係非淺, 可謂唐(及更早前)之大力接收、發揚道釋之義理後, 儒學精神之重歸------ 卻是協帶著道佛而重歸-----的呈現, 又喜歡大講道理(悶煞一些人)。依吉川幸次郎之說, 宋詩終結了唐詩中的絕望情緒(與相關之浪漫), 重展了生命的(也是詩經<雅>中的)樂觀精神--------- 當然不是說宋代詩人生活愉快, 而是彼等愈慘澹則愈戰愈勇, 大蘇當然是表表者了, 而他又終生與僧道為友, 絕對知道人生如寄........... 不過他總是好好過活。

一個原因是宋代再沒有貴族階層, 這些士人即使做過高官甚麼也好, 都畢竟出自農家, 遇到困難能自己解決。大蘇無食即開地種稻, 無餸則種菜, 放牛釀酒煮飯做墨丸(不是墨魚丸, 是寫字用的)皆能, 還有個懂得治牛病、又識接種黑牡丹的老婆, 令他大讚不已。到了海南, 當地不種稻而搞經濟作物他惟有吃入口米便因此不開心！

再說宋代情況, 千多年前的這個階段, 是個走向近代起碼是個已脫離古代的世界, 文治遠勝武功-------- 好處是人文精神大大擡頭, 未能處理的是怎樣做到更平等, 這也許是個千古難題但梁山泊並非全為fiction 民間疾苦之深宋詩中講及的亦多不勝算, 另有個壞處是鄰國來侵這更是伏下大亂之機, 連(戰)馬都不夠, 怎抗北敵？ 養了好多的騾子呢, 供運輸用甚好但不是作戰用的。那麼怎樣才是好統治？在現今更難, 廢核或不廢核呢？想深一層其實比宋朝時易決, 甚至比廣島長岐之前易決, 因為全球生命毀滅是最大的惡, 我先來廢也沒有執輸可言的...........

文治的宋代過去了, 有人說中國地上自此大氣已失, 士大夫轉愛淫巧, 民間苦中又苦那裏還開得出文化奇葩？話雖如此, 如東坡老兄之遺愛人間, 知識份子草根階層沾其清露總有慰藉, 想起他被趕到天涯海角還被趕出宿舍尚能自建居所每日田間找人談天說地............. 這麼一個死後被追憶為「直將和氣接兒童」的人, 有溫暖的胸懷------ 至大的胸懷, 足夠令後人都不會盡發愁, 又不易氣餒。

歲末胡說八道是表祝君新歲安康是真！

2012年12月30日

如訂在 12 / 1 / 2013 pm, 大家能來嗎?

Quebec 最後一座反應爐都關了, 才27 年, 已是退役時份, 否則要大修, 執政黨選擇關了它安樂。大亞灣22 年, 都夠了, 大家真的玩不起, 請各位努力。

議程： 1. 討論反核之眾是否社團登記, 以便於開戶口 etc.
2. 三月福島二周年, 論壇及其它活動 -- 嘉賓, 人手, funding 等
3. 財政現況
4. 新一年工作 -- 人手????

新年新氣象, 至少見個面, 我預備好茶。有些團體或朋友近一年都沒影蹤呢。

2012年12月31日

Quebec 最後一座反應爐都關了, 慶祝會( http://tinyurl.com/dxhurdv ) 好像很少Québecois 參加, 唔緊要啦, 人少, 也持續做, 令核電的黑暗面人人都知, 起碼都知道官商是講大話, 生命最重要, 就不會不同意廢爐的了。反核運動, 及反核上街之not sexy, 世界各地同例, 去年311的 guests 都給我們類似的"鼓勵", 她/他們也很能自我安慰, Gordon Edwards 就這樣描述Quebec這"盛事" ----- This historic event marks the first time that any political jurisdiction in North America has phased out nuclear power completely.

阿政之外, 我亦有數字障礙, 不是看錯讀錯就是打錯, Quebec 那個Gentilly-2 Nuclear Reactor是29年而不是27 年就關門, 不過不重要啦, 愈早關愈少核廢 (尤其那些乏燃料棒----高階核廢)留給後代, 退役費也平些

[資料提供: Workers will have to discharge the reactor's fuel, treat heavy water and deactivate several systems. The fuel and contaminated water will be transferred to holding pools for seven years.

After these steps, Gentilly-2 will undergo a "sleeping" stage for 40 years. By 2062, the used fuel rods will be removed from the location and the plant will be completely taken apart.

The plant's closure is expected to cost $1.8 billion over a period of more than 50 years.]

注意除役的treat heavy water 工序, 據Lily資料提供, 處理heavy water即 處理tritium 那些東西。 嘿, 大核這些壓水式而非重水式就更巴閉, 平日不用處理已把tritium 等排曬出去, 大家食海產都吸收唔少-------- 怎可以讓這些情況繼續?????

如果說中國需要核電廠來提供核武材料, 那麼你又怎樣回答這"觀點"? 明年三月的講者也會和大家探討這些, 請密切留意, 幫手和付年費。(目前只有文彥覆會來開會, 我和她對影成5人也好像冷清了些少。)

預祝 新年新景象！

2013年1月13日

https://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=uNiOr3odYpw#!

另再提大家1月19號開會及團體付年費。

另鄙人在中大有個 <所謂「核輻射安全水平」— 探討一段「專家知識」如何暴虐人民與生態的血淚史> talk, 資料涉及七十三年全球核武/電科技X政治, 獨力講唔曬, 請大家來一起討論加把聲。

2013年1月30日（星期三）中午12時至下午2時
香港中文大學陳國本樓 CKB109室

2013年2月6日

核能輻射研究會 之 新春讀書會

Rosalie Bertell: *No Immediate danger? Prognosis for a radioactive earth*

日期：17/2（part 1-2），24/2（part 3-4）
時間：下午 4-6 pm
地點：城市大學學生飯堂City Express（5/F Academic 1）
報名、查詢：nucleareducationhk@gmail.com

Dr. Rosalie Bertell 1980年中期著作, 見識甚廣, 流水不腐, 絕不過時, 將核科學與核政治解釋得同樣鞭辟清楚, 尖銳卻絕對是深情之作 ——否則怎會花如許心血去寫一本沒有大出版社會出版的大厚書, 得不到名和利, 還惹人訕笑： 這個修女是瘋的, 竟然對核能這個「先進的必然」, 引用這麼多資料去論證其反理性！ 她早又指面對此科技及背後的全球勢力, 議會民主已是疲弱無力, 只任肆虐者橫行, 何等先見！

不錯, 與她一起「瘋狂」的另一位科學家 Ursula Franklin 在去年追悼她的聚會上說：

「Rosalie 不生在這世間內, 卻是這個世間的；
對她而言, 只有做合乎道德的事, 才是實際的。」

她對世間事挑通眼眉, 著書做事卻自闢途徑, 不會混水摸魚, 所以我們能夠看到她留下了紮實好事 ——如與「國際原子能機構」打對台辦講真話的人民法庭, 帶來被壓迫的專家作證人, 以審訊要掩埋Chernobyl 慘劇的國際強權； 又遺下了好書, 讓我們不斷被啟發。

（書的第一部分可參考：http://www.ratical.org/radiation/NRBE/）

香港核能輻射研究會：https://sites.google.com/site/nuclearstudyhk/

2013年3月25日

黑心明周（2013年3月23日Book B）

大疊大疊地放在高檔本土書店裏賣。題為〈下一站，福島〉。

用48頁大灑福島千里飄雪影像、萬種供消費的當地樸拙風情。

$10一本，有腦的都會想：邊個贊助？（既是廣告，為何不說明？）

香港人連銫-137、鍶-90等輻射性核素三百年不會消失的道理都不願明白，追求風格旅遊，自吃其果，本是自己的事。

但由此大幫了一把日本政府、東京電力集團的忙----將輻射正常化，不賠償當地居民，讓她們無力遷離又要面對三百年以上的核災難，還被訕笑為「輻射恐懼病」、「不夠正能量」(去重建)，就是全靠這些港式「風格消費」幫忙消毒。大家其實經已腦死地不去思考如此消費訊息由誰人贊助？總之就是I don't care？

要care一點點的，就從今杯葛這種黑心雜誌，再勿讓如此香港媒體帶領港人搭上那列連地獄也不會收留的墮落消費列車。

這些黑心媒體不會讓你知道甚麼？

在日本，人民正在如火如荼地舉行民眾法庭審訊，人民律師、學者、專家參與其中，控告日政府與東電在福島犯下「對人類的罪行」；目前福島13萬已接受甲狀腺檢驗的小孩當中，約四成出現異常，十人證實罹患甲狀腺癌......這些事實，是否就因沒有如這些黑心媒體所強調：「緊記著一些更重要的價值」----積極重建福島，所以毋須報導？

以下是一位福島的媽媽（以假名「大山」）訴說她們生活在被黑心媒體吹噓為「正是你要去消費的下一站」的風味福島郡山，是怎樣實實在在地每天掙扎在難以讓外間知道的備受壓力的生活中：

關於郡山市的現況，自去年三月十一日以來，孩子們的課室內有很多同學轉校離去，三月十一日發生震災，跟著便踏入春假，然後小學延遲幾天於四月十七日開始新學年授課，那時我的女兒是小學二年級生，已有四名同班同學去了西日本母親娘家或北海道父親老家處避難，轉校就讀當地的小學，不久之後小學恢復校內午飯供應，膳食供應開始時，母親們也感到不安，擔心在這般情況下，校方究竟供應些甚麼食物呢？不想讓子女進食，但又可怎麼辦呢？當時母親們議論紛紛，由於當時尚有餘震，不單只為輻射問題，很多母親會送子女上學，接放學時，也會聚集交談這些話題，後來學校開始供應膳食之同時，同級兩班有學生因父母不想他們進食學校膳食而轉校，而我女兒那班中已有兩個如是。

跟著，在四月下旬的時候，我們仍完全不知道各學校校舍及操場的輻射污染水平，當時輻射量度器尚未普及，現時可以向政府辦事處借用或自行購買，去年發生震災一個月後，當時還沒有輻射量度器，在這樣的情況下，我總算借來一部量度器，自行去校園測量，某處地方的污染水平如何？有沒有熱點？很想知道污染程度如何，哪裡有危險，我和丈夫一起四出量度並製作地圖顯示情況，因為那時有很多學童步行往返學校，心想自己蒐集回來的污染數據或會有所幫助，便拿去學校給老師看，但教務主任卻說不知這部是什麼類型的儀器，更說校方也有量度，那時我才知道學校有量度，後來我問其他學校的家長，原來初時有個別學校將量度數值在學校網頁公佈，其後或受到某方面壓力而取消了網頁公佈，改為用電郵群組或信件通知，每週定期發放，也有學校用通告公佈今天數值多少，但我女兒的學校連這些工夫也不做，說若很想知道數值如何，便打電話來學校查詢吧，用這方式作個別回答。各小學的處理及公佈方式都不同，我對此產生很大的疑問。

在第一個學期內，在操場上體育課限於一小時內，一小時課其實只有四十五分鐘，而體育時間實際只有三十分鐘，熱身在室內進行，三十分鐘在操場奔走上體育課。學校運動會在第二個學期舉行，有部分學校會徵詢家長應否舉行運動會，但我女兒的小學完全沒有徵詢，校方自行決定舉辦日期，但為了減少學童受污染，運動會只在早上舉行三小時，低學年的一二年級學生做完熱身運動後需返回課室上課一小時，然後再返回操場參加運動會，既然如此，究竟有沒有需要舉辦運動會呢？

就這樣地，戴口罩的人漸漸減少，或許大家已習慣輻射污染下的生活吧。直至半年前或一年前有很多母親懷著同樣的心情，大家都非常擔心子女的健康，假如情況許可，也很想帶子女離開，有些特別擔心的家長早已帶子女離開。本來跟我一樣非常擔心並敢於開口談論的母親們，慢慢開始有所避忌，有一名曾與我面對同樣困擾的朋友有天對我這麼說，是最近一個月前的事，她叫我不要再跟其他人談論輻射問題，既然大家決定留在郡山這塊土地上生活下去，在這裏培育子女的話，便需要放開一點，不要凡事過敏，以免被孤立哦，我因為擔心你才跟你這樣講。連她也這樣叫我不要對外談論這些話題，以後我真不知道究竟可以跟人講甚麼，因此我曾苦惱過，今次我有機會參加 [帶小孩到香這暫避輻射的]活動，作為一個母親，能夠跟其他母親們交流，感到非常鼓舞，而又令我察覺到自己的信念曾經動搖過，所以能夠參加這次活動感到非常欣慰。

還有輻射測量器，現時小孩們戴著輻射累積量度器，即使在日本本土，有很多日本人都不知道現時福島的學童仍然戴著這些測量器上學，希望下次有機會能夠讓其他人知道現況。

2013年3月27日

各位：

電磁輻射與(核能產生的)電離輻射不同，但都是大生意，這些商品有官方的安全準則去包庇，煽動社會的科技崇拜所以無往不利，到有一朝發現大規模殺人時已經太遲。借用北師大的田松教授的說話，警惕科學，警惕科學家，這些科技不是能源、通訊的問題，而是人類對健康、文明與責任的抉擇，以下有幾篇文章可以參考：

(1) 美國環境醫學會提出對學校的Wifi設施與學童健康的關注，列出幾項醫學研究

http://aaemonline.org/images/LettertoLAUSD.pdf

(2) 香港科技大學與電訊商輸送利益下犧牲校園低級職員健康大裝電話接收天線，懷疑引致癌症一律抵賴。

http://www.scmp.com/news/hong-kong/article/1136799/cancer-fears-over-mobile-phone-antennae-university-hong-kong

(3) 同樣官方輸送利益會出現在香港學校採用電子書的大計下。英國有科學家組織對研究不足家長不知實情下在學校廣設wifi的做法要求立即停止。

http://wifiinschools.org.uk/

"We are fully supportive of the use of computers in schools and wish schools to be able to provide excellent information and communication technology facilities, but not at the expense of the health of their pupils and staff. We support the application of the precautionary principle until better long-term health studies have been carried out. "

2013年4月10日

反核之眾各位：

這電郵最後是我早前給一同搞暑假福島營的朋友的貓，那邊的朋友覆了，表示贊同今年不再續辦，直至我們（在不斷的反核教育工作中）建立得一個投入以下信念的隊伍再說：

1. 認識到全球化消費主義作為推動核能（和平及戰爭----其實沒有和平）使用的暗藏的角色，所以避免營辦得有消費主義色彩。

2. 反核，和理解日政、商消息隱瞞及對人民的殘害，參加福島營工作不是因為「哈日」或同情地震海嘯災禍中的小朋友。

3. 小朋友受輻射殘害身體，休養期應得到比在日本更好營養的食物、水、用品、空氣......但香港人慣信本地政府訂定的「安全標準」----游水池中的氯、飲食中含毒標準、西藥霸權的恐怖等等，所以招待他人，自己先要有較高的對自己社會現狀的認識與批判。

另方面，上次福島營盈餘的$28000，主辦者本決定交給(1)反核之眾(2)香港基督徒協進會各半作日後辦福島營之用，如（暫）不續辦就即錢將另作他用。現時$21000已用在出版《福島誓言》，預料不致不能回本（何時回就不知），總之，與協進會商量過，$28000全數會寄到我們在福島郡山（高污染區）的對口單位「安全‧安心‧行動在郡山」辦「疏散」小朋友，希望大家同意。

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各位反核朋友：

近日血病比較沉重，energy降到至低，三月項目完結後只能在家昏睡，本來打算約蒲牧師及各位在四月傾談是否續辦福島小孩來港避輻射項目，但看來真是動彈不得，走不出家門。不過這是個急著要做的決定----不論是在港訂營舍，或招募人手，或與日本方面落實，也事不宜遲，所以雖然抱病在家，自己還是作了一些思考，現與大家分享。

我本人對福島營的較詳盡思考與檢討，主要在《重探根源，不離不棄----反核與養生》那篇文章裏，那是一篇苦澀的文章，讀後向我表示「真係要咁嚴格？」的質疑不少，始終不明白的也有。例如為何不簡簡單單搞個一般旅遊消費開心玩樂營給孩子，而要逆流而上----不玩迪士尼，不購買潮流禮品送給她們？我不是說孩子們因此玩得不快樂，事實上她們十分開心----她們是非常簡樸的小孩，騎單車、到沙灘走走跳跳、寫書法、打鼓、追逐都已興高采烈。對我們來說問題卻是我們需要從中阻擋了許多香港人「好心」給她們豐富物質享受的提議，保留她們的絀樸玩耍，中間費了很多心血，於是有人就會說：何必攞苦來辛？

但如果要搞，這點我們想堅持（請參考以下一段我覆某人問為何我們不讓迪士尼大送Duffy Bear給小朋友的答問）：

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記者問：不給小朋友每人一個Duffy Bear的原因是什麼？不想他們物欲過盛？物欲過盛與核能的因果關系，有興趣聽聽文博士進一步闡釋。

msw答：Duffy Bear是那一期迪士尼在日本推得很紅的，這些一浪接一浪的消費潮流應該是先攻陷城市再向其他地方蔓延。而城市對鄉郊的剝削就是以這樣的「消費意識特別先進」來進行的，鄉郊永遠在後面追趕，而沒有反省到自己最基本上已成為城市的犧牲品----例如建在福島的核電廠就完全為供應東京五光十色生活之用，福島人民是一瓦電也用不上的，出事時身家性命財產毀諸一旦的就是鄉郊。所以如果每個小朋友帶一隻Duffy Bear回福島，令身旁的小朋友對大城市的五光十色更多幻想，我覺得是加倍地殘忍，令大家對自己作為城市的犧牲品的自覺意識更模糊。

當然還有是迪士尼，這是個擺到明的美式消費主義全球化最大符號，而日本當年接受美國輸入「原子能和平使用」還成為世界第三大核電國，其中在民眾洗腦一環節中就是用上了美式消費主義（happy easy comfortable life）作為中介。所以迪士尼的意義在今時今日核電之夢忽然爆破的日本人民來說，應該更不是一個遊樂場那麼簡單。

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在我個人來說，要辯證落實這些，覺得要花很大氣力----要說服四周的香港人，同行者太少，我沒有把握續辦時會做得到。

另外就是由日本政府、東電、與各財團兩年以來發出的鋪天蓋地謊話，讓福島「核災」隱形失蹤，讓「重建」成為福島人的責任，這些宣傳洗腦鋪排之細密，真是愈知道愈驚心，福島人（大人、小孩）至今不知核電廠爆炸令她們家園成了高輻射區，課堂繼續宣傳核電清潔便宜，又大量製造輿論壓力，令福島人之間不敢提出質疑......在香港，大幅宣傳紙水低遊日本甚至遊東北（其實遊日本那裏都不會知道身處在甚麼環境-----那天野口女士不是說福島的食品大幅被北海道及沖繩這些人們印象中距離福島較遠的地方所購入？遊客吃得至滋味呢）。此外，日食在港全方位蔓延，香港人又參與日本政府一手設計的東北福島重建宣傳......如此一個大環境中（還有更荒謬的，可參考 http://ex-skf.blogspot.hk/2013/03/a-major-japanese-trading-company-to-buy.html），我們透過福島慘案來清楚向港人解釋核能是怎樣的一種大陰謀，根本甚難做到。

例如，去年福島營的翻譯員、義工，始終以不明白核能有甚麼問題為多數，他們或許很同情小朋友家鄉受地震、海嘯影響，但我們十分艱難，其實也許沒有可能，去保證「正確訊息」可以與來客交流--------但這正是陪同來港的成人要求我們能做到的啊﹗

由於這邊了解核能事情真相的來來去去只有幾個人，一年以來我們在港的「反宣傳」工作雖然自問做得很努力，卻沒有突破，所以我不敢保證「續辦」之下能夠組織到較明白事情始末的團隊，去與福島朋友建立反核的solidarity。這是我自覺無力的第二點。即如果蒲牧師在他那篇《不要忘記福島》的文章所列出的六點認識核能心得，能在工作人員中廣泛地被接受，那我就有信心不讓「續辦」搞錯了訊息（去年我們花了無比精力在這方面，我個人來說覺得比較難encore）。

且不要提那些來「搞亂」的某方面人士----如每晚來befriend幾個福島成人飲得醉醺醺塞些「核電必須」新聞給她們那些在港日人，即使基本上與我們同行的朋友我們其實也沒有花得足夠時間去一起探討問題。例如，令我們十分感激、思想也沒有大分歧，並且十分尊重我們主辦者的香港日本人教會，我們對他們真是不應有甚麼批評的了。不過後來看照片，知道他們帶了小孩去（本應是最知識性、「中立」又好玩的）Science Museum參觀----但香港Science Museum的大堆頭exhibit就在那裏宣傳核電----就是這些主流的擁核意識在全球大包圍下，我們與日本人教會就出現了這方面的溝通不足。但真是沒有那麼多的精力去從每個角落對抗全球的核宣傳啊。

不理會這些「細節」嗎？我本人就做不到；通通照顧嗎？現實上也沒有能力做得到----相當痛苦。

最後第三點是我們膳食組對健康飲食及健康生活習慣的堅持，我們視食療為幫助孩子的一個環節。但香港的食材與飲食及生活習慣可能是全球最差的（說不準比大陸還要差----因為來自世界、包括日本，不但是大陸的黑心食品都充斥在此）。我們要保護日本小朋友，同時亦需反省自己習以為常（信政府的「安全」標準）的習慣，所以面臨一重又一重艱難的篩選抉擇，還不被香港朋友原諒----覺得我們的小心實在多餘，兼中產扮野，多少香港人不都是天天這樣吃的嗎？我還是回應以那一句----如果熟知在港黑心食品的內情還讓「來港休養」的孩子去吃它，我情願不請她們來了。

基於人手不足、大眾（義工等）對核能、福島的理解差距太大、反核之眾能調動的也不過是那幾個人（通常暑假港人要去旅行），即使沒有我個人的健康問題，我相信續辦的難度實在很大----除非上述三個我個人頗為執著的原則性問題，可以調過頭去不理會。所以容我在此大膽建議----賣書後如可大致收回成本（$21000），再加上HKCC和反核之眾在CI處那大約$7000，總共$28000，我們就送給「安全‧安心Action在郡山」這個當地居民組織（我們一直以來的對口單位），讓她們在國內多搞孩子疏散計劃，如果可以日後替她們多作籌款（郡山是個重污染區）自是多多益善，在港教育工作則日日無窮。

暫時我看不到香港這邊有條件續辦福島營，這是我的意見，也可能因身體關係比起去年的ambition已經不及了，你們大家多多討論吧......所有通訊將由Lily代我答覆。謝謝。

2013年4月19日

有幾點想講講，謝謝Lily打出來：

數星期前某報記者和我做訪問時，提起她聽GP古先生提出GP有把握將某間大陸新建核電廠連繫到香港擴核比例，然後他們就搞全港公投，預料必可砌低大陸間新核電廠，成就一個香港的成功反核campaign。記者雖然有點幼稚，卻對此彆扭的將反核=反擴核=公投勝利的做法抱著懷疑。真是為了贏campaign（反擴核）乜都諗得出。

未來反核campaign應怎樣走，我已沒有精力細想，不過緊守反核就是反核，大亞灣嶺澳台山陽江都反才是誠實的立場，要公投何不就公投這些，怕輸嗎？那就是因為懶，懶，可能是因為和各種利益集團一起共識出來的大家有著數方案經已深入心脾。

這裏還有兩個全球性擁核陰謀需要正視，根本就是個global的現象，怎樣扮local（甚麼反擴核）也掩飾不住。

早前閱讀德國綠黨的Heinrich Boell Foundation的研究報告，指出用核電之絕不經濟，已成全球之通識，騙不了人了，當然國家津貼名為核電實搞核武，令問題更加清楚，反戰和參與全球和平運動是邏輯之必然出路。在此情況下，Heinrich Boell 報告指出，全球核集團只剩下兩劑神丹去令發展核能變得「經濟」，並且「必須」：(1)無限期延長現有核電廠的壽命----報告指出過去幾十年核廠平均壽命是24年，但你看兩年前中電大筆一揮就將已是20年的廠extend多20年（GP的張韻琪還提過60年才關掉），當然視人命如草芥的這些言行還帶了哭哭啼啼的溫情面孔，就是全球擁核集團現時自救的第二粒神丹----(2)地球氣候改變，遍地哀號，定要靠核能減碳。

對第二點，在全球與本地所出現過的詭異行徑，我們實在知得太少，從科學道理駁倒核能減碳一點我們的刊物與聲明都講過七千幾次，不過學校不用，傳媒繼續做擁核派鸚鵡猛話核能減碳，我們也沒有辦法。但對於global-local的賣碳（順便賣核）生意，一般都認識得比較少----氣候改變講了好久，但堂堂前美國副總統Al Gore又寫書又拍片山崩海動餓死北極熊的嚇人場面在美國及全世界高調播放，與此同時，「京都議定書」這份神聖文件先為已發展國家再為第三世界國家以核減碳開路，大家當是fine print看不到嗎？香港方面，陸恭蕙買賣碳（兼賣核）生意，大家都漸漸知道了，但大把進步社會賢達都在搞這一套，如樂施會前高層、公民黨黎廣德、黃英奇、林超英等個個綠到痺人士的參與其事，大家又知道嗎？

大家以較整全的歷史眼光檢討核能發展七十年就知道不只是李鵬和嘉道理這類人是擁核狂魔，事實上，多少為些少麵包屑奔走服務、滿口愛民主愛地球的本地精英實質是全球陰謀集團的幾隻化好妝的爛棋子，他/她們每天在做甚麼，我們都適宜加以揭露。

如果要公投核電，有邊個不敢在大亞灣問題上搞公投，就是一個最好的照妖法了。

大家有興趣明年搞真正瞄準靶的公投嗎？

對不起，我要養病，任務由大家去挑起來吧。

2013年5月9日

Dr Chow talked about chinese medicine today --

Generalissimo Chiang Kai Shek brought the best traditional chinese medicine doctors to Taiwan in 1949. The team has been very serious in following traditional method in turning each useful raw ingredient into medicine. Thus, in taiwan, there has never been people sent to hospital for taking TCM.

On the other hand, HK govt never finds TCM of any worth to call for real professsional treatment. Hence, the medicine we find in the market (mostly from mainland) may not have been treated properly (accordingly strictly traditional method). That's why HK people are subjected to danger of poisoning etc., and the western medical establishment is so happy to see that happen.

talk more when i feel better.

BTW the QM western doctor said to me today if i have one more year to live, it's best to spend half a year on taking a chemo course and live on (with the side effects??) for the second half. i asked her - you call that quality of life? and she said sure, everybody will make such a choice!!!!!!!

2013年5月14日

the design for modern life - esp lying down to give birth and flush toilet (which you have to sit up to poo) - are the epitome of anti-science. What a waste of the great force of gravity.

i have many health problems of my own to solve, but thinking about these things annoys me somewhat (only slightly, so no worries).

further (and comprehensively) colonizing the world in terms of changing third world people's life habit by globalizing such stupid (and money making, at least eventually) practice is very unethical.

2013年5月14日

>> 人生活目的為何？

i have to think about this question more rigorously than ever before, now that i have almost made up my mind to do a course of chemo. Dr Chow said his chinese medicine cannot catch up with the deterioration rate of my blood, so i need to buy time - hence this is his advice too. My heart also can't sustain my current physical condition for very long.

But why should i want to live longer - and even willing to pay such heavy price as to harm my vital body parts to buy more time? what should i do with the rest of my life? Dr Chow seems to have the confidence of minimizing the harmful side effects of the chemo course, but the future is really unclear. So is how i am to walk the road after chemo and respond to Mr. Wong's question.

some suggest i should relax and enjoy the world more from now on, some think i can still work for worthy causes. but this choice is not just my subjective wish. what if i can no longer contribute anything............ does that mean doing chemo prolong a worthless life?

for all those who have been taking care of me esp the daily meals and domestic affairs which sustain my life in this period, i don't know why i deserve such kindness and have such good fortune. OK you owe my something in the past llfe right? haha!!

And in future i will continue to need such support too - ohhhhhhhhhhhh - now i know what i should do for the rest of my life (if there is such a period when i can recover) - i should be engaged in some support work so that at least one or two people will suffer less despite their misfortune of living in this increasingly cruel and bureaucratic world (dominated by hospitals and schools and..............).

2013年5月20日

thank you for all of your caring words or deeds, kindnesses and love since i was taken ill.

the details of daily life are not unimportant, esp if you have a weak immune system, live under a bad social system, and face a not so certain future posed by the kind of health conditions that seem so unfamiliar. But again, let us be more playful than stressful in handling them. now i say this and seem light-hearted, but that would never have been posible without your support.

chemo - what i dreaded, found theoretically unsound, practically dangerous for the patient's future health - has been accepted by myself as part of the treatment of my current illness. i could only blame myself for being so careless as to forget my AM A CANCER PATIENT recently, thus allowing myself to be cornered like this at the end of the day. anyway, as the treatment has already begun, i can only do my best in health maintanence and hope there is minimal discomfort.

the symptoms of my illness are not all gone yet, and those brought about by chemo have slowly unfolded (not too serious so far). so there is a double-dose of discomfort. but what bother me most is still the leg numbness, spasms, cramps etc (which link to rounds and rounds of pain in the heart). i realize it is due to damage of the nerves and cannot be easily and promptly cured (despite what the doctors say when they sell me chemo to me)........ Well, in face of that i have to accept, among other things, that my sleeping quality will be extremely low in the future, and there is no way to improve.

That's life - and sickness.......... and the 茉莉 at home are blossoming like crazy.

Lily and i went to the park at D Bay this morning. afterwards when we returned home i walked up the gentle hill for quite a long distance without being breathless. i have been unable to walk for quite some time so this came as a very pleasant surprise morning gift for me - sent by all of you!!!

2013年5月25日

今天到附近找好氣場的樹卻被大雨所困，全(乾)身回家聊堪告慰。d bay的樹遠不及動植公園的，昨天輸血後去尋找大自然"外援"一下，只有時間探訪公園一邊，發現最有力量的是那棵東方紫檀，在樹下站著人都震動，大松柏樟等都很好氣，百年古木真是充滿育養性。

謝謝wayne少告知chemo期間常會患depression，他這個字一說出口我就click著-----為何過去幾天那種辛苦實在遠超肉體，魅魑纏綿，原來是:它"，知道了我就能fight，也讓大家知道-------醫生不會說的。雖然這其實是藥物效應，不是心情唔好的問題，但你睇下病人跳左樓佢地會唔會認賬？

2013年5月16日

寄件人：hrx
收件人： msw

利用科學，适合自己的都正確。

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2013年5月20日

寄件人：msw
收件人： hrx

是。雖然這科學不很科學，依靠掌握金錢和權力資源來封殺他人的疑問，但我今次沒好照顧自己，拼命工作，忘記一個癌症病人終生都是癌症病人，令自己走到牆角，活該。

2013年5月22日

due to recent downpours, 昌哥called to say for tomorrow a 5-catty subscriber will get about 4 catties (others will get approximately the same ratio). He also anticipates the possibility of no veggie in the following week - but that's not certain yet.

he apologized. i said that is not necessary.

2013年5月23日

寄件人：msw
收件人： grace

dear Grace,

i'm not in the best condition but the discomforts are tolerable. no complaints.

it's just that the extent of 霸道 and complacency of western medical establishment IN HK that surprises me. i would advise every friend who plans to spend his/her aging years in HK to get prepared for some alternatives. Otherwise, they will most probably be subjected to some very humiliated treatment when they are old and weak, and can't defend themselves. One way of course is to be rich enough to avoid getting in touch with public hospitals.

i underwent chemo and immunity was expected to be weakened. however, they kept adding beds for pneumonia patients beside my bed. when i asked them to stop, they say, this is public hospital and you have to bear the risk.

i am not uncomfortable about the treatment i received so far. i feel very sorry for the population of HK. Sigh!

2013年5月25日

Today, in hundreds of cities across the US and Canada, and in at least 60 other countries, people are marching against agri-business and chemical giant Monsanto.

If you still don't know why the march is happening and how Monsanto is trying to control the food supply, here is a brief look, via the trailer for the film "The World According to Monsanto."

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2013年5月27日

On the 10th day after undergoing chemo, today, i consult Dr Chow.

Since the chemo is not working in reducing my astronomical IgM number, which can cause heart trouble and stroke, Dr Chow took it as his first (and only) mission to do that. I had a 大瀉this afternoon after taking his medicine, and am expected to have many more of such in future. (three times a day, he said.)

Dr Chow will concentrate on this aspect, and has clearly indicated he will not do the 扶正that most chinese medical doctors do to "help" patients undergoing chemo. He is not the kind of 西醫附庸/ 變種中醫, he practices chinese medicine to HEAL.

we wonder if his medicine can make the chemo obsolete eventually, so that i don't have to undergo another or too many rounds of it. however, the drawback is the western doctors' attitude - almost sure they would not let me have blood tranfusion if i don't do chemo, so Dr Chow may not have the ample time that he has now to treat my IgM (血溶) problem. 走著瞧吧。

side effects of chemo continue to affect the whole body, and the mind too. not 好玩at all.

Si Wai

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2013年5月27日

寄件人：kc

去年在太極五行班上, 遇到一位修習氣功的同學, 她一直練功, 後西醫要她化療, 拒絕化療, 沒有假紙, 便不能放假, 於是她低頭做人, 化療去也, 可是由於她一直練功, 奇怪, 結果化療後大瀉特瀉, 後來她再習氣功, 進展甚佳, 看來, 有得瀉走化療的不好的東西, 那就有救了, 是嗎?

加油, 告訴自己身體, 好的要留下, 要強壯, 不好的, 就通通瀉走…… 向大樹求氣, 向天地求氣, 靜心觀照, 氣場運轉……

活在此時此刻, 感謝身體疲累作戰, 疼她, 愛她, 感謝她……

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2013年5月28日

寄件人：msw

dr chow indicated clearly he will NOT treat my chemo side effects, so the大瀉 is to get rid of the IgM and not the chemo toxins.

i have to figure out how to do the latter task myself.

not easy.... it seems to cause lots of damage, and esp. to my bone marrow, which is already in very bad shape.

i talk to my body from time to time, hoping it will forgive me for being too careless.... i forgot that once a cancer patient, one is a cancer patient for the whole life, and should be on full alert all the time.

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2013年5月28日

寄件人：KY

Following your emails, I feel quite ashamed of not being able to come up with something sensible to say. As you are a keen Dong Po fans, I have been trying to look in "東坡易傳" on and off for something relevant in the context for your amusement during this very “唔 好玩" period.

When there is a little restful moment and you feel like it, perhaps a cursory look at the 觀卦 commentary by Dong Po might be interesting. Wonder if fragmentary quotes below may serve as flavor.

六三：觀我生，進退。
《象》曰：“觀我生進退”，未失道也。
六三，上下之際也。故當自觀其生，以蔔進退。

九五：觀我生，君子無咎。
《象》曰：“觀我生”，觀民也。

上九：觀其生，君子無咎。
《象》曰：“觀其生”，志未平也。

此二觀，所自言之者不同，其實一也。觀我生，讀如“觀兵”之“觀”；“觀其生”，讀如“觀魚”之“觀”。九五以其至顯觀之於民，以我示民，故曰“觀我生”。上九處於至高而下觀之，自民觀我，故曰“觀其生”。今夫乘車於道，負者皆有不平之心，聖人以其一身擅天下之樂，厚自奉以觀示天下而天下不怨，夫必有以大服之矣。吾以吾可樂之生而觀之人，人亦觀吾生可樂，則天下之爭心將自是而起，故曰“君子無咎”。君子而後無咎，難乎其無咎也！

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2013年5月28日

寄件人：msw

觀我生，進退 --- not easy already

觀我生，君子無咎; 觀其生，君子無咎 -- that's even more demanding. 東坡 is a die hard

Confucian, despite all his famous romantic encounters with Buddhism and Taoism. i cannot 望真項背。

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2013年5月30日

寄件人：msw

無論是"擁核督數派"或一般講法，早接受了1/3人口患癌為大前題。"擁核督數派"的意思明顯-------再加多些也不為多。一般講法則各色各樣，但命定觀如此堅決則教我訝異。

我在計算：每個癌症病人要藉改善飲食及其他生活處境來重啟健康之門，必須有一個team的幫助。工作包括食療(選、購、煮etc)。清潔、打點藥物、及時覆診等安排、搜尋藥品食物資料、幫助病人與醫療霸權周旋....... 是起碼兩個人的工作量。那麼，全人口(還未扣除老少者)都不是病人, 就是照顧者(1/3 +2/3)。這是個甚麼世界?

但是又不能不作這種自療安排,否則癌症病人只能全集中在醫院任佢"舞", 會慘痛不堪；然作了這種人力安排，就是全民為癌而活，跟著個病轉........

應該有更好的世界，有更理性、仁愛&反省的情神，沒有理由不反核、反基改、食水加氟、1:99.......... 總之不可能讓1/3人口患癌!!!!!!!

Meanwhile, 本人又要入院，唯有挨延至明天(friday)早上報到。這樣進進出出，看來不知不覺連六四平反了，福島輻射填滿了太平洋，我還在虛耗歲月呢。

這次是因為「血鈣」高，而醫院認為要深入調查，因為是我這病的特色之一；我們問了周大師，他則說是吃其中藥的後果之一，遲點自會解決，但我亦覺血鈣高令我心臟不舒服，人癱瘓，週五入週六出，吊鹽水排鈣兼輸兩包血。

中西醫沒有結合，苦在病人。

順帶一提KC：羅漢果水的確對化療下的飛滋 et al.有效，但周大師說不可煲超過20分鐘。

2013年6月2日

我又來也﹗從醫院復活而出----差點被禁錮當小白鼠被實驗死耶。

事緣：世上有了research，出papers，升級，上位......那回事之後，沒有任何人性稍高貴一面的一些「人」，身為血科醫生，便蠢蠢欲動矣，在B1、B2病房尋找獵物。好在我從首次進QM，已發現他們行動可疑----總是長期留下一堆病人在這些其實是臨時的病房裏天天落藥，天天檢驗。有一個鄉音很重的女人，還朝九晚五地上班一般在那裏吊藥呢﹗

他們亦看中我，抽我很多血要找出所有不正常數字來----去砌他們的爬升梯子。多險惡啊﹗他們可以動員病房中的權威主義、官僚主義，優勢差不多全在那邊，我等病民唯一的自衛武器是逃。我昨天早上已見一阿婆被醫護人員（簇擁著那名血科爬升動物）團團圍住，說不能出院。阿婆理直氣壯，說我個女話醫院多菌。其後阿女來，加一外傭，阿婆火速換衫，變身，走人。我稍後亦以她為榜樣。感謝Angela（不是我個女）和Lily（不是外傭）的協助，叫雞記走人。

多可怕啊。以後只敢回日間護理部，一分鐘都不能走進B1B2病房，那裏雖然有些醫生明明也知道留著我們這些血科病人毫無醫學、醫療上的理由，但規例上還是要讓那兩個掛著人面的東西的意見作最後定準。

一個姓X（X氏家族新一代），一個姓Y，小心啊﹗

是病房裏萬種驚心動魄滅絕人性的事物之一而已。

大家合作他日弄個clinic吧。我能逃，很多人不能。我終於還是為要得到醫院的幾包血支援而做化療，KC說還有人為自練氣功不用西醫抗癌而需要「假紙」給工作單位，為得醫院假紙因而要做化療。嘩，咁弔詭都有﹗

不知香港醫護人員為何要做無國界醫生到遠處去，既無國界觀念就唔該看看香港d阿婆阿公阿女阿仔阿陳大文、文大陳點樣在local病房裏suffer吧，不要歧視他/他們，出手阻止這些恐怖主義吧，無須遠遊的。

d老人家不停在老人院與醫院之間被運送，生活得比難民還驚恐，個個皮包骨，Angela話齋，老人是餓死的，不是病死的。只給她/他們餵藥，不給decent地餵食，無法讓個個重新曉行曉踢，「無國界」使命不正是要趕走這種集體被非人道對待的場面嗎？

逃回到家，身體的三重困擾----個病、化療後不適、中藥引起的不適雖然持續令人虛弱，但一天都光，空氣都美，人都無癲，自由地練功，自由地疲倦、睡覺，醒來執拾下。

像個人。

Si Wai

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2013年6月2日

寄件人：msw

2013年6月3日

這大場病前及病中常聽到「以意念超越身體之苦」之說，病到嘗了不少苦頭時總覺自己境界特低，人人的日常教訓我總做不到，自卑得很。

自從知道化療藥物有depression效果後，重新理解心境方面，也不是你努力要到那境界就一定可到，可以有些改善（如我用理智分析法），但「不能」之處甚多，因為血肉之軀會受體內賀爾蒙、電解質等億萬樣野影響甚至控制，知道後自卑少了一些。

但還是接到大家經常投訴我病了還在憂慮這個那個情況，不放下心來休養，而自己也覺憂慮實在有很多----有些是的確要精明籌劃精心對付的，如與西醫建制扭六壬，但有些的確是過慮了。對後者，我謹向大家致歉，但今天從周大師口中得到一些「解釋」。

周大師說：你吃我這中藥，是急速爭取IgM全面下降（即一味進攻引發IgM的癌細胞），其他我不管，即使是心跳氣促虛弱，及心慌。

「心慌」二字，完全囊括我晚近的感覺，也就是大家說的「過慮」，其實是心慌，大概接近panic attacks，事事都怕做不到，做不來，莫名地惶恐，每日黃昏六時後至天明一段，尤其無助，且一直自己也覺得怎麼變成這樣的人，還憂慮這樣子日後怎做人。

這是病中教訓：

近世多注意pyschosomatic dimension，以生理病有心理根源，甚至解了心結生理病便復原；也許「以意念超越身體之苦」也借助了這潮流，但有時便忽略了另一面----生理因素令心理反應不由自主地出現，再大的心理「調校」，也難抵擋，[或許高僧/高比丘尼可以，我文某不能，唉，還請大家多多包涵。不過周大師既講到明他的藥引起心慌，那我就試試不那麼慌，起碼不那麼「慌」自此以後變或慌張不堪的人，因這中藥應不會有永久損害吧。]

太唯心不可，太唯物不對，中間落墨，並要健身。共勉。

Si Wai

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2013年6月3日

寄件人：my

果然很理智分析！病中都能不斷深層次思考，佩服佩服 :)

身心不二，誰超越誰可能都不好，還是和平共處互相理解慢慢和解吧。。。

我都找了林孝宗的書看看，佢睇了很多有關癌症的書後似乎幾認同壓力太大係致癌導火線。咁就趁機做多d輕鬆樂趣事，轉移下注意力；或者第日恢復後都多d留意下生活工作唔好咁大壓力。。。。

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2013年6月3日

寄件人：msw

2013年6月4日

寄件人：Ching

尋晚的鏗鏘集，拍得幾好

http://programme.rthk.hk/rthk/tv/programme.php?name=tv/hkcc&d=2013-06-03&p=858&e=&m=episode

政府今年向業界推出一個約章計劃，限期前停止補充25火及以上鎢絲燈泡，限期後完全停售，希望以自然淘汰的方式限制鎢絲燈泡的銷售，從而令市民轉用其他較節省能源的慳電膽和LED燈膽。

不過, 推動環保之餘, 取代鎢絲燈泡的慳電膽及LED燈膽, 一直被已停用鎢絲燈泡國家的醫學界及病人組織指有影響部份人的身體健康, 例如感到頭暈不適, 或皮膚敏感, 甚至有研究指會傷害視力, 或有機會導致皮膚癌。特區政府在計劃中並無立法強制生產商全面回收含有有毒金屬水銀的節能燈膽, 一隻慳電膽，含大約五毫克水銀。假如水銀在運送堆積區前泄漏, 或長埋堆積區，滲入地下之後會令周圍的土壤和水源受到污染。以環保之名鼓勵市場淘汰鎢絲燈泡，以慳電膽和LED燈膽取而代之的政策是否周全？節能照明燈膽對人體健康有何潛在風險？

編導: 葉婉虹

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2013年6月4日

寄件人：msw

one wonders how can the world be so crazy to allow products to be out on the market long before their ill impacts are recognized and eliminated. and the governments are there to help promote them!!!???

in mass murdering our fellow humans whose genes do not allow them to be "fit enough" to survive this world of new products, we are in fact making our gene pool shrink. in the end the human species will be phased out from this planet, probably after a long and torturous process.

i don't particularly sympathize with this miserable, greedy species which i am a member of, not only because i am now sick with some illness that most probably originated from some "new" product of a certain era such as certain chemical or ionizing radiation. thinking about how my own species also brings great disaster to other species makes me so ashamed of my species actually.

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2013年6月5日

寄件人：KY

臣弒其君，子弒其父，非一朝一夕之故，其所由來者漸矣，由辯之不早辯也。易曰，履霜堅冰至。。。。

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2013年6月8日

寄件人：msw

Don't know if you can view this Dan Rather Report on bees. Hope you can. Otherwise can read the following comments bu Dr Mercola.

If you can see the program you can see how blatantly uncaring the US govt is towards real environmental issue. Politics is how to collude with big business. This seems to be common for democratic countries and undemocratic ones. People have to quickly dissociate from their govts (don't waste energy on trying to find "better politicians" - thru elections etc. - to solve problems) and try new ways to work together for SURVIVAL.

http://articles.mercola.com/sites/articles/archive/2013/06/08/bees-dying-off.aspx?e_cid=20130608_DNL_art_1&utm_source=dnl&utm_medium=email&utm_content=art1&utm_campaign=20130608

2013年6月6日

the first part of the forwarded mail (background part, written by Gordon Edwards) is very well written and should be translated into chinese to explain to people the current state of the Fukushima plants and the danger of nuclear accident.

anyone interested in doing that?

Si Wai

---------- Forwarded message ----------
From: Gordon Edwards
Date: Thu, 06 Jun 2013 03:11:06 -0400
Subject: Leak Found in Steel Tank for Contaminated Water at Fukushima

Background: June 6, 2013

[ See Akio Matsumura's excellent blog at http://tinyurl.com/m9rasxx . ]

Large volumes of radioactively contaminated water are being produced every day from the stricken Fukushima Dai-ichi Nuclear Station in Japan. News reports tell of leaking underground tanks and the hasty construction of more and more storage tanks above ground. Here's why this is all happening, two years after the disastrous 2011 accident.

(1) When nuclear fuel is used in a nuclear reactor or an atomic bomb, the atoms in the fuel are “split” (or “fissioned”) to produce energy. The fission process is triggered by subatomic particles called neutrons. In a nuclear reactor, when the neutrons are stopped, the fission process also stops. This is called “shutting down the reactor”.

(2) But during the nuclear fission process, hundreds of new varieties of radioactive atoms are created that did not exist before. These unwanted radioactive byproducts accumulate in the irradiated nuclear fuel -- and they are, collectively, millions of times more radioactive than the original nuclear fuel.

(3) These newly created radioactive materials are classified as fission products, activation products, and transuranic elements. Fission products -- like iodine-131, cesium-137 and strontium-90 -- are the broken pieces of atoms that have been split. Activation products -- like hydrogen-3 ("tritium"), carbon-14 and cobalt-60 -- are the result of non-radioactive atoms being transformed into radioactive atoms after absorbing one or more stray neutrons. Transuranic elements -- like plutonium, neptunium, curium and americium -- are created by transmutation after a massive uranium atom absorbs one or more neutrons to become an even more massive atom (hence “transuranic”, meaning “beyond uranium”).

(4) Because of these intensely radioactive byproducts, irradiated nuclear fuel continues to generate heat for years after the fission process has stopped. This heat (“decay heat”) is caused by the ongoing atomic disintegration of the nuclear waste materials. No one knows how to slow down or shut off the radioactive disintegration of these atoms, so the decay heat is literally unstoppable. But decay heat does gradually diminish over time, becoming much less intense after about 10 years.

(5) However, in the early years following a reactor shutdown, unless decay heat is continually removed as quickly as it is being produced, the temperature of the irradiated fuel can rise to dangerous levels -- and radioactive gases, vapours and particles will be given off into the atmosphere at an unacceptable rate.

(6) The most common way to remove decay heat from irradiated fuel is to continually pour water on it. Tepco is doing this at the rate of about 400 tons a day. That water becomes contaminated with fission products, activation products and transuranic elements. Since these waste materials are radiotoxic and harmful to all living things, the water cannot be released to the environment as long as it is contaminated.

(7) Besides the 400 tons of water used daily by Tepco to cool the melted cores of the three crippled reactors, another 400 tons of ground water is pouring into the damaged reactor buildings every day. This water is also becoming radioactively contaminated, so it too must be stored pending decontamination.

(8) Tepco is using an "Advanced Liquid Processing System" (ALPS) that is able to remove 62 different varieties of radioactive materials from the contaminated water -- but the process is slow, removal is seldom 100 percent effective, and some varieties of radioactive materials are not removed at all.

(9) Tritium, for example, cannot be removed. Tritium is radioactive hydrogen, and when tritium atoms combine with oxygen atoms we get radioactive water molecules. No filtration system can remove the tritium from the water, because you can’t filter water from water. Released into the environment, tritium enters freely into all living things.

(10) Nuclear power is the ultimate example of the throwaway society. The irradiated fuel has to be sequestered from the environment of living things forever. The high-quality materials used to construct the core area of a nuclear reactor can never be recycled or reused but must be perpetually stored as radioactive waste. Malfunctioning reactors cannot be completely shut off because the decay heat continues long after shutdown. And efforts to cool a badly crippled reactor that has melted down result in enormous volumes of radioactively contaminated water that must be stored or dumped into the environment.

No wonder some have called nuclear power “the unforgiving technology”.

Gordon Edwards.

2013年6月7日

病到這田地，對身体再不敢怠慢，又因眼底出血故，只能看很多圖的書，或狀態最佳時看字，所以還是花多些時間用自己來做人体實驗，試一些坊間療法，及做其他有關觀察。

1.油拔法：化療後從鼻管一直倒流，是一種可怕的(有毒?)液体，令整個口腔乾涸並流到胃裡作反，便試含苦茶油(以前土生合作社有售那種，現市面上賣的當然貴得多)，果然有片刻舒服，也令飛滋舒服一會。可惜好像沒法整天油拔，只能每日一兩回作"口腔清理"而已。

至於油拔是否如傳說中可改善身體，則未悉。

2. 羅漢果水及其他滋潤飲品：不少人試用羅漢果水對治化療後口腔沙漠化有效，周大師主張煲不超過20分鐘，但與其他如雪梨無花果、蘋果、蔗水、木瓜雪耳等都有太甜之弊，不能整天代替水來喝(但水真是愈喝愈渴，很難受)，我僅在晚上起床時飲一兩次。白天飲什麼？周大師說綠茶或普洱，因這化療藥極傷胃，我不敢整天喝茶，便只能弄稀普洱來喝，非常違反我對普洱一向的飲用文化，不開心。

3.隔渣的果汁：一向都用來作抗癌主打，惟先前疏懶了，隨便吃水果便算，再不敢了。

4. 氣功：仍練自發功，以之對治各种隨時在身體任何部份的大小不適及痛楚，有些效。但苦於中藥和化療影響下，有時動彈不得，不過也躺在床上慢慢一點一滴練，後來便能起床。半夜睡醒一回練一回，便可重新入睡。失眠人士可試試。

到外面採氣要看天氣和自己狀態，但盡量去，在21樓排不到太多病氣，赤腳在草/泥地上走最好。遇到一片天然樹木地帶(縱使沒有大樹，天然便好)就不要放過。

5. 靜：由於個病，加上化療等激化，身體「重災」之一是「麻」。不只手腳下身麻痺，還覺整個身體都不屬自己，東西吃進去感覺不到(除了不舒服則很感覺到)，按摩甚麼的也全是隔靴搔癢----總覺這是誰的身體？這狀態下心裏便很不踏實，「失控」的感覺強烈，「心慌」由此加重。當被這心慌無緣無故包圍時，覺得連思想心情也不是自己(能控制)的----身、心都失去，我還在這裏做甚麼？便愈覺恐怖。這恐怖感隨時發生，發生時最好以「靜」對之。不知大學還是中庸說過：定而後能靜，靜而後能安，安而後能得。我定不了神，所以先取靜，發覺有幫助。要靜下來，練功也有幫助。

真是過山車。

6. 在本身已是「弱雞」狀態下，先前在QM的一連串經驗對我來說竟製造了一大堆夢魘，時常冒出來嚇我一輪，現要一一驅魔。

驅魔，針對自己心態，也檢視客觀建制。

7. 彈性：食睡痌的生理時鐘全不按大眾的本子行走，便唯有遷就自己這些irregularities----半夜大刷幾餐，隨時上廁，隨時睡倒，不知所謂......

2013年6月8日

開始半天(其實是凌晨三時小食後到中午)斷食，同步把書架上有關"吃"的書拿出來清理一下，非常合拍。

小斷食其實是實際需要，因早上吃甚麼都分胃部大翻騰，整天捧心叫苦，這樣不如不吃。大概是體內某些賀爾蒙因藥物影響作怪，胃部之不適與懷孕經驗相似(純猜測)。

清理書是將全屋的書翻閱一輪以便極大化送走的數量------字小的由Lily評審，有圖而字大的由我來操持。希望秋前將"看罷"與"罷看"的送入倉，連同那裡長處冷宮的同類一起交雷競璇處置------他在秋季開學後在中大再搞一次送書給同學。

我們那些都是不錯的書，不過倉庫不斷加租，而且現時中大有些大陸學生看書風氣還好，要送便快送，再遲一旦港化了不讀書(只讀notes, ppts)，送就多餘了。

送走書後，陳皮村書店也在物料上徹底消失，又一階段矣。

現時翻閱的"食"書中分三類：1. 嚴肅的食的社會文化史, 2. 食的社會文化史小品, 3. 食譜(古今中外)。食譜尤其難取決，明知不會自己一一照煮那麼瘋狂，還是想儲起來看，未免"貪婪"。大學生還不懂得生活滋味，也許先考慮送給愛煮的朋友吧。

這季節蚊多蠓多(其實是人噴藥過多的惡性循環), 外出練功只能在清晨，吸了樹氣山氣，滋養兼暖胃，也配合小斷食。

食有時，不食有時，藏書散書也如是。

2013年6月9日

推動拍打拉筋那蕭宏慈主張把好中醫聚集起來，建一條中醫村，不讓她/他們的醫術(包括快治---救急的外治和內治--能力)淹沒。好醫生當然應在各地人民之中，他這樣主張當然是見情勢危急，要挽救大局於既倒之故。

他說中醫 "早被西醫 「結合」得奄奄一息"，說得真中。

現因化療傷元氣，採蕭宏慈之扭腰功強腎，腎氣挺得住才有得玩，包括牙齒，不想化療完畢牙齒掉光。

又胃極差，反映脾胃弱。他主張要靜-----靜坐等法幫助，少思慮，及辟穀、少吃。少吃容易做到，少思慮在我現時的藥物影響下，有點難以完全自主達致。惡性循環。

2013年6月10日

周大師說化療不能打IgM，只能將骨髓造血的各種失誤混在一起打，所以他說我的各種失誤就交化療打，他只管我這致命的IgM。

遂初步訂了以下療程：除了在化療後一週停中藥外，其餘三星期連續狂打血中的IgM。例如下星期就做第二輪化療，這星期就盡地一鋪用猛藥狂打云云。

問，如此是否要做足六次化療咁傷身，他說要，理由古怪------「一生人只能做一次化療(這個我都知，因為再做不但無效，反而攞命)，就做盡佢啦。」不知可否第三、四次後停，還是要看周大師搞IgM搞成點再算-------他一再強調他將IgM之外的所有問題留給化療(及我自己？)搞掂，唔理得咁多。

這種中醫就是蕭宏慈講的做「快治」的，但蕭說：在醫院裏(msw註：通常亦即大學裏)搵食的不是這種，所以需要從民間找到真正的高人。

所以可能直踩到十月、十一月，希望頂得住各種副作用----尤其是心慌意亂及抑鬱難紓方面，嘩真係好難受，連聲音、光暗度及種種情況都能令我隨時忽然覺得受襲，看見人多就大大地被嚇倒﹗

今天(6.10)到維園發現了個還未遭受「現代化」、「美化」、「主題化」、「石屎/雲石化」入侵的南洋杉小樹林，樹高不見頂，棲鳥數不盡，採氣一輪，腳步稍稍站穩，真是「天」佑窮途末路的病民，有佢扶助，氣功練好便是自己的責任了。

大家記得保護舊公園的面貌與樹木，看見一輪輪的舞劍、太極、輪椅人士在那裏得到庇蔭，你會覺得世界還有一線「自力救濟」(包括自療)的機會，勿失勿忘啊。

2013年6月11日

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(1) 今次我們沒有連缐支援，可惜。

60,000 in Tokyo protest government plans to restart nuclear power
Posted on June 3, 2013 by Adam Westlake in Features, National

60,000 in Tokyo protest government plans to restart nuclear power Approximately 60,000 people rallied in Japan’s capital of Tokyo on Sunday, June 2nd in order to protest recent government plans to restart the country’s idled nuclear reactors. People gathered in Shiba Park and later marched towards the parliament building. Among the organizers was Kenzaburo Oe, a Nobel literature laureate, who called on the Japanese government to leave the nuclear power plants in suspension out of fears for safety.

The Japanese government has previously stated that it will most likely allow those reactors to return to power which have been approved by the Nuclear Regulation Authority (NRA), whose new safety guidelines are scheduled to be adopted in July. One of Japan’s largest-ever protests saw 170,000 people gather in a similar fashion in July 2012, around the same time that then-Prime Minister Yoshihiko Noda decided on the first two reactor restarts since the March 2011 Fukushima disaster. As of now, the anti-nuclear protestors say they have collected over 8 million signatures of those opposed to reactor restarts.

As they marched through the streets, the protestors carried signs and banners that had messages such as “No Nukes! Unevolved Apes Want Nukes!” As of today, the two reactors that were restarted last summer, located in Oi, Fukui Prefecture, are the only ones out the country’s 50 that have returned to operation. While Sunday’s rally was organized between three different groups, Kyodo news reported that the Tokyo Metropolitan Police Department had put the number of protesters between 20,000 and 30,000.

(2) Can't Win? Change the Rules!
http://fairewinds.org/podcast/too-big-to-fail
Posted On: Apr 24, 2013

The US and Japan are trying to raise acceptable radiation exposure limits. “If you can’t decrease the water level, you elevate the bridge,” says pediatrician and author Dr. Helen Caldicott. On today’s podcast, Arnie and Helen discuss the associated health risks of various types of radioactive releases, how regulators and the nuclear industry are downplaying those releases, and the current state of the Fukushima clean up. “The recovery of the site will go nowhere as long as Tokyo Electric is in charge,” says Arnie.

Podcast Transcript

Kevin Hurley: It is Wednesday, April 24th, 2013 and this is the Energy Education podcast. I’m Kevin Hurley. Today on the show we are joined by special guest and Nobel Prize Nominee, Dr. Helen Caldicott and Arnie Gundersen to discuss a multitude of issues, including various types of radioactive releases, their associated health risks, and how regulators in the nuclear industry are downplaying those releases. Radiation contamination is very difficult to clean up. And rather than working to lower radiation exposure to the public, government officials and industry promoters around the world are pushing to raise the standard of maximum allowable radiation concentration levels to the public. Finally, we will share some details about the Fukushima clean up and how the people of Japan will be best served if the Tokyo Electric Power Company is removed from oversight of the Fukushima clean up and an independent company replaces them to deal with the problem head on. Today I would like to welcome Dr. Helen Caldicott to the show. Dr. Caldicott, thanks for coming on.

Dr. Helen Caldicott: Pleasure.

KH: And of course, Arnie Gundersen. Thanks for joining us.

AG: Hey Kevin, thanks again for having me.

KH: Helen, the last time we spoke was before the New York City Symposium. How did that go?

HC: Yes, I was particularly pleased with how it went. It was really flawless. Everyone turned up. The papers were absolutely excellent and it was not boring at all. Each paper had a different aspect about nuclear power radiation and the damages to the environment and to health. And people were absolutely thrilled. We had about 300 people there. Not as much media as I wanted to because I put it on to educate the media. However, it is available online at the Helen Caldicott Foundation.org It is now being translated into Japanese because the Japanese really want to be able to access it. And also it is presently being transcribed to be published in a book by the New Press. I hope fairly shortly.

KH: In addition, there were 4,000 people connected on YouStream.

KH: That is right. And I think about 360 cities logged in to watch it, so it did get a fairly wide exposure. It was the latest in the science related to radiation, nuclear accidents and the like. And so it gives people ammunition who are fighting local reactors to take on bodies like the NRC, etc. because then they will know what they are talking about and will have lots of facts at their fingertips.

KH: Speaking about ammunition and fighting the government, the Environmental Protection Agency is now talking about raising the radiation limits, the maximum allowable radiation limits after a nuclear accident. To me, and probably many others, this really seems like just one more way of making the Fukushima Daiichi problem go away.

HC: That is right. If you cannot decrease the water level, you elevate the bridge. So the truth is that if there is a nuclear accident, it does not matter what your standard to exposure to radiation to human beings is. After a nuclear accident like Fukushima, the large contiguous areas become extremely radioactive and will be so for hundreds of years. So it is really just putting the icing on the cake so to speak. The cake is already there, and they are admitting that they can do nothing about it. It gave everyone a shock, but the truth is that once an area has been contaminated, that is it. And I suppose they are just coming to terms with reality. But it is very, very scary and it makes people understand what a nuclear accident would really mean.

AG: Now a nuclear plant releases a bunch of different types of radiation. In my report, I spent a lot of time talking about the nobel gasses that were released. Enormous concentrations for 5 or 6 days of nobel gasses came out of Fukushima Daiichi. Now they are inside the fuel and as soon as the fuel cracks, we do not need a meltdown, as soon as the fuel cracks, the gasses escape into the containment. But I think what Daiichi showed us is that the containments failed as well. So the last barrier of defense failed, releasing huge amounts of nobel gasses.

KH: Can you talk a little bit about some of the medical consequences?

HC: I think you said, Arnie, 3 times more nobel gasses were released at Fukushima than at Chernobyl, is that correct?

AG: Yes, that is right.

HC: Nobel gasses, or nobel elements, are those that do not combine chemically with anything in the body. They are sort of kind of neutral. Because carbon 14 actually combines with the DNA molecule, so does tritium and strontium as a calcium analog gets into the body, etc. But nobel gasses do not go specifically to anywhere in the body because of their chemical makeup. However, nobel gasses are very high energy gamma emitters, like X-rays. And so if you are immersed in a cloud of nobel gasses, you are going to get a big dose of radiation, external radiation, like an X-ray. However, if you inhale the nobel gasses, and they are xenon, krypton and argon, xenon being the worst, you inhale the gasses and, in fact, they readily pass through the alveoli, the little air sacs in the lungs, into the blood where they circulate. And they are fat soluble so they deposit in the fatty tissues of the body, which are the abdominal fat pad and the upper thighs where there is a lot of fat. And they there irradiate very important cells with gamma radiation: the ovaries and testicles. And so people who are immersed in a cloud of radioactive gasses, like at Fukushima and Three Mile Island and Chernobyl, get a hell of a dose of radiation, not just to the ovaries and testicles which are very important, but to other organs of the body. I used to use xenon 133 in my patients to estimate their lung function. Patients with cystic fibrosis have their lungs clogged up with mucus, very thick mucus. So areas of the lung become totally non-functional. So we would do ventilation fusion scans to see what areas of the lung are in truth being ventilated and what areas are being perfused by the blood. And we are now using xenon 133 to look at fatty tumors in the body, to isolate them because as I said, they are very fat soluble, these nobel gasses.

AG: Let me refer our listeners to the presentation I gave at the conference where I spent a large amount of time talking about the nobel gas releases. So if you want to learn more about the quantities that were released, and like I said, they are 3 times what was released after Chernobyl, go over to the Fairewinds website and there is a separate video on the presentation that I made through the Caldicott Foundation in New York City back in March.

HC: Arnie, I have got a question. Can you extrapolate from the fact that there were 3 times more nobel gasses released at Fukushima than Chernobyl, to other isotopes? Would you therefore say that most of the other isotopes will be 3 times the release at Chernobyl or not?

AG: Yes, I talk about that in the presentation. Some of the isotopes do plate out. I think the cesium concentration is going to be comparable to what was released at Chernobyl. There was some plate out in chemical reactions but I think the IAEA and the Japanese are grossly downplaying the cesium releases. If you go back to what Steve Wing said in Harrisburg 4 years ago, there were noticeable increases in lung cancer for the people that lived within 30 miles of Three Mile Island in the first 10 days of the accident. So 5 years after the accident, people began to get lung cancer. And that is the only thing Steve could measure, but I attribute that to breathing enormous amounts of nobel gasses.

HC: I think, yes, you might be right about that. In fact, I see that lung cancer starts to appear 2 years after Three Mile Island, which is extremely early. You would not expect lung cancers to arrive for probably 15 years, but they appeared very early which would indicate therefore that the people at Three Mile Island got a hell of a dose of gamma radiation to their lungs from the nobel gasses if they inhaled them. And so we would expect to see that around Fukushima now. We are just sitting on a powder keg of cancers.

AG: And where it goes in your body and what it does to your body.

HC: There are 3 isotopes: one is 137, 134 and I cannot remember the other one, Arnie? But cesium 137 has a half life of 30 years which you multiply by 10 to get its total radiological life, its total radioactive life and so that is 300 years. Some multiply it by 20 to say 600 years. It is a very high energy gamma emitter but also it emits beta radiation which is just an electron emitted from the unstable nucleus and it does not do any damage to you unless you get cesium inside your body. Now cesium lands on the soil and it is a potassium analog. It is very much like the element potassium and our bodies are very rich with potassium, all cells contain potassium. And therefore, the cesium lands on the soil and concentrates by orders of magnitude ten to hundreds of thousands of times of each step of the food chain: the grass, the meat, the milk, and then into our bodies or into wheat or into rice or into vegetables or into green tea or into fish. And it really concentrates in fish because they are various levels: there are algae, then crustaceans, then little fish, then big fish. So the bio-concentration in the food chain and the sea is pretty high. Now when you eat food with cesium in it, you cannot taste it, you cannot smell it and you cannot see it. It is invisible to our senses and it is absorbed from the bowel because the body thinks it is potassium. And it goes to many organs in the body, like the brain where it can cause brain cancer. It is concentrated in muscles because they are rich in potassium, where it can form a very rare form of cancer, rhabdomyosarcoma. And that is a very nasty cancer that spreads incredibly fast. And in fact, I lived on Long Island near the Brookhaven National Labs where there had been a meltdown some years before and there were 19 children at the time who developed rhabdomyosarcoma. And over time, that is just extremely rare and would indicate that the area was contaminated with cesium 137. It also can concentrate in the ovaries and the testicles where it can damage the eggs and the sperm, causing genetic disease in future generations, and it concentrates in heart muscle and it can cause gross abnormalities in the conduction system of the heart causing sudden death or cardiac irregularities, and it also concentrates in the endocrine system, in the thyroid, and in the pancreas where insulin is produced. So it is a very nasty poison and will remain active in the food around Fukushima for hundreds of years.

AG: I think you said something really important there. We worry about radiation and cancer, but in fact there are non-cancer problems associated with cesium as well.

HC: Yes. If you read the reports from Chernobyl published by the New York Academy of Sciences which was put together by Alexei Yablokov from Russia. There are many diseases caused by exposure to radiation. One is cataracts of the lenses so people can go relatively blind. One is premature aging of children, that is called Progeria; they age very fast. Diabetes is virtually an epidemic around Chernobyl now. Thyroid abnormalities, hypothyroidism where the thyroid does not pump out enough hormones so you get what is called Myxedema, very slow, you put on weight, your hair falls out, your mental capacities decline and your appetite goes away and your periods stop. And that is a nasty disease. Also of course, it causes thyroid cancer and lots of other abnormalities. Babies who were in utero at the time of the accident were exposed to radiation which damages the developing nervous system. So in Sweden, they have done a survey of babies who were in utero at the time of Chernobyl and they have lower than normal IQ’s. There are towns around Chernobyl full of the most grossly deformed children because they were damaged in the first 3 months of intrauterine life where limbs grow and brain grows and heart grows and so radiation can damage the cell that is going to form the left half of the brain for instance or the right arm, like Thalidomide did. We have never seen so many grossly deformed children as you see in those towns in Chernobyl. There is a film made about it called “Chernobyl Heart”. If you read that book from the New York Academy of Sciences, it is called Chernobyl, it is I think the most alarming medical survey that I have ever read in my medical existence. Radiation can just do a whole lot of just dreadful things.

AG: We seem to focus on the cesium concentrations, but scientifically, the cesium is easy to detect. So everyone is saying so the cesium concentration is, but it does not mean that cesium is the only isotope out there. It is just sort of the canary in the mine shaft if you will. I am sure that there is strontium, which is very difficult to detect, and that is a problem because that goes to the bone.

HC: Yes. Strontium 90, it has a half life of 28 years, so it is around for 300 years as well in the food. And it is a calcium analog. It is a beta emitter, so it is very hard to . . . you cannot detect it really with a geiger counter. And it gets into the food, concentrates, as I said, especially in milk and cheese and yogurt and the like. When it gets into the gut, the body says, oh, calcium, and so it is transported through the blood to the bone and the teeth where it is laid down. And the beta particle can damage a regulatory gene in the bone cell and the bone sits quietly for incubation times cancer, anytime from 5 to 80 years. And one day that cell divides in an unregulated way and that is a bone cancer, osteogenic sarcoma. Senator Kennedy’s son had that and had his leg amputated. Little Edward. It also causes leukemia because the white blood cells are made in the bone marrows. So if you radiate a white blood cell and the regulatory gene is damaged, the white blood cell begins to proliferate in the trillions. Leukemia means white blood and the blood fills up with immature white blood cells which cannot fight infection and the bone marrow gets packed with white blood cells so there is no room for platelets to grow which cause clotting. So patients with leukemia die either of massive hemorrhage and/or massive infection, a bit like the way AIDS patients die.

AG: Here in the United States when we detect strontium in fish, the nuclear industry’s position, well it is in the bone and nobody eats the bone. We always eat the meat. But the problem in Japan is that frequently there are a lot of fish stews created. And when you boil the fish bone, the strontium does not stay in the bone, again, it goes into the stew and can be re-ingested by the people that eat the fish stew.

HC: That is right. And also a lot of Japanese eat the bones of the fish if the fish are small and the bones are small.

KH: So moving along now. Let’s talk a little bit about iodine.

HC: O.K. There are 2 iodine isotopes. One is iodine 131 which has a half life of 8 days, meaning it lasts only for about 10 weeks before it decays away to nothing. It is a very high energy gamma emitter like that X-ray that I talked about, and also a beta emitter, the electrons. And iodine only goes to one gland in the body which is the thyroid gland which sucks it up. But particularly in children, their thyroids are like a little sponge and they suck up iodine, particularly in areas where iodine is sparse in the environment, like around Chernobyl. So they have low iodine levels and so the thyroid particularly concentrates it. And so the iodine can change a regulatory gene in the thyroid gland, in a cell and cause cancer. Now already in Fukushima we have seen about 10 thyroid cancers developing in children. That is extremely rare because it took 5 years for thyroid cancers to start manifesting after Chernobyl. So this is very early, it is only 2 years, indicating to me as a pediatrician that these children got a hell of a dose of radioactive iodine. But also, they got a big dose of everything else. And as Arnie knows, nuclear reactors contain several hundred of these poisons. Some only last seconds but some last millions of years. So there is a whole cocktail of radioactive elements that people will have inhaled and eaten. The other iodine is iodine 129 which has a half life of 17 million years. It is around forever. It is not as potently radioactive as iodine 131, but it is still carcinogenic and that is around forever.

KH: We have talked a little bit about potassium iodine pills in the past and how they might be helpful to people in a nuclear accident. How exactly do they work? My understanding is that they go to the thyroid and somehow protect the thyroid from radiation exposure.

HC: Potassium iodine is just an inert substance. It is not radioactive. But there is a catch. You have to take your potassium iodine tablets before the radioactive cloud reaches you, before you inhale the iodine which is absorbed from the lung. And mostly, well, in the major accidents, Fukushima, Chernobyl and Three Mile Island, people did not know about it till days after the accidents occurred because the authorities do not let them know whereby and by which time they have already inhaled radioactive iodine. That is too late. You have to take it before the cloud of radioactive iodine reaches you. What it does is saturate the thyroid with normal iodine so the thyroid will reject it. I think 70% of the radioactive iodine, but I think 30% still gets incorporated into the thyroid. The other thing is of course, radioactive iodine is concentrated readily in food and particularly in milk. So children drinking milk that comes from cows or goats or sheep that have been contaminated from the reactor accident, are drinking radioactive iodine. So you might have potassium iodine tablets in your medicine cabinet if you live near a reactor or far from a reactor, in fact, but you probably will not know in time to take the iodine anyway. And it only protects the thyroid, not totally as I have said 70% not 100% and it does not protect any other organs.

KH: So clearly potassium iodine pills or tablets can help people in the event of a nuclear accident if they are dispensed quickly. However we see during the Three Mile Island accident and now the Fukushima accident, that they were withheld, they were not dispensed quickly. Why is that?

HC: Yes, that is right. They do not want to give it a bad name. So if the health authorities say look you have got to have these tablets in case there is a meltdown, everyone gets very panicked and so you do not want to create panic. The Japanese government in fact stated that. They did not tell the people where the very highly radioactive cloud was moving across the country northwest because they did not want to create panic and the people evacuated right into the path of that radioactive plume. That is obscene. So it is the government officials in fact protecting, and a part of, the nuclear industry. They are not there to protect the people although we elect them and we pay for them.

AG: All these isotopes indicate a couple of things to me. They indicate that nuclear fuel failed. And we know that. There is a meltdown and a melt through of the nuclear reactor vessels. But that would not be enough unless the containment failed too. The containment is that last line of defense. That we are seeing cesium in the environment and that we are seeing heavy isotopes like plutonium out at 20 and 30 kilometers. So when you see these transuranics, these things that are heavier than uranium out there, all these are signs of gross containment failure.

KH: Let’s shift gears now and talk about the one isotope that has probably been ignored more than any other by the nuclear industry. And that is tritium. Helen, can you tell us a bit about tritium?

HC: Tritium is radioactive hydrogen; instead of being H2 it is H3. And tritium cannot be contained in anything except gold. So you cannot operate a nuclear reactor without it continuously releasing the air and the water that is used to cool the tritium. Tritium, it is a tiny, tiny, tiny particle and if you are enveloped and it combines with oxygen to form tritiating water, H3O. So if you are near a reactor and there is an inversion system and there is fog and you go outside and the fog lands on your skin and the tritium can get right through the skin. Now the skin lets nothing through. It is the most important organ in the body which is why it is so serious if you get bad 3rd degree burns on your body. You lose your integument. Tritium gets through. Tritium also concentrates in food and it is in the water and it combines in the DNA molecule which is the gene. It is incredibly carcinogenic. And although the nuclear industry pooh-poohs anyone who worries about it, if you look at the Journal of Health Physics, there is a huge number of articles about the toxicity of tritium. And there has been testing on mice and rats for years and years and years. And so it induces brain tumors, muscle tumors, all sorts of cancers all over the body and mind you, every cancer can be caused by radiation. Every cancer we describe in medicine can be induced by radiation. It also causes very gross fetal abnormalities and birth deformities. So tritium is a very, very scary element. It is used in exit signs and of course it is leaking out of them. It is used on watch dials and it leaks out of the watches, it leaks out of everything you put it into. And I think the Germans did a study to look at children under the age of 5 years living within 2 miles of 16 reactors and found that those children had double the incidence of leukemia and a high incidence of solid cancers. And the French verified that study by doing a study of their own around their reactors. So it is very dangerous to live near a reactor and children are 10 – 20 times more sensitive to radiation than adults. They get cancer much more readily. And fetuses are thousands of times more so. So no women of childbearing age or children should live near a reactor. That is never talked about and it is partly because of the tritium that gets in. It also gets into the leaves and transpires through the leaves with water that comes down at night and lands on the ground, etc. The one thing though we have not talked about Arnie, is the toxicity of plutonium. And I would like to talk about that.

Plutonium is an alpha emitter, so it is like an electron emitted from a nucleus, only it is bigger, much bigger. And if it hits a gene, bang, it usually destroys the cell but if it does not, the cell is damaged and almost certainly later you will get cancer. So plutonium, named after Pluto, is so toxic that a millionth of a gram, if inhaled into the lung will give you lung cancer. Each reactor makes 250 kilograms of plutonium a year. Kilograms. You need only 5 kilograms to make yourself an atomic bomb. Plutonium has a half life of 24,400 years, so it is around and toxic for a quarter of a million years. The body thinks that plutonium is iron so it can cause lung cancer, it goes to the bone where the hemoglobin is made where it can cause bone cancer or leukemia or multiple myeloma or other such cancers. It is stored in the liver where it can cause liver cancer. It crosses the placenta. The placenta lets nothing through to protect the fetus. But plutonium gets through because it is an iron analog where it can kill a cell that’s is going to form the left half of the brain or the right arm. That is called teratogenesis, damage of a genetically chromosomally normal fetus. It also has a predilection to testicles and tends to concentrate in the testicles next to the cells that are forming the sperm. So it can produce genetic mutations in the sperm to induce genetic diseases passed on generation to generation for the rest of time and there are 2,600 genetic diseases now described like diabetes and cystic fibrosis and hemophilia and many, many others. So plutonium is nasty but there is something nastier. And that is americium 241 which is a decay product, I think, of plutonium 241 which has a fairly short half life. So americium 241 is a potent gamma emitter as well as an alpha emitter. They are extremely worried in Europe because 40% of Europe is contaminated with fallout from Chernobyl and will remain so for hundreds of years. But the americium is now starting to build up as the plutonium 241 decays, and it is very, very toxic and radioactive. So it seems it is going to get worse in Europe over time, not better. And that is described vividly in the book, “On Chernoby” by the New York Academy of Sciences.

AG: Wow Helen, I do not know how you go to sleep at night.

HC: Well, I go to sleep by doing this work which makes me feel more comfortable and that I might make a difference. But in truth, Arnie, we are not making a lot of difference, are we?

AG: I think we are in Japan. I think the Japanese are listening to people like you and the people that went to the symposium more and more and listening to their own government and Tokyo Electric less and less.

HC: Yes, but you know that I just woke up this morning reading more about Fukushima. It is an absolute mess. A total disaster mess. And they will never clean it up. Never. I mean the I.A.E.A. says it will take 40 or 50 years, but they will never clean it up. Let’s be frank. They will not. It is an unmitigated disaster which will remain in perpetuity for the rest of time and a lot of the Japanese may become more and more aware of this situation. There is nothing anyone can do about it. Human beings cannot cope with such an atomic nuclear accident.

AG: I talked about the recovery of Fukushima Daiichi when I was over in Japan at the end of August. And I was at the Independent Press Association and the video is up on the site. But the recovery of the site will go nowhere as long as Tokyo Electric is in charge. The solution to begin improving the condition of the site is to get Tokyo Electric out of the management of the clean-up and put a competent engineering organization reporting right to Japan. The nation of Japan, being funded by the nation of Japan and being overseen by independent experts, as opposed to the closed little club that Tokyo Electric likes to keep the site. Until we do that, that site is going to continue to have leaks and rats eating wires and on and on and on. We have got to get TEPCO out of the picture if we ever expect to make improvements.

HC: Think of the number of people. There are 3,000 men there all the time I think. And they bring homeless men in from Tokyo. Yakuza, who was a Japanese mafia, are subcontracted to provide a lot of the workers. How many people are going to die? You know, being exposed to very high levels of radiation externally, but also inhaling and ingesting radioactive materials. I mean the figures are just . . . a medical disaster beyond compare.

KH: Dr. Caldicott, thanks for coming on the show.

HC: That is a pleasure.

KH: And Arnie, as always.

AG: Thanks again, Kevin.

2013年6月12日

今年五月聽說天氣冷熱得比往常極端，我多時是在醫院病房聽探病的人說外面竟然怎樣怎樣。在病房裏感受不到----都是陰冷的空調，加上我極貧血，常縮在一堆被鋪衣物裏，但又有時覺得窒息，一舉把它們扔到床尾處，不久又拉上來------自己的體溫作了主導。

一天下午正在因思量如何應付咄咄逼人的悍醫，心緒不寧地睡在床上，忽然在非探病時間走進一個白種男人，在病床之間東瞧西看像找人，看清楚是個神父；大概沒有一定的探望對象，只是「探人」，便向我床前走來------因為那時(就像所有時段)我是病房裏唯一不昏迷的病人。他說：「好天氣。」我說：「可惜只有你才可以到外面。」大家心照。

六月在外面了，好天氣壞天氣冷暖自知了，變化的確大。又回想到我的「香港的憂鬱」--------即對「濕熱天氣下再加上家家開冷氣城市擴張.....造成的翳焗迫著我也要開冷氣」的無奈。這個問題本來在搬到愉景灣後鴕鳥地解決了-----過去兩年只開過一次空調，也只是「鐘點」來工作喊熱之故。怎料病後怕空調弄得室溫時冷時熱之餘，又怕濕熱翳，落伍的我遂被告知冷氣若是分體便可恆溫，不會又冷又熱，於是忽然又出現另一個「香港的憂鬱」----安裝分體與否？真是不知怎樣才可在零消耗中不為世界帶來垃圾，故此憂鬱。

那邊廂，閱輕鬆飲食書，台灣作者，是十年前的書了，她提到不少台灣朋友35歲後陸續到農村去自種自食有機，自由身賺點錢便夠，又引述有次去探一戶，吃了那家自種的通菜、絲瓜、九層塔(那麼該是夏天了)，但同時又吃了蕃茄(反映該處相當涼快，少蟲害)、蕃薯(反映無野豬駕臨)，還有南瓜(無瓜蠅)，更令人羨慕的是吃自養雞下的蛋(香港政府令港人永不能站起來的終極方法是不准大眾養雞；有志的公民都須為此起義﹗)，和到附近河裏釣到的鱒魚。嘩，那是甚麼人間仙境？﹗

作者沒有說明是台灣那個地方，但她提過朋友們回歸的鄉土包括澎湖、合歡山、南庄、宜蘭農村......唔。

不禁問：我們喜歡高唱自由花，卻是否真的知道沒有好好耕耘好好收穫的機會，自由又怎樣會開花？

2013年6月13日

寄件人：hrx
收件人： msw

蒜醋：經濟日報這兩天有篇小文，有個神父，直腸癌，化療，胃口不好，聽別人推薦，去英文名的超市和煤氣公司，買到，每天堅持喝一兩勺，嚼一片茶葉去味，加之其他散步等，穩定了，胃口好，沒事了。

普洱茶好，不傷胃，為主，綠茶為輔。果汁榨後，溫一溫為好。野外采地氣穿襪子為好，天氣好晴朗幹燥為好。我個人看法採氣也不必強求，印度人雙盤腿的修練最長壽，秘密在腳心朝上。武講樁，不倒為嬴，必向下練。養生長壽就內丹蓮花座了。你哪裏負離子足夠，窗戶留縫即可，小心別直吹到，感到有生風。

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2013年6月13日

寄件人：msw
收件人： hrx

意見很有用，希望第二回化療不適處理得好些。我練自發功是讓身體自發帶動動作，有時排有時養，病發後多數是排，大概裡面病氣太多，若走動則動作自自然然類似郭林氣功(雖然我未學過)。

2013年6月14日

謝謝文彥寄來以下的links, 讓我認識多點自己的麻痺來源，也公諸各位。化療真可怕，心血不足者就不要看那些links 了，我與魔鬼交易的情況下上了這條船，大眾可能連交易也未想過，但大家其實都是肉捶砧板上。

還有漫長化療，針炙那針得咁多?都是跟那中醫指出的穴位 (阿是穴和足少陰腎經的穴位)，選一些自己按按好了。

http://blog.yahoo.com/_W5ZLQI7A6C2BR37ISKJ7PU5QSE/articles/700078

http://orientaldaily.on.cc/cnt/news/20130614/00176_062.html

http://dailynews.sina.com/bg/ent/hktwstar/phoenixtv/20120905/17193745273.html

http://tw.myblog.yahoo.com/jw!Xwwt0pOKEUZ0Y69Lv.9uiKw-/article?mid=-2&next=9738&l=a&fid=10

下星期一二又要去"化"了。周大師趁這幾天落重(瀉)藥，我則在化之前、瀉與瀉之開把握機會多看幾本書，享受說不出的高興。

2013年6月16日

眾西醫叫我做chemo時沒多句解釋那藥是怎樣的一回事，如何在體內運作等，最巴閉是異口同聲講：唔會脫髮，做啦。(好多野都唔會脫髮，做得幾多？)

昨天開始大量頭髮在地上出現，幾乎想叫回水-----大佬，這chemo做齊成十萬幾銀﹗但Lily話可能是周大師的藥作怪，因好久以前他曾在開方時說呢劑會掉髮，但那次又沒掉。

髮之外的身体狀況仍是以不舒服的居多，仍奢望改善一下故放手更多練自發功，打到自己全身七彩，大力且狠。有趣的是那阿是穴----邊庶痛邊庶就係阿是穴----竟然由自發功找出背部與淋巴與胃有關的穴位，觸之按之極痛，練功時就會狙擊之。

我覺得靜心聽自已身體(練自發功是我聆聽的方式) ，才會得到最誠實而無誤的身体訊息，打自己都打得準打得妙打到呱呱叫。

另：黃TK師傅曾教導在額至太陽穴位置向兩邊拉，和由眉向上雙手按摩），可令人進入深度呼吸狀態，都幾有效，對我夜與日不時出現的panic attacks有幫助。其實這黃師傅訓示是從Lily處聽到的，他教授之時正值我在半昏迷狀態-----那時的事現今已無從記憶。

未知是否最近留意一下Snowden的消息，gmail a/c持續被attacked。之前搞反核時也出現這情況，電話收發也疑被竊聽，但當時大家多認為我是過敏症，以為反核好巴閉咩，邊個理你。其實個世界早就因e通訊而落入極權勢力控制，不用監控思想都死火啦----單是將大眾行為訓練到冇e通訊唔得，那么某一天Big Brother shut down d系統，8－9成人都立時發曬癲。咁都夠 ”皮” 啦-----到時社會大亂，Big Brother叫你點你都制(經歷過panic attack就更知人的心理脆弱性)。

我善養吾浩然之(信)鴿，公民抗命推翻不准私養禽鳥條例，是時候了。

2013年6月17日

This one provides some visual images for understanding the "ionsphere heater" program.

2013年6月18日

........ related to Toxicity of Neonicotinoid Pesticides?

http://articles.mercola.com/sites/articles/archive/2013/06/18/neonicotinoid-pesticide.aspx

Ecosystem and Food Supply Threatened by Gross Underestimate of Toxicity of Neonicotinoid Pesticides
By Dr. Mercola

Research has shown that many pesticides are neurotoxic and can cause disruptions to your neurological system and your brain. The reason why neurotoxins still enjoy widespread use on our food supply is really more about the bottom line for farming operations than it is about the science of human health.

Research has clearly and consistently linked pesticide exposure to Parkinson’s disease. The Environmental Protection Agency (EPA) also considers 30 percent of insecticides to be carcinogenic.

All of these toxic chemicals are permitted on farms growing conventional and genetically engineered crops, and a large number of them can end up on your plate when you purchase conventionally-grown fruits and vegetables and/or processed foods.

But pesticides also have a dramatic impact on the health of our ecosystem. Neonicotinoids, such as Imidacloprid and Clothianidin, kill insects by attacking their nervous systems. These are known to get into pollen and nectar, and can damage beneficial insects such as bees.

These toxic chemicals have been implicated as one of the primary culprits in the mass die-offs of bees, and have subsequently been banned in some countries. The United States, however, is not among these countries...

But the effects of neonicotinoids do not end there. According to recent research by the American Bird Conservancy (ABC), the use of neonicotinoids in seed treatments is also responsible for the death of birds, terrestrial and aquatic invertebrates and other wildlife.

Ecosystem Threatened by ‘Gross Underestimate’ of Toxicity of Neonicotinoids

Nicotine-related compounds called nicotinoids were initially introduced as a new form of pesticide in the 1990s, as widespread pest resistance rendered many older pesticides useless. Many seeds are now “pre-treated” with neonicotinoids, which are water-soluble and break down slowly in the environment.

Today, they are the most widely-used pesticides in the world. In fact, you’d be hard-pressed to find a pesticide that does not contain at least one neonicotinoid insecticide. In California alone, there are nearly 300 registered neonicotinoid products available.

The American Bird Conservancy (ABC), one of the leading bird conservation organizations in the US, is now calling for a ban on the use of neonicotinoids as seed treatments, and wants all pending applications for neonicotinoid products to be suspended pending an independent review of the products’ effects on birds, terrestrial and aquatic invertebrates, and other wildlife.

As reported by the American Bird Conservancy1:

“It is clear that these chemicals have the potential to affect entire food chains. The environmental persistence of the neonicotinoids, their propensity for runoff and for groundwater infiltration, and their cumulative and largely irreversible mode of action in invertebrates raise significant environmental concerns...”

ABC commissioned the world renowned environmental toxicologist Dr. Pierre Mineau to conduct the research, which resulted in a 100-page report2 titled The Impact of the Nation’s Most Widely Used Insecticides on Birds. Mineau’s report reviews 200 studies on neonicotinoids, including industry research obtained through the US Freedom of Information Act.

The report concludes that neonicotinoids “are lethal to birds and to the aquatic systems on which they depend.” Even more disturbing, contamination levels in both surface and ground water around the world are already beyond the threshold found to kill many aquatic invertebrates. According to this shocking toxicology assessment:

•A single kernel of corn treated with this type of pesticide can kill a songbird
•A single grain of wheat or canola treated with the neonicotinoids Imidacloprid can be fatal to a bird
•As little as 1/10th of a neonicotinoid-coated corn seed per day during egg-laying season can affect a bird’s reproductive capability

EPA Accused of Failing to Adequately Assess Environmental Risks

Disturbingly, the US Environmental Protection Agency (EPA) has not adequately assessed the toxicity of neonicotinoids. Part of the problem, according to the featured report, is that the EPA is “using scientifically unsound, outdated methodology that has more to do with a game of chance than with a rigorous scientific process.” This has led the agency to grossly underestimate the toxicity of these chemicals. Furthermore3:

“The report also charges that there is no readily available biomarker for neonicotinoids as there is for cholinesterase inhibitors such as the organophosphorous pesticides.

‘It is astonishing that EPA would allow a pesticide to be used in hundreds of products without ever requiring the registrant to develop the tools needed to diagnose poisoned wildlife. It would be relatively simple to create a binding assay for the neural receptor which is affected by this class of insecticides,’ said Dr. Mineau.”

Dr. Mineau urges the EPA to require pesticide registrants to also provide the diagnostic tools necessary to diagnose cases of wildlife poisonings. So far, neonicotinoids have garnered the most attention and criticism for their role in bee die-offs—a worldwide phenomenon that took off once these newer pesticides became widely used. As stated by ABC4:

“The serious risk to bees should not be understated, as one-third of the US diet depends on these insect pollinators. The ABC assessment makes clear, however, that the potential environmental impacts of neonicotinoids go well beyond bees.”

Link Between Neonicotinoids and Bee Die-Off is ‘Crystal Clear,’ Lawsuit Maintains

A general consensus among beekeepers is that the bee die-offs are most definitely related to toxic chemicals, and neonicotinoids in particular. The disappearance of bee colonies began accelerating in the United States shortly after the EPA allowed these new insecticides on the market in the mid-2000s. In May, beekeepers and environmental groups filed a lawsuit against the agency over its failure to protect bees from these toxic pesticides.

Meanwhile, France has banned Imidacloprid for use on corn and sunflowers after reporting large losses of bees after exposure to it. They also rejected Bayer´s application for Clothianidin, and other countries, such as Italy, have banned certain neonicotinoids as well.

Neonicotinoids are used on most of American crops, especially corn. As mentioned earlier, these chemicals are typically applied to seeds before planting, allowing the pesticide to be taken up through the plant’s vascular system as it grows. As a result, the chemical is expressed in the pollen and nectar of the plant, and hence the danger to bees and other pollinating insects... Needless to say, since the chemical is taken up systemically through the plant, it could also pose potential health risks to anyone eating the plant since it cannot be rinsed off.

Neonicotinoids affect insects' central nervous systems in ways that are cumulative and irreversible. Even minute amounts can have profound effects over time. One of the observed effects of these insecticides is weakening of the bee's immune system. Forager bees bring pesticide-laden pollen back to the hive, where it's consumed by all of the bees. Six months later, their immune systems fail, and they fall prey to secondary, seemingly "natural" bee infections, such as parasites, mites, viruses, fungi and bacteria.

The EPA5 acknowledges that “pesticide poisoning” may be one factor leading to colony collapse disorder, yet they have been slow to act to protect bees from this threat. The current lawsuit may help spur them toward more urgent action, which is desperately needed as the food supply hangs in the balance.

In March, the EPA sent Jim Jones, overseer of the Office of Chemical Safety and Pollution Prevention, to talk to California almond growers and beekeepers, as mass die-offs of bees were seriously threatening this year’s almond crop. But although beekeepers said Jones got the message that bees are in serious trouble, they were dismayed by the fact that he seemed more interested in finding new places for bees to forage rather than addressing the issue of toxic pesticides...

As usual, at the core of the problem is big industry, which is blinded by greed and enabled by a corrupt governmental system that permits the profit-driven sacrifice of our environment. Unfortunately, this motivation reflects an extreme shortsightedness about the long-term survival of the human race, as well as of our planet. Clearly, if the goal of pesticides is to increase food yield to more easily feed 7 billion human beings, this goal falls flat on its face if it leads to the collapse of our food chain.

Pesticides Again Tied to Parkinson's Disease

A recent meta-analysis published in the journal Neurology6, examined data from 104 studies published between 1975 and 2011, in search for a potential link between pesticides and Parkinson's disease. As many previous studies, it found one... Parkinson’s disease is a neurological disorder in which neurons in a region within your brain responsible for normal movement begin to die, causing the telltale shaking and rigidity associated with the disease. There’s currently no known cure, which makes preventing the disease all the more important. Mounting evidence suggests avoiding pesticides is an important part of prevention. As reported by Reuters7:

“In 2011, a study of US farm workers from National Institutes of Health found some pesticides that are known to interfere with cell function were linked to the development of Parkinson's disease. Another study that was published in 2012 also reported that people with Parkinson's disease were more likely to report exposure to pesticides, compared to people without the condition.”

In this latest analysis, exposure to pesticides was linked to a 58 percent increased risk of developing Parkinson’s. Some pesticides were clearly worse than others. Paraquat (a non-selective plant killer) and two fungicides, maneb and mancozeb, were found to double your risk. One of the study’s authors told Reuters that8:

“[T]he study's results suggest that people should avoid contact with pesticides or - at least - wear proper protection when handling the chemicals. The use of protective equipment and compliance with suggested, or even recommended, preventive practices should be emphasized in high-risk working categories (such as farming)."

How Modern Farming Methods Have Led to Toxic Food Supplies

Chlorinated hydrocarbons, or organochlorines like DDT were developed after World War II and remained widely used in agriculture for pest and weed control until Rachel Carson's book Silent Spring was published in 1962. That book is credited with beginning the modern environmental movement, and through the involvement of scientists and ordinary concerned citizens many of the organochlorines were later phased out of use, according to the conditions of the Stockholm Convention of 19819. Since then, these chemicals have been replaced by a slew of new herbicides, pesticides and fungicides designed to kill the things that threaten a farmer's bottom line.

These include not just neonicotinoids, but also glyphosate—the active ingredient in Monsanto’s herbicide Roundup.

Roundup was designed to be used in conjunction with Monsanto's genetically engineered “Roundup Ready” seeds, which in turn have been genetically altered to withstand otherwise lethal doses of the chemical. This way, only the non-modified weeds die while the crop survives the indiscriminate sprayings. In theory, genetically engineered seeds were supposed to reduce the use of agricultural chemicals. It didn’t work out that way. Today, resistant “superweeds” are taking over large swaths of farm land, and in an effort to stay on top of increasing weed resistance, farmers using Monsanto’s genetically engineered (GE) seeds have progressively started using more and more Roundup.

The increased pesticide residue remains in the foods that wind up on your dinner table, as glyphosate is taken up systemically throughout the plant and cannot be washed off.

About 90 percent of the corn produced in the US is genetically engineered, and GE soybeans account for almost 95 percent of US production. In other words, if you're eating non-organic corn or soybeans in the United States, you're eating a genetically engineered crop that's been repeatedly and thoroughly drenched in glyphosate. The same applies to eating meats from animals raised in confined animal feeding operations (CAFOs), as they’re typically fed GE grains.

The danger to you and your children is very real, according to the latest research. While Monsanto insists that Roundup is safe and “minimally toxic” to humans, a recent report published in the journal Entropy10 argues that glyphosate residues, found in most commonly consumed foods in the Western diet courtesy of GE sugar, corn, and soy, “enhance the damaging effects of other food-borne chemical residues and toxins in the environment to disrupt normal body functions and induce disease.” According to the authors:

"Negative impact on the body is insidious and manifests slowly over time as inflammation damages cellular systems throughout the body.”

The main finding of the report is that glyphosate inhibits cytochrome P450 (CYP) enzymes, a large and diverse group of enzymes that catalyze the oxidation of organic substances. This, the authors state, is “an overlooked component of its toxicity to mammals.” One of the functions of CYP enzymes is to detoxify xenobiotics—chemical compounds found in a living organism that are not normally produced or consumed by the organism in question. By limiting the ability of these enzymes to detoxify foreign chemical compounds, glyphosate enhances the damaging effects of those chemicals and environmental toxins you may be exposed to—including other pesticides.

How You Can Avoid Toxic Pesticide Exposure

First and foremost, to limit your exposure to the most common agricultural chemicals, such as neonicotinoids and glyphosate, you want to buy as much fresh organic produce as possible, as synthetic chemicals are not allowed on organic crops. For a good guide to which conventionally grown produce carry the lowest pesticide residues, and which you’re best off buying organic due to their heavy pesticide load, see my recent article, How to Find the Healthiest Fare in Meat and Produce Aisles.

Since years' worth of these toxins now pollute our soils and waterways, including the sources of most if not all human drinking water, I also recommend investing in a good water filtration system for your home or apartment to ensure you are drinking the purest water possible. Also consider a shower filter, as they may actually cause more damage to your body through your skin than from drinking unfiltered water. Additional recommendations to limit your exposure to toxic pesticides and herbicides include:

1. Grow your own food. While this may be a challenge for many, nearly everyone, even those with a studio apartment or a dorm room can easily grow sprouts that can serve as a large percentage of the organic vegetables that you eat.

2. Detoxify your lawn. If you have a lawn care service, make sure they are not using the organophosphate pesticide trichlorfon. Also, avoid using Roundup to control weeds around your home.

3. Clean out your shed. The pesticide diazinon (sold under the brand names Diazinon or Spectracide) has been banned from residential, but there might be some left in your old garden shed.

4. Use natural cures for a lice infection. Malathion is used for treatment of head lice. Don’t put a neurotoxin on your child's head.

2013年6月18日

請反對校園裝WiFi，殘害小朋友。

2013年6月18日

1.王亭老的豬心治(產後)恐慌讓我借來一試，兩晚醒著而不心慌，似有效。

2. 白血球數目大跌化療做不成，趁機趕去周大師處續做 "中藥化療"。周說： "白血球低是因它們吞噬了IgM等垃圾，毋妨的。"

QM替我注射白血球針，今午到東涌加一針。問QM血科替我注射的姑娘是否有副作用(之前問過醫生說冇但我不信她)，姑娘說 "有1,2成機會導致全身骨頭劇痛，機會小唔怕啦 "，10-20%是機會少？(但上次我在半昏迷時被打過此針，估計今次亦冇事)

護士又在百忙中替自己order了拉麵和大可樂做午飯，我話 "可樂 好冇益喎"，她說："每天必飲，d氣令人舒服，有精力。"

我對香港醫護教育覺心驚。

白血球低還要我在醫院這高危地方撲來撲去，那些醫護人員不帶口罩又大感冒；混帳混了整個上午，同時浪費Lily、Angela時間。

3. 現中藥與西藥一般「重」，服後十分鐘內全身不適，要躺下，半小時內心悸，整個世界亦轉暗而窒息，數小時後瀉，然後再跌watt至不能活動。有前輩服用周大師的藥曾說過「非常辛苦，但終有療效」。 遂提早採Fion建議飲 "米水" 讓口腔舒緩方菜(本為化療期間用但中藥好像也有同樣副作用)，又有益又不甜，good stuff。

4. 自發功積極處理個胃時又處理情況差了很多個月的麻痺左腳 (找出相關穴位)，此功「自療」不懼直搗痛處，很radical，令人歎服。

5. 又想起吳清忠的忠告----鍛鍊後的癌腫增大是自療的過程，因為是將垃圾掃在一起清理，千萬別去「打救、打散」之。這幾個星期我有些淋巴勁增大，大概也是垃圾堆積而成，望它們能成功排出體外----以各種方法(呵欠？出汗？大小二便？練功排氣？噯氣？)

所以延遲化療未嘗不是好事，讓土法延長發揮，可惜化療療程更加漫長。不過可以不做完的吧----自己日後判斷，不用聽西醫甚至周大師「要做完」的囑咐。自己常常都要想清楚下判斷，這方面實不能如有些朋友勸告，勿多思想，讓別人替你想吧。如周大師說「要吃精鹽」、「吃有機菜更危險」等advice，我就不會take，他也會受某些宣傳影響的嘛。但他說勿吃淮山、茨實、蓮子我就take，起碼這段時間----因現階段我真是在全清毒排廢期，大江東去，一些「補」留都不能。

6. 我的藥渣及其他廚餘傾倒在後山大獲欣賞，詳情請見Lily拍攝的生命/腐朽圖(照片)。

2013年6月19日

寄件人：hrx
收件人： msw

任何事情有個度，生命的東西更是自我感覺，只要人沒傻，知冷暖飽餓。你的治療更是考智慧，信息爆炸，你只能選合適你的，不斷的選擇，不斷的摸索，不小心吃了銀翹，麻煩多多，今見港衛署呼吁別吃它，有違禁物，你原來撞槍口上了，我們大陸人無假不嘗，千錘百練。

苦茶油收到，多謝，少見，臺灣貨。

昨帶我媽去看腦退化，前段又體檢說嚴重了，比以前，我們也認為是，醫院說沒治了，給點維生素，倒是直爽。我們把你和何平給的藥加量了。早晚服，以前是早上服，還沒按每天三次服。

你現在的情況練自發功應是對的，病好了再可練郭林功，就是最簡單太極拳，一個動作，散步一樣，但是，是同出左手左腳，同出右手右腳，練到諧調。守丹田。

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2013年6月19日

寄件人：msw
收件人： hrx

那苦茶油是有益的油 (千萬勿用芥花籽油粟米油，都是美國基改原料做)，中國南方從前遍地苦茶樹，本是常用的油，現今倒要買台灣貨。

煮食耐高溫。又：每天兩次口含一匙數分鐘然後吐出，排毒云云，稱油拔法，現頗流行。我則以油拔舒緩口涸情況，效果不錯，含那油不反胃，覺香醇。

腦藥我家還有存貨，看何時交葉轉你們。

2013年6月20日

十月底陳皮藏書會在中大送出，故現階段持續執書。執拾「食」書和「文化知識」書，大字的都拿來看看，決定保留或送人。

既有「醫食同源」、「藥膳同功」之說，看食書也許有實際利益？其實沒有，書多是美食家寫的，而美食家的「食」是很嚇人的，尤其對於心血少的病人如我。

大魚大肉一道菜接一道菜......以台灣的朱振藩所著《饕掏不絕》前半部最令人震慄。

因為是1949那批到台的江南(上海、江浙)掌政權人士和湖南派(掌軍事)人士主導了方向，台灣(台北)長時間的「正統」菜譜是食到慈禧太后那種過份；台式民間食譜即使提到，也著重講吃麻雀那一類驚嚇情境。亦多次提到有時引進流行的港式食譜(e.g.XO醬仙貝、雙椒牛柳、韭黃龍絲雪、百合蝦仁)，都是非常濃味、貼近酒池肉林的「精心泡製」。

可幸書中有句提到真正的粵菜是「清、淡、鮮」取勝，即不是那些港式。作為五十後，我雖第三代在港，卻在多方面(包括食)仍是以珠三角作身份認同。可惜現時食肆主導的「粵菜」已無清淡可言(e.g.落蒜太多、蠔油泛濫)，而經濟起飛了的粵地只餘地產也沒甚麼鮮可嚐了。食既落空，身份認同也莫多談了。

回頭，說「本土」嗎？起碼食方面唔好預我﹗(佔中也唔好預我----除非像Q仔文章講那種做足落區而後搞的，即不是(自命)精英將圓桌搬去中環那種，否則玩X區公投好過)。

話說回來，吃清淡粵菜的鮮食材何處尋？本地有機菜農如昌哥田租被加五倍而無租約，無他，錦田地主要發達也，錦田要發展也；看來真正有機菜農只有收檔或一路向北。論到禽和蛋，之前已講過。養豬也是古怪----目前幫襯的華記黑毛豬相信已回大陸生產，最近說經營已經電腦化，賣豬肉員工是請大學畢業生，嚇得我......。海產先食了輻射，河產則食了化工廠排放，才到達我們的飯桌。

話又說回到「食」書。書因為是美食家所寫，他/她們愛攀附蘇東坡作老祖，所以坡叔成了美食家，這點我不同意，不過心血少腦汁更少沒有精力寫論文駁斥之。坡叔不是美食家啊，怎麼會是？﹗他的「東坡肉」、「東坡魚」是踎完文字監到黃州捱窮時取當地便宜食材而做，只不過是用心做；他當了朝廷最高層也不聞他吹噓吃了幾多豪宴，其實我懷疑他愛到汴京城外的寺院沖涼多於在城內吃大餐。

總之，唔覺佢揀飲擇(美)食，煮茶偶得甘泉水也是個人與僧道交友過程中某些因緣際會，並非刻意；貶到廣東後窮到只能買羊骨煮湯刮些骨上剩肉吃(他說食埋狗仔個份，唔好意思----他養了一隻叫烏嘴的狗)；大力歌頌自種的蔬菜時也不過是「環境逼人」；被貶途中與弟相見同窮鄉粗餅食，老弟吃不下咽佢就包底食光----反映非常恐懼將來無野食；到海南島後懷念的也只是米飯而已，因當地唔種稻，是吃芋一類。

說他畢生努力在不同地區環境(逆境)中自種自養自釀自製各種食品(及用品)以求生，並且相當自得於那過程和成果，是真，說他是美食家，錯矣。

這是msw的不學無術又無精力重翻之前所閱，只憑記憶老作的「偽考證」所得。

後記：茉莉，印度東來的。在我家有一株獨秀的，這一輪盛會中又長了近三十個花蕾，陸續半夜綻放，每一放都教人重新訝異----像對從未去過的印度的想像。欲知更多茉莉事情，可看「文化知識」書，他日再談。

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2013年6月21日

O，資料有誤，華南常見的 (也是我家一株獨瘦----真是很瘦----的) 木本的茉莉來自波斯而非印度；波斯，伊拉克等 Mesopotamia地區一樣引發想象，令人神往，多少文明.......當然不下於印度，卻分分鐘在當代儘毀於美國軍力下---------用無良的武器depleted uranium之類，致其代代殘病於輻射後遺，生態再不超生。

2013年6月22日

講講my favorate topic 醫食住行，會悶壞的請及時delete。

1. 醫 ------ 當年QM血科我的主診醫主向我正式講出 "根據世衛定義" 我究竟患了何病時，我請他將病名寫在我的筆記簿上，並問了幾個問題，包括這病是先天還是環境因素使然，他說是環境，但之後他和血科及整個院方都無人追查過我生活過的環境，好讓他人避免重蹈覆轍。我唯有自己亂猜，請Lily致電租了我們之前書店鋪位的新租客，請她到樓下診所看看有無X-光機，又警告到我勞動的田裡的朋友小心隔籬噴農藥及其他污染... what else??

我好奇於香港醫學界對本地癌症 (及其他病症?)的流行病學研究那麼興趣乏乏，一句都不聞不問，令人懷疑其research是否只為藥廠而做 !!

今時今曰，和他/她們說我食了銀翹中的金銀花導致溶血的可能，仍無一雙尊貴醫生的眼皮會抬一抬，他/她們只顧問：你唔做化療到底想點﹗

2. 食 ------ 因為不能吃任何有「補」成份的安神食品，所以除豬心外(個心太硬，不能吃太多)，又想想有沒有其他方案。顧小培及其他人都提過臨睡前喝杯蕃茄汁可助安眠，昨晚飯後飲半杯幾乎馬上睡倒，整晚也相對地睡得久一點才醒來，可見有效。顧小培說如果是心理不安導致的失眠則茄汁無效，自己想辦法搞掂d掛慮好了，我飲了能改善睡眠(因而減少panics)可見主要是生理失調，但這又最不在我控制之內，全在中、西藥或個病情手上，奈何﹗茄汁救我﹗豬心救我﹗

3. 住 + 行 ------ 有朋友建議我們搬回市區，睇病方便。一來我希望頻頻要睇病只是這一年半載的特殊情況，二來D Bay這種空間較多的環境，以我能負擔的價位亦只有在D Bay找到----這在兩三年前通港九新界搵屋時已了然於胸。當時都知交通費會非常厲害。

近聞某裝修師傅「說笑話」：今時科學園地產項目為大陸新發財熱炒之一，其裝修(美學)如下：天花板一塊鑲金箔一塊鑲銀箔，四面鑲鏡面----"一入屋就通屋係「人」"。報紙說第三波大陸新發財移民潮將以香港為首選目的地，到時金箔銀箔通屋係「人」的景象再蔓延下去，恐怕更無選擇，現時又怎敢起錨到外面去租屋？(買就更唔駛講)

4. 醫食住行之外當然有條件(i.e.體力)就翻翻書，尤其現在對音、影媒界非常過敏，稍為「猛烈」的就令我慌張，故自己選書看最保證心神安定。這就是黃金屋顏如玉之外書的實際好處了。

由此又回到第一點----如果香港醫科生不是收錄考試群英那批從不會產生「無謂問題」的人，就不會出現現今的醫生只識做藥廠命題的填充答案、而作為醫界人員應有的好奇心與責任感則未曾發育過這情況啦。

亦可見考試選精英是這世上不合理而殘酷的現狀的最重要維穩機制。

5. 又是茉莉 --------

現時我們種的木本是無籽的，原來還有草本的(那裡來的?)，應在江南(及以南)生長，<<紅樓夢>>寶玉侍候平兒理粧時拿出來的高檔粉，就是草本茉莉的籽中的白粉，極香(云云)。又茉莉花常混到不同種類的茶葉中去作賣點，其實是好茶就毋須借茉莉香增值，所以應是用來掩飾唔夠班的茶葉云云。至於只喝花茶，那是(當年)吃不到我們南方那么多好茶的北人習慣而已.........

說了這些，是治療現時我不能喝濃茶所生之 "鄉愁" 的自我分散注意技倆而已。日後應有更多這類拙技登場，敬請留意。

Si Wai

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2013年6月24日

寄件人：mcs

多點休養生息、不要動氣。西醫問題多多、可惜他們位高權重、控制社會各個環節，甚至中醫醫學委員會，產生不少高分低能的西醫以及香港精英。到此為止，繼續休養生息。保重。

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2013年6月23日

寄件人：F

一邊睇一邊同卡文UP吓，卡文忽發提問，如果全係環境，點解妳有事，莉莉尚算安然？係咪都還有其它？我：哦.....啞口！

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2013年6月23日

寄件人：msw

2013年6月23日

Calcium supplement linked to heart attack - eat more organic green leaf veggie instead. Details:

http://www.therealfoodchannel.com/videos/heart-disease/calcium-supplementation-linked-to-heart-attacks.html

Eat more leafy greens, kale, spinach, collard greens, kelp, broccoli and soybeans. While dairy products are extremely high in calcium there is much controversy over whether or not the pasturization and homgenization process renders the calcium more difficult to digest.

2013年6月23日

Lily found this piece of news, which contains certain comforting elements, which is such a rare phenomenon today. Of course we know that the so-called renewables are not totally environmentally friendly - use a lot of contruction materials to produce wind mills, solar penals etc., but at least there is a path we can walk on while trying to improve it. 有得批評下，好過講都哂氣------一如對住中電港燈。

不過我認為義大利有此成績，文化根柢很重要-------至少先要建立個 "慢食"風氣，每餐不慌不忙進食數小時，人生快樂就不用在狂亂消費中尋找........

創歷史 再生能源滿足全義用電

2013年6月24日

近談起 "一命二運三風水四積陰功五讀書" 之智慧觀察，今夕只談風水(既是命、運，本就無甚可說，除非我玩星座紫微...)，集中睇少少DBay風水，因與我養病有關，然家居小風水亦反映大風水-------香港自恃福地今時尚可居否？

DBay甚至大嶼山整體而言沒有茂木森林，灌木多，小樹即可鶴立雞群，卻多被藤蔓覆蓋。山高樹小，野花倒是令人側目。現時盛放的是毛菍(音nim)，秋來見漆樹的淡黃花串鋪蓋漫山遍野，而漆樹也是僅有稱得上"樹"的高度而已。

不過這一帶山中的河谷草木仍可觀，因水頭算足，動物也可到來解渴，我家後山便久不久聞黃麂(音gang)吠叫，黃麂是barking deer，有鹿鳴呦呦意趣。

有時比如昨晚大雨便會令大廈旁的高山流(下的小河)水變成連串大瀑，尤其接近大廈平台處------流水淹過兩旁植被，形成覆蓋面極寬的猛烈水"帳"，壯哉斯瀑。可惜難以近看，非關人、瀑距離遠，事實上近在咫尺，只是 "景點" 旁是垃圾房，加上滿地是狗主與菲傭懶情使然的狗屎狗尿(有味道，亦有實物)，煞了風景。Lily昨天還見一媽媽帶仔在一旁溺尿----而彼等均為大廈的住客啊!! 奇觀不限於瀑布。

問此水何來。應是背後陡峭的虎頭山下來。這虎頭山亦無大樹但有鬱鬱蔥蔥河谷，終年不會有絕對乾涸之日，估計有地下水"資助"。不過港人不喜"虎"音或怕老虎多於苛政，如昔日老虎岩早成了樂富，這一帶如炒旺了也許要變 "富有山"、"褲頭山"？

這列大廈旁有數條或明或隱的河溪，經昔年開拓DBay的工程處理過，現已經絡不明。只見帶黃泥沙的雨中大水隱入地下(人工渠)，但山下"中央公園"的池水卻依然清澈，不是池水過濾了，便是河溪的水直通大片已見得是承受了黃泥沙的海洋，即水池之水自有來源，總之少不了用電泵之類的耗能源設施。這就是中央公園之"美"------連著一片新開闢的消費區：spa酒店、專供婚禮用的小教堂、商場、馬車、拍照區......提供無限虛擬歡樂。

在這背景下，中央公園的園藝跟隨全港每況愈下(密集亂植罐頭樹)的大氣候，可想而知-----太多長不大一味吸肥開花討好觀眾的大葉(花)紫薇。當然對狗主與菲傭的放狗習慣來說，A樹與B樹並無分別，只要令狗隻肯排泄便是好樹。排泄不限於大葉(花)紫薇，片片草地都是狗廁所，我這病友要赤足在草地上排氣，便要作踩地雷先鋒，未知可否向聯合國申請中地雷傷殘補助......總之我不幹了。

不過即使沒有欠缺公德的鄰里，也不大會在公園練功了----一年十個月(以上？)都有蠓咬，因為全DBay(跟隨全香港----包括郊野公園)都是噴蚊區，蚊未見消失，蠓的天敵卻消失了，所以全港蠓患(這又是繼續大作噴灑的理由，化工毒藥生意滔滔)----不過大家久而久之又"習慣"了，咀咒幾句做乜咁痕，更少走到室外去便了事。

算起來全世界可能以香港最變態----因為對一切生態災難人民都不會動口去投訴，也不會動手去自力救濟(如趕退噴蚊隊)，甚至"根本睇唔到"----是我們學校的工作紙、公開試past papers更好睇？還是電視節目網上遊戲太精彩？如此眼界，恐怕佔了中，戴著民主光環也難免愚民為實。

以上講風水，其實講講下已落入積陰功範疇，以現時情勢，更難處理了。

今晨紅雨中到周大師診所，遇病友某某，許久未碰過面，她見我搞成咁，特別痛心於我要做化療----她幾年前手術後做過三至四個月，發誓今生再不做此令自己痛不欲生的事。她說化療藥積聚不散，每次做都比上次辛苦，不能吃不能痾不能睡，她那年就九個月未合過眼，唯酷刑可比擬。又提到很多時化療後指數表面上急跌，之後便會狂升----她老師也斯便是一例，大概更令她心寒。

她又提議可找錦田高人寶仙幫忙解決化療之患，我早聞寶仙大名，但現時都走不動，然我明天會試泰式按摩高人替我把一節節骨之間那不斷藏匿積聚的化療毒素"擠"出。

這亦出了風水範圍，是讀書吧，讀了書才認識了某某----多年前去Toronto首遇她，和也斯，後來我介紹她找周大師，她後來又介紹了也斯，如今只剩我倆便交流一下心得。

至於在Toronto相遇的三個人，三個都患上癌症，這是命(生在世上、生在這世代)、是運(碰上甚麼鬼情況讓身體輸給癌細胞)，還是風水(香港的誘癌因素日日增強)使然？很值得人民共同關注，卻無人關注------大家都唔積陰功了？

2013年6月25日

http://www.therealfoodchannel.com/videos/food-fraud/food-fraud-is-big-business.html

2013年6月26日

如果NN要講 "錢"，就可質詢中電預留了幾多錢日後讓大亞灣廠房退役-------不管是發生了意外或夠鐘關門，而錢又從何所出？這些天文數字令今日同佢計電費成了濕濕碎........更恐怖的事，為了賺多些賠少些根本就不停用，40年(約)期滿又搞多20年，這些先例不少。早前綠色和平張小姐提過預大核run 60年，GP與中電經常開會，想怕60年是 "共識"。驚冇？

可參考：

http://www.guardian.co.uk/environment/2013/jun/23/britain-nuclear-atomic-clean-up-decommissioning?CMP=twt_gu

2013年6月28日

看來只有浸沉在深厚的鄉土與文化之愛中，看通現代化所吹捧的所謂舒適生活是對鄉土與文化(當然包括普羅人民)的終極消滅，才能對抗核能(之吸引力)，及舉著現代化/舒適生活大旗的國家-企業權力。

義大利人有"慢食"的文化修養，故能有走向再生能源而bye bye nukes的今天，德國人當年可以放棄一路只追GNP步步高來搞統一，出現廢核也不出奇，各地原住民不受金錢邏輯迷惑是NN的最穩固基礎。反國教也好NN也好，離不開鄉土與文化之愛的歷史深度的回歸。

以下一則關於原住民企硬的 encouraging news。

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From: Gordon Edwards Date: Thu, 27 Jun 2013 09:19:13 -0400
Subject: Uranium Project Nixed: GOOD NEWS from Quebec

Dear Friends and Colleagues:

The Government of Quebec has announced that it will not give its approval for an "Advanced Uranium Exploration" project in the sacred Otish mountains located in the Cree Territory of Eeyou-Istchee (Northern Quebec). This decision is intended to be final; although a future government could conceivably reverse it, the chances of that are rather slim.

This is a stunning announcement, coming as it does two full months before the start of a Generic Environmental Assessment on the Impacts of uranium mining in Quebec, to begin in September, under the aegis of the BAPE = Bureau des audiences publiques sur l'environnement.

Strateco Corporation had already been given a "green light" for the project from an environmental assessment process, and had obtained a licence from CNSC (the Canadian nuclear regulatory agency); all that was lacking was the go-ahead from Quebec. The Minister of Natural Resources, Madame Ouelet, said that the project was not approved because it was not socially acceptable.

Quebecers have become increasingly mobilized against uranium mining in the province in recent years. Although there has never been a uranium mine in Quebec, there have been a great many exploration activities taking place in many parts of the province. Of all these project, the one that was by far the most advanced, and with the richest ore body, was the "Matoush Project" of Strateco.

But the Grand Council of the Cree Nations declared a permanent moratorium on uranium mining in Cree Territory, saying that uranium mining is incompatible with traditional Cree values. This stance was supported by Quebec NGOs throughout the province and by over 400 non-aboriginal Quebec municipalities who passed resolutions against uranium mining in Quebec.

Meanwhile medical doctors and citizen activists in Sept-Iles, Quebec, on the north shore of the Gulf of St. Lawrence, have been actively lobbying for a ban on uranium mining in their region and throughout the province. Almost two dozen physicians signed a letter to the previous Quebec government saying that they would resign their positions at the Sept-Iles Hospital and leave the region -- maybe even leave the province -- unless the Quebec Government agreed to ban uranium mining.

Similar activism from the Hautes Laurentides region -- in the Laurentian Mountain range North of Montreal -- put added pressure of the Quebec Government to follow the example of two other provinces, British Columbia and Nova Scotia, by imposing a permanent ban on uranium mining and even uranium exploration.

Opposition to uranium mining is based not only on the harmful medical effects of uranium byproducts such as radon gas, radium and polonium, but also on the end uses of uranium -- to provide explosive materials for nuclear bombs and to provide fuel for nuclear reactors, thereby generating high-level radioactive waste.

Since Quebec decided last year to phase out of nuclear power completely by shutting down the province's sole operational nuclear power reactor, and since Quebec's researchers have been in the forefront of developing cyclotron technology to provide medical isotopes without the use of uranium or nuclear reactors, the opposition to uranium mining has been made all the easier.

NGOs and First Nations in Quebec, as well as hundreds of Quebec municipalities, are feeling optimistic that a ban on uranium mining may not be too far in the future.

But the struggle goes on, and it will intensify this fall when the BAPE hearings begin.

2013年6月27日

首先多謝2K, mandy, 芳, hester, SY等一直買/煮/運(食送)菜餵養我，和Lily mud都去試去搞的食療，大家一番努力下，今天的血色素上升至9了。這在我睡得很差、化療減低胃口、中藥引導不斷腹瀉和身体各種不適下，相信是很大的成果；我又給自己練功兩三分--------總之，我們雖不迷信數字，但現時能夠在不輸血的情況自已造血，那管造出來的血仍充斥著壞細胞而壞細胞又繼續產生IgM這些垃圾，但百種壞消息中有一宗好的而且涉及"自救"的，到底令人耳目一新。

關鍵目標是一定要造比較好的血。中西藥都只是 "打"，而造好的血則要改善骨髓，這點只能靠藥物之外的 "奇妙"因素-----是甚麼呢？

就是這些持續的、希望不致被藥物全面擊倒的生活正常需求-----吃與鍛練吧？

正在思考這骨髓問題之際，見今天醫院的覆診水牌中有 "骨髓發育不良科" 和"痛症科"兩項。好奇。櫃檯的職員也好像剛想找人說句話，便主動解釋： "係新設的，近年愈來愈多人患骨髓發育不良呀"。我問："是小朋友嗎？" "不，是大人呢"。我和Lily立刻想到核意外中產生的輻射物Strontium-90 (港府不檢驗食物是否有含量)，及核廠平日"合法"排放的tritium--------都是傷骨髓的大元兇。大亞灣運作22年，"成果"來了？﹗

至於"痛症科"，也是怪雞，但聽上去蠻可怕的。我口痕道：這兩科我都有份。那職員說：o殊，衰野咪亂講......可見人只要有點同情心同理心，都覺得這世間苦難在增多，令人不忍目睹，不忍聽聞。

下星期化療，西醫很想加料----標靶。拒之。

出醫院門Lily到Seven增值時見----劉家良去世，百萬標靶延命十年之X周刊封面標題。又係錢作怪，嘿嘿。

Si Wai

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2013年6月27日

寄件人：my

哈哈！agree agree, KK美食無價的啦！（真係好好味！！！！）

血色素上升，骨髓開工了，很好很好！！！

題外話 -- “痛症科”：

正巧上星期旁聽寶姨的生死學課是請來謝建泉醫生（在香港推動寧養服務），他退休前是腫瘤科的，而他其中一個專長正是痛症（舒緩痛楚），聽他說大概主要是用嗎啡、鎮靜劑等，讓病人減輕痛楚（尤其末期或彌留之際）。他提到醫院後來有開痛症科，就是專門為病人舒緩各種疾病產生的痛楚而設的，通常會由麻醉科醫生、腫瘤科醫生、臨床心理醫生等組成。謝醫生也提到，現在大醫院通常會設這科的，而腫瘤科通常至少有一位醫生懂痛症的處理。他也提到其實癌症的身體痛苦在他看來是較容易舒緩的（用藥物，有時要輔以一些心理支持），其他一些病更複雜難搞。 （因為現場有同學講起自己一位親人在醫院彌留時很痛苦要大叫，就想了解這方面多點，謝醫生就講得詳細d）

痛症科是專門針對其他各科轉介病人幫忙處理痛症，但不是醫治病本身。 聽謝醫生講，好像和麻醉科很有關～～

彌留病人，要么本來屬於那科有醫生可以處理（像謝醫生），要么可以由痛症科派醫生去病房？（我想，理論上，某些專科的醫生除了治病，還要懂點痛症處理才成，否則病人很可憐。。。。）

我想設的痛症科主要針對非彌留病人的？～～～例如謝醫生提到他未退休前（都10幾年吧）有位癌症病人可以暫時出院回家生活，但身體痛苦真係痛不欲生。。於是他就教病人自己定時定量打嗎啡（因為對他有用），然後他就安心出院了。這也算是痛症科或痛症“專業”會處理的吧（雖然那時還沒有這科）。

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2013年6月28日

寄件人：msw

我阿媽在hospice打了嗎啡幾小時後就死了，(鎮病)幾有效。

謝醫生是個熱心的天主教徒，他對一些幾時要生幾時要死的看法很執著，相信除了見病人痛楚之外也受其宗教影響----例如他認為不應讓病人不獲餵食而死，儘管病人要求，他持的理由是這樣死太辛苦，但我認為這與他根本反對安樂死(視為自殺)有關，而我敬重的張愛玲女士是自餓而死的哦。似乎謝醫生認為在「專業」人士手中的「舒緩」才可靠。

五年幾前他來QM探我，教我問主診醫生我的病是curable or only treatable----其實答案當然是後者，如果西醫的treatment可被視為treatment的話。但問這問題並不能回應當時我考慮的做不做化療的問題，他到底都是QM癌科做到退休的醫生﹗他介紹了一個專攻舒緩醫學的後輩給我，我找他，他覺得我未死得住，也沒提議甚麼舒緩，只安排我做標靶治療，而且是私家，很貴的，沒再找他。

QM(其他醫院不知)分科嚴厲，無醫生會踩過隔籬，這類跨科的甚麼痛症科恐怕無乜市場----也許當年HKU副校長麥列菲菲做完手術把針留在某女士面部事後又取不出來令她痛了幾十年那種case可放入這科，那位女士後來仔女大了便結束了日日劇痛的人生，自殺去了。btw麥列菲菲的另一個病人是張國榮。

一般來說，將痛和本科分開處理都有點滑稽；我在病房觀察，病人痛苦求助(包括有一晚我自己也向醫生求助)，醫生就開painkiller一律行事，沒有甚麼「專科」指引。

專業就是專業，病人始終難以作主。

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2013年6月28日

寄件人：my

是呀他立場堅定地反對安樂死……也看得出他也是以專業自豪的人～～

根據謝醫生講的痛症科，可能以麻醉科的用藥為主來舒緩痛楚（這方面可能需要多點麻醉科專業），或心理上的問題就交給心理醫生…… 而舒緩醫學的那些應該是指善終服務？

網上search痛症科，可能多是針對慢性病引起的痛苦

http://www.healthsmart.com.hk/article/issues/others/I120404.aspx

http://www.am730.com.hk/article.php?article=92133

張國榮當時除了麥列菲菲應該也是找了很多其他途徑醫抑鬱症（如中醫），可是最後都救不了……

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2013年6月28日

2013年6月29日

按摩師美玲說我的頭部缺血，冷。差不多半年來我除非搏老命集中(如寫些什么宣言抗議信)，其餘整天會是"虛飄飄"的-------大概就是這原故。化療下因胃不好，進食後更像多隔了一個罩子做人-----更感覺不清這世界，懊惱下有時寧願不吃，但又要增磅，不能瘦.......唔。

不斷地肚疼、瀉，瀉完麻痺增強又多隔了一個罩--------我快成功將自己視為"別人"了。

這情況下卻有一种奇異的靜寂(隔著那么多個罩那能不靜寂？)，只要不是藥物又帶來手腳心臟抽搐，感覺上便還可以。但俗人一個，還是希望"重回自已"。今晨三時半，忽有各种藥力暫退、吃了糙米粉飲品及Fion的全麥饅頭後，多月來首次出現"回來了"狀態，捨不得它過去，故不願睡，取出<<怎知春色如許>>看了一會--------發現編排校對上很多根本不應有的錯誤(香港的"文化人"搞mud鬼!)。

我的"忽忽下"狀態下苦了Lily，負擔了全部家務(她本來的最弱項)，兼要听我不斷"呻"。這幾天還連煮13,14餐(她的最最弱項)------還不計預備我的宵夜和化解化療口渴飲品)，尚有煲藥、製果汁、購食材、安排交通往覆診和化療......我和她在此情境下都忘記了她的牛一(那天還忙著看中醫)的確唔出奇 (但唉!!!!!!!!)

可幸她晚上能睡到一碌木一般，早上又恢復元氣------奇女子也。

執書執出太多急急想看的，心急而眼背(非常惱人的一團眼底血)。大字的看到7788，小字的<<大漠>>躺在隊伍裡十分吸引，四百多頁學術性強但文章流麗的作品，日學者專著台譯本出版水平極高，看見就高興。大力為歐亞大陸上的草原/沙漠人民及文明平反的大歷史，兼顛覆以"民族-國家"為主導觀念的歐洲主流分析架構，包括"絲綢之路"這個簡化事物的歐洲視角；至於我們熟悉(其實不認識)的什麼"經營西域"、長城、河西走廊、突厥、金、遼、新疆蒙古西藏及諸已被滅族的群落，和俄國強佔的廣大地區及至所謂中東全有涉及-----中東(直達菲洲)部份卻因涉及近/當代史另外的環節故作者預告在日後兩本新作中再談，聽上去也教人興奮。但眼力真是不濟。

另一本日人(大導小津安二郎)文集不久前看完讓我心情鬱悶極，心裡有太多不解(日本人--他---的戰爭觀、他個人的後期作品----那些在港較常看到的-----與他早期/戰前作品的斷裂，及他自己的解釋------下層人民戰後再不可愛他要拍正面價值便"上樓"去....)。發現對不同型態的生活/活著，自己不明白的太多，意識模糊之下又想不清楚------道德何物？.......故此心煩。誰也看過此書的請多多指教，讓我釋懷。

Lily則大力溫習"養生、治療"架上的藏書，領略到污染的地球上要通到個人養生治療目標(不論那一派的方案)愈趨於緣木求魚，到最後可能都是看誰能越過地球的污煙瘴氣、吸收日月精華做人吧。

2013年6月29日

前幾天又過了一個我的生日，等死的人，又近了一步，實在沒啥可賀的。 活在當下最好了，看看愛看的，聽聽愛聽的，吃吃要吃的，誰也不知自己的末日在何時，好象有人掌管似的。

科學使人長壽，用錯，用過度了科學，就麻煩，這個度的掌握，是自己的命運的掌握，腦沒退化的話就有選擇，可以走個明白，人生何處不是賭搏，選擇就是象賭一樣買大小了。

你這個事如沒有能治好的先例的話，這個度就真是你自己掌握了。

你那里的山要是發動群眾在植樹節，每年種些樹，或者走後每人一樹作標記，會不浪費。

外面的蠓蟲咬人真是很煩，成了一特色，真是很無奈，置身大自然難了，在樹林裏非給咬死不可。現實里沒有了。聽說蒙古大草原，也是這一特色，我沒去過，現在不去也罷了。秋天去。

葉小姐帶給我媽的藥，夠到年底的了，謝了。

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寄件人：msw

2013年6月30日

趁未做下回化療做點筆記---------

杉山正明在《大漠》的說法：

伊朗

今日的伊朗作為一個國家面積連伊朗高原都不整個涵蓋，昔日伊朗的意思是「從阿姆河到埃及之間的土地」。對放牧生活來說伊朗高原是一片很好的地方。

【半夜2時半，綠豆水宵夜後翻一本伊朗風景攝影，宏壯不下加拿大洛磯山脈，秀美之處過之----有蓮花湖，雖亦見無際地鋪蓋數十尺積雪之嚴峻；還留著放牧的景致，間中有駱駝在鹽湖(Kevir，原來這是與乳酪共同的稱謂)邊休息，群鳥從湖中飛起(像Flamingo不過腰部白色)。一切都豐富到極。】

「與現在甚為通行的希臘化文化(Hellenism)的印象相反，阿歷山大大帝所建立的『帝國』以及之後傳到東方的希臘文明，在包括伊朗等的地區幾乎都沒有留下任何殘影......希臘文化的影響......接近於『虛幻』，甚至可說是歐美人的夢幻的產物。」

匈牙利

匈牙利平原為今日匈牙利國土之三倍，是不錯的放牧地。昔日讓羅馬帝國恐慌的匈牙利人終於從東方進入此地，就是今日匈牙利人的祖先。匈牙利就是「匈奴之地」的意思。

【以後再講匈奴】

滅絕

清乾隆時滅絕了準噶爾種族，在滅絕的基礎上建築了「新疆」。俄羅斯在19世紀也進駐哈薩克大草原，蘇維埃政權下該地受了二百多個核彈試爆(還掘鈾礦)，在流入鹹海的各河流邊亦作大種棉花之舉，把水調走了，令面積龐大的鹹海漁業玩完，預料該湖持續湖面縮小、湖水鹹化，周邊地區沙漠化愈來愈嚴重，在本世紀前期會整體消失。

新疆亦在中華人民共和國統治下不斷核試。

「若只把(上述情況)當作『人性是恐怖的』這樣的事，像一般人嘆口氣就算了是無意義的，關鍵在於必須思考這類歸因於某種『文明意識』所導致的偏見或傲慢。若真如此，所謂的『近代文明』及『近代精神』到底是甚麼呢？......其衍生的『不幸』與其充是偶然演化，看起來更像是從一開始就註定會隨其擴張、發展而更加顯著、擴大。

我們對這一個半世紀以來襲捲世界的西式文明和以它為基準而構建的價值體系是否已經到了應該就其影響評論整體、回顧檢討的時刻呢？」

東南西北

從東與西去看『歐-亞』容易忽視在這廣大幅員中的南與北聯繫-----不少文明是在南北互通中建立的(遊牧者定時南遷北徙是自然不過)；但殖民者當然要切斷南北連繫：阿富汗就是英國建立來緩衝所佔的印度與北方的俄羅斯的，現在全國滿佈地雷。

其實即使說東說西，就以近代的『絲路論述』為例，都只是那條由西向東的思路；但近代以前，『由東向西的影響波潮確實相當顯著』。

大匈奴小漢家

杉山正明大幅引用太史公的好文章，講述匈奴與『中國』。大家知道，秦漢前是列國，沒有『一個中國』，秦又短命，楚漢之爭中匈奴強大了；其實漢初，這未站穩的『中國』還是被匈奴老大哥騎在頭上的小可憐呢。(當然，太史公對漢朝劉邦->武帝都隱含著不甚恭維，史學家早就指出。)

有趣的另一點是周、秦這些王朝都不是『農耕民』團體組成，是西戎或其變種，不少可能是羌族，雖非100%遊牧民，也是畜牧民。說『中國』與『外族』之爭是耕民被遊牧民掠奪而起，至少在那階段是說不上的。

至於大匈奴帝國與內地小中國有何分別，版圖龐大的遊牧地上的變化如何影響世界包括中國，我只看到140頁，下回讓杉山正明繼續分解吧。

Si Wai

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2013年6月29日

寄件人：KY

十分有趣，思與慧並存的筆記。

2013年6月30日

病毒可以破壞伊朗濃縮鈾設施，就可以破壞核電廠設施和很多危險工業設施，有瘋癲野心家(如美國領導層)存在的世界，就不應把危險設施往自己家中放!!!

以下是相關資料：

(1) http://news.mingpao.com/20130629/taa1h.htm

美上將泄襲伊朗網絡機密受查
國防要員 涉放料《紐時》

【明報專訊】正當美國就泄密中情局前僱員斯諾登與他國爭拗不斷之際，美國廣播公司引述政府消息人士報道，美國司法部正將美軍參謀長聯席會議前副主席卡特賴特列為刑事調查目標，指他涉嫌泄露美國以超級電腦病毒Stuxnet向伊朗核設施發動網絡襲擊的機密資料。今次是總統奧巴馬上台後第8位政府人員因涉及泄密、違反《間諜法》受查，顯示奧巴馬上台後大力打擊泄密者。

63歲的卡特賴特（James Cartwright）2004至2007年間曾任戰略司令部長，將科技與戰略結合，2007至2011年間任美軍參謀長聯席會議副主席，於2011年8月退役時是海軍四星上將。他是總統國防顧問的核心成員，被視為對總統奧巴馬國防政策深具影響的人物。在前總統小布殊及現任總統奧巴馬任內，卡特賴特曾參與策動網絡攻擊計劃「Olympic Games」，是計劃骨幹人物。惟政府消息透露，卡特賴特早前接獲司法部通知，指其涉嫌泄露關於美國以電腦病毒Stuxnet攻擊伊朗核設施的機密資料，已成當局調查「目標」。

白宮戰情會議細節亦曝光

《紐約時報》去年6月頭版大篇幅報道美國秘密發動網絡攻擊計劃的詳情。報道引述「有份參與計劃的歐美及以色列現役及退役官員」的訪問，披露奧巴馬上任後曾下令加緊網絡攻擊計劃進度，又公開了攻擊計劃中美國國家安全局（NSA）與以色列情報人員的合作內容以及白宮戰情室的會議細節。報道亦提及2010年美國如何向伊朗核設施傳送Stuxnet病毒進行襲擊，癱瘓1000部專門提煉濃縮鈾的離心機。報道稱，當年由於程式出錯，Stuxnet病毒意外流入互聯網，引起公眾關注。卡特賴特等官員曾與奧巴馬及副總統拜登商議，研究攻擊計劃會否徹底曝光，最終高級顧問建議下，奧巴馬決定繼續進行計劃。

報道刊出後，美國國會領袖馬上要求司法部就報道展開刑事調查，追查泄密源頭，奧巴馬更聲言，對此類泄密事件「零容忍」。消息人士稱，當局最初集中調查消息是否源自白宮內部高層，但去年底聯邦調查局將卡特賴特鎖定為目標，但調查期間未曾引用傳票調查撰稿記者的電話通訊紀錄。

列「目標」顯政府掌大量犯罪證據

按美國司法部的一般定義，一個人被列作「目標」，意味當局已掌握大量其犯案的證據。不過，消息人士稱，司法部尚未決定是否起訴卡特賴特。《華盛頓郵報》指出，聯邦調查人員並不需要通知刑事案中的調查目標正受查，但如果當局很可能起訴調查目標，則通常會發出通知。白宮、司法部及卡特賴特的代表律師均拒絕回應報道。

(2) http://news.mingpao.com/20130629/taa2.htm

軍用級病毒癱瘓伊朗核設施

【明報專訊】超級電腦蠕蟲病毒Stuxnet是一種「軍用級」病毒，可透過USB記憶體等移動式硬碟入侵電腦系統，並針對由德國科技公司西門子開發的監控及數據收集系統SCADA發動攻擊。SCADA系統常用於控制發電、供水等基建和大型工業設施，而Stuxnet病毒可在不被發現的情下，向工業機械下達新指令，擾亂機械運作。

Stuxnet意外散佈全球網絡

當時專家分析，Stuxnet可能是由美國及以色列政府合作開發，用以攻擊伊朗核設施的「秘密武器」，但兩國政府否認。至去年《紐約時報》披露，Stuxnet的攻擊目標質是伊朗納坦茲（Natanz）的鈾濃縮工廠，旨在破壞提煉濃縮鈾的離心機控制軟件，令離心機無法運作，最終成功癱瘓了伊朗6000部離心機當中的1000部，使該國濃縮鈾產量急降，「破壞伊朗製造核武計劃」。

2013年7月1日

看<<大漠>>，除了追中國-外族這條缐，也忍不住追一追中東缐("中東"也是西方觀點，其實應是Tigris-Euphrates文明吧)。翻了一本1977年伊拉赫攝映集，嚇了一跳，是一個伊拉赫攝映師拍的，極盡"自我東方主義化"之能事，除幾幅輝煌瑰麗的"古董"照外，所有街道建築都是殘、爛(和美?)的，危險欲塌的，女人都包在黑布之內，男人主要映gypsies，風景則.....以幾隻破艇(透過古舊而美絕的欄杆望出去)刻劃(本是偉大的?)Tigris河邊，南部看起來像一片霍亂菌滿佈的沼澤地，北部全是不毛山地，山地上有兩個荷鋤的庫爾德農夫(但從畫面你不會理解怎可在石頭山上種植)，也有幾條枯草。

最奇怪的是這本集子是伊拉赫官方單位在倫敦展覽時出版，令人懷疑1977年伊拉赫是否世界最有表達自由的國家------把這副形象呈現給西方世界卻又保証不會收到推廣旅遊的效果：沒有遊客敢走在那些危樓下(可能還是在巴格達這偉大城市呢)，和一個像是一滴水也沒有的地方!

[1977是薩達姆上台前2年；經美國帶著貧化鈾這些武器入侵，今曰的伊拉赫的現實比這"形象"更破碎也大有可能了。]

另一本即興參考的是李熾昌的<<古經解讀>>。之前看過他的<<五小卷>>覺得好，這一本寫得較精簡(意猶未盡)但解"舊約聖經-猶太史-鄰近文明"十分清晰而態度坦誠開放----包括聖經說"上帝懲罰猶太子民，因他們沒有殺盡迦南地區的其它民族" 應怎樣詮釋？而所謂"上帝選民"之猶太人其實又有很多種族的血統的呢.........

李熾昌十分鍾情舊約，說基督教(即更正教)徒常常不肯好好讀舊約，沒有舊約的對律法(ethical principles and practice)的領悟而單看(新約的)恩典論便是膚淺-----令我想起小出反核時引述甘地批評宗教徒信奉著"沒有犧牲精神的宗教"!

他又指出舊約的"智慧文學"----箴言、約伯記、傳道書-----亦常為教徒所忽視，因為它們不是"既定"的歷史和上帝的訓示，而是人要思考、探索的經歷。大概懶於思考此通病舉世皆然，無分教徒非教徒。

還有不少有趣話題，如：遊牧文化轉作農耕文化，是"上帝不喜歡該隱的祭品但喜歡阿伯的祭品"這創世記一段的含義嗎？還是顯示人生(上帝)就是毋須和你講道理，要你點就點？

"希臘-基督教文明"隨著將擴張主義全面合理化的資本主義文明涵蓋全球的今日，世上的基督教(指天主教及更正教，也許不包括東正教?)徒都很輕易變得連自己到底信什么也不用太了解；其他文明/宗教則愈趨悲情-------我看Pamuk寫今日土耳其及Paz寫今日墨西哥，覺一字一淚一驚心。"他/她者"的文明，只在破爛、炮灰或索性心灰意懶中像幽靈般步過，還是在迪士尼中重臨？你會選擇怎樣與它們相遇？

明天後天化療，後會有期。

2013年7月4日

歷史閱讀-----化療之下，慢下來了

沒有純粹的遊牧民：遊牧民也自種蔬菜等，又有分工，如夏天留守在冬日營地的成員去幹其它行業也是常見，而建立都市進行交換是解決其生活各項所需的方法，遊牧民與都市，幾乎是一事之兩面。

說遊牧民生活條件不足時便發動向(外族的)農耕民侵略，猶之乎說農耕民生活條件不足時便發動向(外族的)遊牧民侵略一樣，是古怪、背理的說法。杉山正明認為，應是有強大的國家形成了，強大的國家當然有軍力-----這，才是向(外族)發動侵略的原因。

聽上去有理。回想當年讀文章講國家(自稱具有)的功能，包括保護國民免受侵略，然而從事實來看，有國家而國家愈強大，才是侵略戰爭的根源。那篇文章還說--------到真正進入戰爭狀態時，國家不叫你去當炮灰已是幸運，保護人民是絕對做不到的--------自己執生逃命啦!

至於當年漢武帝與匈奴勁打足50年，昭帝登場才開始的極長久的兩國和平狀態，杉山說在戰爭與和平史上皆屬世間罕有。後者說明兩國上下皆不願打，前者說明漢武帝個人最願打，杉山沒提是他替劉邦白登山屈辱報仇已到瘋狂境地(逯耀東等的著作有提)，但提到他從不到前缐只會叫人民去死也是個他打不厭的因素；而由於要大力在國境內奪取民間資源去打，及鎮壓朝野任何質疑聲音，武帝的超長期統治之內，為新興卻在未來成為古老的中國奠下朝廷施行高壓統治、君主獨裁、人民受剝削的政治模式，並予苛政以"法治"之名--------這就是我們常說的陽儒陰法吧。真係匈奴和漢人(當然包括太史公....)都多得佢唔少的一個變態佬。

日間化療中心

特別喜歡坐在化療室對正門口的座位看人，看各式帽子、頭巾，十分希罕人們苦中自嘲作樂情境-----那邊的工作人員對此有貢獻，他/她們態度寬和，充滿對"來客"的同情。

昨天吊第二針的針藥因為在之前已放在中心的雪櫃，所以打進血管時冰涼從手走則上身再到大腿..........有銷魂蝕骨之感。早一天的藥走進手血管至今還沿著那脈胳發疼，姑娘說d藥(也母)嘛；可以想像它現時(也母)我個胃(也母)成甚麼樣子。

那天吊著針見指甲明顯進一步發紫-------進一步中毒徵兆，特別是食指，顯示肝臟藏毒最勁。無奈。

化療兩天都到郊野走斜坡，中午陽光沒令人不適-----太珍惜這些片刻吧，與石龍子噪眉鳥無數粉、蛺、鳳蝶和4個吞pok警察同享受；當然亦有功利目標------因為要運動；化療前輩說轉贈其treadmill給我，謝而拒之------化療加上將要來的中藥會令我幾乎走不動，treadmill?!

兩天吊針過程其實甚短，等候的時間卻長，把帶在身邊的<>圖文都看到能背了。

選擇祈禱生活(而非宣教生活)的修女如Wendy嬤嬤，每天集體生活(崇拜)2小時，獨自禱告7小時，2小時作其它活動如閱讀，晚上8時上床，3時起床。日復日年復年。Wendy嬤嬤說她選擇這樣生活因自己低能處理不來各事務及人際，"祈禱修女"的生活反而讓她更好地關顧這世間-------禱告是介入，不是為了避世搞掂自己。 果然--------得了好靈感，寫了好書(之前做了BBC節目)。

想起另一位修女Bertell，一位令反核者無限敬仰的先行者。

台灣、香港

Lily"騙"了人家寄(送)一本書來我看，吳念真的<<這些人，那些事>>，大字體，無矯飾文字，化療後臥床時間長些，便看完了。一向喜愛吳念真清純如野店、如舊村，最難 忘其劇本的是戀戀風塵，連悲情城市相較之下也覺"旁騖了"(可能梁朝偉的港味星味國際味使然?).......

多年來並無重溫過他(和侯孝賢)這些合作片，只覺像自己的痛疤，不能揭------雖然那是台灣我在香港，卻是"同時代"的人，那時候，感情都是樸素不過的，做的事"無謂"得要命，從沒 想過某些"激情"、"運動"可以作換取"上位"的入場券。

這本回憶集中就講到有些當年親近的"激情"、"運動"朋友，"上位"後的不堪--------他說當年根本不能想像。

書，寫得直白，沒有隨作者年齡增長而有扭曲、帶負擔，這讓我輩知悉----要作陳皮陳釀，也是可能的。

土法新篇

Lily閱<<橄欖>>一書，靈機一觸認為"油拔"可擴至體外，我便試用橄欖油塗化療毒重災區------"你用油膏了我的頭"用的是中東盛產的橄欖油吧，頭，是千百種毒的重災區吧。

2013年7月5日

轉眼隔去年福島小朋友來休養已近一年光景。如前所決，我們的身、心裝備不足以讓我們再辦此活動------起碼在短期內，雖然福島小朋友"疏散"之需要繼續存在，大家還是希望可以一盡綿力。最近我們的財務人員終於把去年活動的捐款盈餘三萬多元寄到福島郡山，給她們繼續替孩子們辦假期疏散活動用。主事人野口小姐即時給大家回了一個包裹，內裡"心意"如下：

(1) 30張輻射分佈圖 (2012八月)-----今年三月野口來演講時帶來了一疊，給我們義賣籌點款；

(2) 3A的小禮物-----電話繩6條；

(3) 信一封------見附檔。

謹告。

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2013年7月5日

寄件人：LS

文柚：

很高興知道福島的回音。

2013年7月8日

吊化療針前護士常對病人說「先注射止嘔藥」，忍不住問----這藥是甚麼？是增強胃酸的嗎？答曰：不是，是止嘔的。不得要領。醫院給我的經驗是----藥物永遠在前面牽著你走，當然，首先是它牽著整間醫院走。剩下來假如你不甘心迷信醫院和醫生(即藥物)，則只能就著澎湃的藥物副作用到處找解藥。

解藥一：針對昨晚半夜開始的由頭到腳暨心臟抽搐之重來。更兼在屋裏踏原步轉了幾個圈，恐慌地不知何去何從。利利處方：薑黃素，現請Angela代購。

[利利查資料，原來止嘔藥有些(可能全部)會鎮壓腦部5-羥色胺receptor，取走P物質，而P物質是抗抑鬱的。難怪﹗]

解藥二：針對口腔沙礫化、味蕾失效或扭曲。
- 早晚口腔拔油
- 羅漢果水、米水......不斷

解藥三：針對胃反轉，24小時作嘔。
- 雪耳
- 報紙上說蒜醋令某神父被化療摧毀了的胃口恢復，但我個胃感覺太差不敢飲醋，會試Winnie用琴姐種的蒜頭製造的黑蒜。
- 儘量日夜臥床不起，避免起來令反胃加倍。不過這樣就非常缺乏運動。

解藥四：排毒
基本上手甲變紫，排無可排。就試試：
- 綠豆薏米水
- 按摩師傅從每節骨中間擠出毒素；自己練功時某些自"搣"自拍手法。

解藥五：
- 找適當的書看，解決了之前藥力令人24小時昏睡。

「適當的書」是顧隨的《中國古典詩詞感發》，她是葉嘉瑩的老師，書是葉在1949年前的上課筆記，排印出來。那時沒有錄音機，但她的筆快過電動，講課的精彩直透紙筆(有點像老牟的講課)。

顧唸的是西方文學，講中國文學時貶傳統文人之平庸----沒高度，作品不見人生色彩----沒深度；一邊罵又一邊捨不得----於是又讚起來。(誰人不矛盾呢？)沒有高、深度，甚至沒有感情的，卻「玄」得很呢----如王維、孟浩然。沒有深度，卻飄逸唯美想像力高得很呢----如李白。飄不起來卻大做死工夫而又能大而化之直搗人生深處的----有杜甫(他被視為大異數)。最「夷猶」(大概是縹渺之意)的是屈、莊、左三種作品(後兩者是散文)。無此天份的可努力耕耘----如韓愈。耕耘之下而有天份的更可得氤氳之妙，如杜甫----又是他，彷彿只有他。

一代人寫一代的詩歌，故四字的最好是詩經；五言----古詩十九首至魏晉六朝為止；七言詩是唐天下；宋只能是詞了(宋詩講理太多----噢，我心儀的蘇坡叔也不入流呢，說他詩書畫都才有限)；之後當然是元曲......今人只能寫白話了(怎麼要愈來愈長的句子才能表達心聲)。

顧隨老師最強調文學要有「力」，最怕黛玉葬花(又一次我的心儀是他的夢魘)，他自己卻取了一個「苦水」的別號(都說人是自相矛盾的)。1950年代他在大學講壇開的科目包括「毛主席詩詞」；之前被批講書「跑野馬」之後便不跑了----他的女兒也只能在80年代從編印葉嘉瑩筆記裏初「睹」父親當年的野馬丰姿。(顧在1960年去世)

所以人生之「力」也不是說有便能常有的，有時還得葬點花，或像蘇坡叔般卸下一點力----在荔枝、桂花酒、雞泡魚、芋頭羹、製墨丸(不是墨魚丸)等瑣事上，及去寫他那些令人發悶的說(佛)理詩 ﹗

講開文(詩)評，利利找到一本小小的揚之水的近期文集。她的文物考證一向是我們愛看的，而這本小書竟出現一篇講張愛玲的短文，她說張是「物戀」，一如她自己，這先按下，但亦提到偏愛陸游等寫「微物」的詩人，這與顧隨剛剛相反﹗揚老師物戀，與張同呼吸，故必偏袒<<紅樓>>，這是當然的不用說(但做紅樓文物考證寫了最有趣文章的卻是鄧雲鄉----有機會才講他)；奇怪的是紅樓中，曹雪芹借黛玉的口也貶陸游的微物詩句，黛玉(雪芹)推重的正是顧隨的最愛----王維、杜、李。所以雖說咸魚青菜各有所愛或英雄雌所見略同(廢話!)，要點是這說明了曹雪芹的氣魄不是黛玉葬花的抹淚手帕，是在乎萬古同悲、同情的那種淚----而且是會流乾的那種；這就是雪芹之所以不是浪漫主義而是驚人地寫實，挑戰你敢不敢看時代的最衰敗.....這又怎能不是「力」呢？

說了這些不但是維護我的至愛紅樓(及「兼愛」的坡叔)，也是就著自己在化療及整個漫長的「治療」(其實有時也不知這「治療」到底有何方向可言)過程中經常跌落山谷，說幾句話。

不需自辯，只是自我開解一下，也借大家的眼看看是否有道理。

Si Wai

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2013年7月8日

寄件人：Yin

好了，又見你發表文章了。多保重！

對付胃痙攣，米水挺好的。我試過雲吞湯也很好，立竿見影！鐵棍懷山也可以試試。

2013年7月9日

thank you. the book is darker in color than i expected, perhaps due to the illustrations and design - but that fits the theme.

am trying very hard to get better. Lily is the best 食療 doctor. the certified doctors are only sales/wo/men for the BIG Pharma's but they have all the resources - therefore having a hard time in the struggle to minimize their impacts.

my regards to you and Auntie Bear.

Si Wai

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2013年7月10日

寄件人：HJ

i have the same feeling when i first received the book---dark n grey. a second thought---the whole thing is just like that.

i have the same problem with the doctor dealing with my blood pressure these days.

The only thing he has asked me to do is to go for one examination after another. I found out later that he is a business patrner of the lab.

i have given up on that guy and resort to personal instinct and herbal wisdom. now it's getting better!!!

looking forward to seeing you a healthy being again!

2013年7月11日

多年前看過依沙貝‧阿倫第的<<春膳>>，買了英文版後放棄了中文版，因圖片印刷更靚。"依"眼中蘋果西芹馬蹄.....沒有什麼不是催情的-------當然啦，情由心/腦生，何用吃榴槤?

書是文化雜談，談她來自的南美情調卻並不多於談歐洲文化(其實殖民數百年亦難分解，何況她應是歐裔)；食譜中用料方面則國際化-------韓國人參歐洲芝士以至美國茄汁........要點是美國加州這種族混雜、物資豐阜之地所買得到的，無法啦，她已嫁作"美"人婦，住在加州；之前還看過她的自傳講到基於美國種族歧視不完全適應"美"人婦身份(其實我認為她是個"阿倫第"應更有適應困難)，怎料911後改變了，患難一家之意-------恐怕她是倒轉了來看，不知她現時又點諗？

近日被化療毒藥玩殘，覺心身衰弱，動彈不得，所以勉強而起(不然再起不來了，至少也生褥瘡吧)-------練氣功、執南美書。之前在陳皮村拍紙簿某一期講過南美文學鱗爪(其實鱗爪也無，皮毛也不是，只摸到幾本書皮上的塵埃)，之後將一些書留在身邊，其它入倉，如今想再"清減"一些故又拿出來檢閱，竟然發現催情食譜外還有一本食譜，以南美14國為題材--------Nirmala Narine 之旅行與食經。N女士10歲前住英屬圭亞拿(1966年獨立)，祖父來自印度，是自然藥師(與印度教牧師)，下鄉行醫，所以她對香草、香料很有感覺。

原想從書中看南美食品風情，發現很挫敗，首先當然是事情本來就很複雜，再有作者的身份與位置問題，害得我在化療藥影響外更添一重沮喪，可幸三更起來吃點宵夜再聽窗外蝙蝠橫飛忽生靈感.......先搞搞那複雜的：

南美諸國的歷史本來就是讓食品"互溝"的了-----歐洲殖民者打殘甚至屠殺了印第安原住民後運菲洲奴隸去填補勞動力，菲洲的煮食法配搭當地用料便出現了(如花生+車前草粉製的麵)；也有"中國菜"------但N女士的家庭朋友Swift先生(看來是個英國姓)卻認為那個撈麵其實是印尼食法，應是印尼華人的發明，什麼竽頭雞腳雞蛋麵!又像如今由智利統治的復活島，島上有Polynesia語系的人民，又是一種食物文化(椰汁海膽?-----這是我的胡湊)-----不過經過法國1960年代在Polynesia瘋狂核試後，這一節看來都接近尾聲。

當然我最想知的是南美各印第安族群的食譜，不過要瞭解這個又必須深入瞭解當地食材，而偌大一個南美單是薯仔就種了6000年，我斷估都有600個品種，而N女士到底只是過客，所知不會多。(她10歲時與一心要脫貧--脫農--的家人移民去了大蘋果NYCity，現今是Nirmala's Kitchen食品集團老細，自稱corporate America 之一員，自全球第三世界採購香料，聽上去生意性質似Body Shop那一型)

所以她的南美14國食譜是美國用(即全球化用)的食譜。煮香腸菜式時是用supermarket的熱狗香腸；味味菜式都用健康又瘦身的olive oil； 用薯仔代yucca(大家可還記得美國Nevada有個Yucca Mountain是美政府幾十年來都想把全部核廢料往那裏運的"被遺忘"土地)；烹調法則用焗爐(華氏幾多度)而不是南美鄉下個大灶；而為免嚇壞歐美愛護動物人士，也不會煮guinea pig、大駱馬這些原汁原味地道肉感菜，而以雞、牛、羊代之。還有N女士自己家鄉流行的"一品窩"本是是窮人菜，菲洲奴隸更用這種Arawak Indians的煮食法來把奴隸主吃剩的雞頭餸尾共冶一窩----但這本菜譜中的一品窩材料則是美國West India Supermarket買得到的香料加一磅牛short ribs及1.5磅豬梅花肉。

剩下來，書中能吸引我的就是那些種類如山數量如沙不能數的蔬果場面----迷人彩色圖片，而這些蔬果(也都是美國West India Supermarket買到的)在書中多數是作配料用，或做歐美風情的飲品、salads、果凍、調酒佐料、雪糕之類種種甜食......

南美原住民當然也有其飲品(包括酒)和甜食，但味道應該不是這樣的----N女士提到一次人在南美某顛簸公車旅途上，鄰座的媽媽拍醒她，請她與自己女兒分享一杯當地飲品Terere(加其它香草)這種強烈咖啡因飲品，Terere盛在葫蘆裡，而她是被邀與小女孩共用一飲管(飲管有天然濾嘴隔渣的)，這共飲在南美多國是友誼的表達。

猶記得1978年秋天，我們一行四人在汕頭韓公祠外，獲幾位在祠中打石(即敲碎墓碑，時為文革末政府仍繼續破壞文物)的工人請我們飲其afternoon潮州茶，我們一直坐著等待"自己的"杯送上來，但見茶過四巡還沒動靜，才知道笑口迎人的工人大佬們是請我們與他們共用茶杯呢----便急急拿起杯來乾之可也，友誼萬歲。

飲食，食譜......真可見出整個世間嘴臉。北美有這本全球(美國化)食譜出版，與此同時在南美又豈能不出現大部份農地被北方集團用來種了基改作物這景象呢？﹗

2005年再到潮汕區(交通方便了100倍)，參觀"有機田"，在田間發現Bt這為基改作物而生產的農藥的包裝紙。

韓愈若生於當世，唸盡祭大鱷文怕也趕不走這些當代大惡棍。

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今日是第二次化療後第一次見周大師，把脈後再商量，他不再堅持我做六次代療，說四次夠了。嘻嘻﹗(當然討論期間夾雜了他在澳門的吃的故事，不贅。)

p.s.我們的南美收藏還有Frida Kahlo & Diego Rivera的傳記，讀了令人難過，寫出來也是，待日後超好心情時再談。

2013年7月14日

看文物/文化書，如Cecilia Lindqvist的《古琴》、揚之水及王世襄等文章、或Sister Wendy的畫評，是令人大為著迷的經驗，但難以寫出來與人分享，因為作者已和我分享了，難道還要抄書？最好是每人自己享受作者的分享。

但像王世襄這樣的人物，其學問，其玩意，其一生(災劫)及其對應之道(以智慧----如在文革被抄家前將本人所藏數百種文物交給「國家」代為「保管」，讓文物得免於被砸個稀爛；以耿直----指責、嘲笑當朝貪官不諱名姓，對朋友千里拿來給他視看的文物直言「唔靚」)，均是風流俊朗作風，知有其人已得莫大喜樂。

他的研究既廣又精，均是我所極為無知的範疇，但再懵丙也看出其對「美」的判斷與堅持，又有教育性----所以我常希望選他這一輩學人的文章及其他好文章輯成文集，作文化(知識與價值)之基礎讀本。他和陳從周(後者講園林)的文章已是我的必選，其它可古可今----但今極有限，因依我之鄙見偏見是王、陳等這輩學人之後，似無所繼。

舉個例，蠻喜歡看的香港的趙廣超的諸作品中，有《一張木椅》亦好看(從平面的書頁中出現multimedia的效果)，但看完對椅、櫈的歷史的印象，卻總不及看王世襄一篇文章之深而厚。一張交椅、一張畫案(大漠胡人文化對中國文化的影響太大了)，看穿著汗衣(白背心)的王世襄(有時與工匠一起)在搬動裝嵌時那種深情，定會令你對整段交椅畫案歷史不敢忘懷。所以可能不是「學力」的「學」、而是後一輩人的「力」之不夠......

構想中的讀本為中文文選，但可以有翻譯文章(如日本人寫昆蟲便寫得很好)，是中國文化又不限於中國文化----王世襄便把他對明代傢具、漆器文化等研究全部與外國同業分享，故又那裡有必要強調是那個國族獨有的文化-------一如中國人也不是抄大漠胡人的坐器而按之發展其傢具裝置擺設甚至樓房設計？

香港其實也有些辛勤的作家，涉獵也廣，肯做研究也肯大力推廣，如音樂方面的黎鍵，但好像都比較短命，未有機會沉澱出氣宇瀟灑的文章來，十分可惜。

極異數的是唐滌生(如果你當他是香港人而不是珠海人或Shanghai-educated的人)的話，他是天才降世，沒話說。一段帝女花寫表的戲由長平口白「病喘心傷力已枯，更無手力可拈毫」周世顯回應「且跪向泉台求父母，自有神恩把玉腕扶」引出，聽一百次也令人熱淚相隨。而他的牡丹亭中讓波叔(演腐儒陳最良)半夜到處搜尋風化事件時聽見「對樓情未絕」時說任劍輝(演廣東窮秀才柳夢梅)這「壞鬼書生發寒熱......」之口白，則笑死觀眾；後來石道姑叫陳最良咪多事，要過得人過得自己更「不要敗人清雅」，又是對湯顯祖原著筆下這位世故又可愛的道姑的最佳廣東版呈現。

講到粵劇所識也甚淺，之前在陳皮村拍紙簿說三道四都夠獻世了，今次不講了；只是想起近期在一片本土、城邦的混聲中曾爭議過油麻地那個表演場地應否叫「戲曲中心」--------馬國明最近還在文章中提及，說叫「粵劇中心」猶可，話題仍環繞戲曲兩字，我就認為中心兩字亦可檢討：中心在此，那么高山劇場、遍佈全港的神功戲等都是邊緣嗎？尤其講到神功戲，說「根源」就差不多，怎會是邊緣!!!不過香港人慣了什么都叫中心，佔領也要佔中(何不佔幾幅劉皇發家族的地來復耕、養雞，自食其力？)，簡直不單是歷史地理盲，更是道理盲了。BTW1950年代做了最有系統的中國古琴音樂研究的，是一個小小的叫「古琴研究會」的「單位」。

馬國明的文章又說戲曲是昔日為貴族富戶而上演的--------真係唔正確得很喎。戲曲由一開始(由北之雜劇南之南戲起計)就好民間，金朝時在都市中更在妓院有得演，後來以崑劇傳奇為主流愈搞愈雅化還被廣大觀眾唾棄(清初李漁雖推重湯顯祖卻嫌他有時太文縐縐令人難解，他自己還掏腰包組班各處演出自己寫的較少文縐縐的劇)：各地方戲由之而自己發展，而其混合種則回流京師更成了京劇；京劇當然有著名演員兼為慈禧作「內廷供奉」，但大眾愛睇又追星何嘗不同時存在？正如香港以前有錢人可在家擺台大戲，但神功戲、戲院戲一樣有得演。

近期香港人有時發本土燒真係發到有點神智不清。香港有好野-----如果真係有好野----係無須講衰其它野(中國野、傳統野)來証明的。

你睇下唐滌生就唔會唔同意........

疑問題：香港禁的中藥包括穿山甲，那就令中藥醫唔到免疫力攻擊自體的重病，治癌"毒藥"也禁......... 這些係唔係好進步呢????

Si Wai

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2013年7月15日

寄件人：Grace

Si-wai,

Love to read your commentaries on a wide range of books. I'm on a tour in Atlantic Canada -- an endless stretch of land w sparse populations. The sense of space, actual and abstract, is v different from that in HK.

Grace

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2013年7月15日

寄件人：msw

i visited the Atlantic provinces during the first summer in Canada (1980). went all the way to PEI but didn't go to Newfoundland. thought it really is a change of landscape after staying for a few months in the "flat" Ontario lake area. The cities there were quite heavily polluted however. (industrial pollution) Things must have improved considerably by now.

Went to Newfoundland in the summer of 2005 - flew in from Iceland. That was the "last" trip i made before being taken ill. The strongest impression St Johns left on me was the obesity of the citizens there.

Hope you'll have a relaxing and interesting trip.

2013年7月15日

講得真好---------"人生最曼妙的風景，竟是內心的淡定與從容"---------修養才有快樂呢。

---------- Forwarded message ----------

楊絳《一百歲感言》（2011）

我今年一百歲，已經走到了人生的邊緣，我無法確知自己還能走多遠，壽命是不由自主的，但我很清楚我快「回家」了。

　　我得洗凈這一百年沾染的污穢回家。 我沒有「登泰山而小天下」之感，只在自己的小天地裏過平靜的生活。細想至此，我心靜如水，我該平和地迎接每一天，準備回家。

　　在這物欲橫流的人世間，人生一世實在是夠苦。你存心做一個與世無爭的老實人吧，人家就利用你欺侮你。你稍有才德品貌，人家就嫉妒你排擠你。 你大度退讓，人家就侵犯你損害你。你要不與人爭，就得與世無求，同時還要維持實力準備鬥爭。你要和別人和平共處，就先得和他們週旋，還得準備隨時吃虧。

　　少年貪玩，青年迷戀愛情，壯年汲汲于成名成家，暮年自安於自欺欺人。

　　人壽幾何，頑鐵能煉成的精金，能有多少？但不同程度的鍛鍊，必有不同程度的成績；不同程度的縱欲放肆，必積下不同程度的頑劣。

　　上蒼不會讓所有幸福集中到某個人身上，得到愛情未必擁有金錢；擁有金錢未必得到快樂；得到快樂未必擁有健康；擁有健康未必一切都會如願以償。

　　保持知足常樂的心態才是淬煉心智，凈化心靈的最佳途徑。一切快樂的享受都屬於精神，這種快樂把忍受變為享受，是精神對於物質的勝利，這便是人生哲學。

　　一個人經過不同程度的鍛鍊，就獲得不同程度的修養、不同程度的效益。好比香料，搗得愈碎，磨得愈細，香得愈濃烈。我們曾如此渴望命運的波瀾，到最後才發現：人生最曼妙的風景，竟是內心的淡定與從容……我們曾如此期盼外界的認可，到最後才知道：世界是自己的，與他人毫無關係。

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2013年7月16日

寄件人：hrx

一百歲，真是好文章！

看着就舒服，10全十美，知音，有時間多看，反复看，好。文人就是文人，一篇文章全蓋齊了。

人活一世，全是糊里糊涂，不知生死之日，也有高僧知，知又怎樣。我不太信有來世。

有錢就讀書，沒錢就種地。這遺囑多簡單，多精辟。

意到氣到，氣到力到。這是在北京街頭和人反复交手之身體體驗後，無師自通了，看書，口授都不靈。當時在石家莊一帶幹鋪鐵路工，一百多斤的工具，休大禮拜回京，和幹看門口的老人交手，竟然不是對手，推不動他，你說我能不去追求究竟嗎。同人不同命，我在保定趙州橋地塊鋪鐵路，農友習進平在此地當地方縣太青天。

2013年7月17日

輪到收拾俄國文學書時，發現把Nabokov放了在那裏，其實他到底屬俄還是屬英(文)作家呢？無須解決----因為那裏有存放空間就放那裏，剛好Dostoyevsky佔了法國文學那一欄剩下的一角，俄國那一層便有了空間給Nabokov了，很就手。(輪到執拾前南斯拉夫作家時便沒有那麼輕鬆，一輪戰火和屠殺後那些作家到底是甚麼身份？？？)

縱使國家不用分，但文、理分不分？---- 探討「從科學而言」，Nabokov對蝴蝶學(鱗翅目學，Lepidoptera)的貢獻有多大的<>，應否與N的小說並放？這倒考起我了，不能決定，遂拿本書出來閱讀一下。(與此同時把他的自傳(英文版)也拿出來併著看，順便清理了那譯得不太好的自傳中譯本。老實講，我之前其實不太熱衷看N的書，大熱<>被Random House選為世紀十大英文小說的第四名，但我卻看不下去，他著名的學術著作<>也是借給別人看自己沒看。)

N的科學研究昔日令他的小說fans對蝴蝶(學)忽然也熱衷起來，於是他的傳記作者、記者、專欄作者便追著「業界」人士問：他到底是否真有蝴蝶學學術貢獻？他對Blues(灰蝶)發表的八篇在嚴格學術期刊出版的文章到底堅定流？？？結果各科班出身的大教授大部份稱他為amateur，做了那一代富家公子愛做的收集、整理(做標本)又用顯微鏡仔細觀察蝴蝶的工作.......大教授所用言語聽上去都有點酸溜溜；亦可能專家們對從來沒有興趣蝴蝶學的媒體與世人的忽然興奮覺得不自在吧。當然，亦有說他的貢獻不小的，但那是他轉向全心寫小說與教文學之前在Harvard的Museum of Comparative Zoology做part-time時的好友(日後是大教授)的評語。最重要的是，這些「受訪」的生物學家，通通不是蝴蝶學者，至少不是他所專精的Blues這一瓣的。

當然還有時勢問題----潮來潮去，所有學術文化範疇都如是(科學絕不例外)。N的分類學基於一套演化系統學，而1980年代後這套分類學便被親緣分類學派取代了，便覺得他老土了。更何況，分子生物學變得當紅(基改、基因治療有市場)，分類學研究在生物學界獲得撥款的機會愈來愈細，發燒友只有自掏腰包四出找生物標本......一切彷彿已成過去，N更形落伍了。[曾請教胡秀英前輩(植物分類是她的世界)她怎樣看基改，她沉吟半晌，客氣地表示「無謂搞咁多野」(大意)，在中大招呼她的生物系當時與現在都在搞基改，她只能說到此。]

這本Nabokov's Blues就是替他平反----90年代有「後輩」不知有Nabokov其人及其灰蝶學，卻做灰蝶研究，其中有兩人往南美沿整個西岸研究灰蝶，自稱已搜得當地95%的灰蝶；然而，當這些「後輩」回頭發掘到Nabokov的研究時，都認為他的框架絕對可安然屹立於這些「最新發現」之中，Nabokov's Blues兩個作者之一就是曾涉足南美的兩科學家之一。

文人搞科學，絕不失色，不過基礎訓練(不等於要有學位)要好----包括心態不枯滯，可隨時游走於各種思維與表達模式之間。N的文學作品中常有「蝶影」，但他卻說始終用科學語言講他的Blues比較爽----得心應手。

這是上一輩的學人、文人了。

[按：灰蝶遍佈南極以外的各大洲，香港已知的也有51種。]

精神眼力稍遲緩時繼續看Sister Wendy，這次看她講聖像畫(八卦地也想從中窺探一下她的宗教觀)。聖像圖全選自1998-99佛羅倫斯Medicea Laurenziana 圖書館的展覽品，每個圖配她一短篇對該聖人作介紹及就畫面再演繹一下，間中流露一點自己的體會；由於選材所限，她說她喜愛的聖人未必能現身，例如St. Andrew。我又八卦地再找出另一本聖像圖書看看有沒有St. Andrew尊容，果然有，但這本書另有來頭，又是「一段古」。

話說十四世紀波希米亞皇朝最著名的皇帝被教宗委任登基，就是那個CharlesIV。他享有財力物力權力，以「天子」(神在這皇朝土地上的代表)自居，建St. Vitus 教堂、收藏聖物，並且請名家Master Theodoricus 在 Karlstejn Castle內的Chapel of the Holy Cross裏畫出許多聖像。Theodoricus 的作風唯美中帶寫實(比起佛羅倫斯那些展品中所見的樸拙畫風來說：那邊的St. Francis後面那隻哨牙狼很傻，用來遮蓋St. Mark 條屍偷運離場的野豬(屍)也很好笑，連聖人看起來有時也很殘，例如想得太深的St. Augustine和St. Anthony Abbot及Paul the Hermit 在沙漠中修行無糧無水又被魔鬼搞----當然不會很漂亮光鮮)。Theodoricus的聖像經重修後在1998年於布拉格一間小型國家美術館展出，那陣我剛在遊逛知道其事便找了一輪找到了那場地。據當日現場的說明是該批作品展完就會運返Karlstejn Castle從此對外永久封閉，以作保存。

當代捷克其實是個非常「世俗」的社會，沒有幾個人會信教，不過宗教是其文化與歷史根源，人們彷彿對之喜愛有加----也許沒有壓抑，反而沒有反彈心理。

捷克版本的聖像中有一個黑人(St. Maurus)，不比佛羅倫斯展出那些是全白的，算是難得。他的膚色甚黑，但面目、輪廓清楚顯示是一個十分傳神寫真下的黑人，也很漂亮。但沒有說明背景，故不知他的身世。

回頭說句Sister Wendy怎樣看宗教，精句如下： - 除非能分享神聖的智慧，否則我們所講的「愛」，便可以是shamefully weak的 (唔識譯---「微弱得可笑」?) - Christianity不是一個輕易的選擇，不是一種逃避。它全方位地直面現實，當然是背靠上帝而面對的。

誠哉斯言。善哉斯言。也適用於任何宗教。

今、明天都去瑪麗，今天等抽血時見輪候取藥的人山人海中，嘩人人一大袋，藥廠股你買左未? 如不去買股還能怎樣直面現實--------而不是向每個park 藥病人多派一劑可笑的「愛」而已?

2013年7月21日

鼻敏感不是小事，不單因鼻子弱了會常引起喉嚨、呼吸道不適或感冒等，也會因經常有輕微發炎而引起細胞變異，更重要的，過敏症是身體(提前)衰老的表徵，顯示身體功能欠佳，必須注意。

不要讓過敏症自來自去-----它不再發作之日可能因身體更差(詳情參攷吳清忠著作)，我也有此經驗：身體很差時鼻敏感大發作，練了氣功不發作了，但日後因非常勞累而可能有了輻射或別的污染影響，結果反而一點鼻敏感都沒有，只是聲音有點改變，沒理會它，後來便大病爆發。

阿C亦宜注意，尤其影響睡眠更加危險-------睡不好本身便可累積出疾病；所以就算(手攞)無薪假期一年亦要醫好個鼻及睡眠disorder。

練下功，很有成功感的。

my現在由按摩師幫助通氣血是救急。

2013年7月22日

24史中<<北史>>、<<南史>>、<<北齊書>>、<<周書>>、<<隋書>>、<<梁書>>、<<陳書>>、<<晉書>>均成書於唐，難免共同服侍一個政治目標：為唐朝洗刷它一如北朝諸"代"的出處--------都是匈奴鮮卑系譜的一連串"拓跋國家"之一，而非甚麼中華漢族的"正統王朝"。其實早在曹操的軍隊裡已有匈奴軍，根本就是種族上難分難解地共同統治著北方西北方。

那邊廂的南朝十國是漢人統治，卻是很弱小的國家。弱小是相對於北方那些跨草原-農耕的勢力而言--------匈奴、突厥是其中的表表者。隋文帝(楊堅)是靠東突厥幫助才能打低其老闆北周宇文氏取得政權，又使出陰謀詭計分化突厥為東、西突厥才能抽空南下取陳國統一"中土"，此為北面跨草原-農耕權力形勢之一例。

據杉山正明，大唐天下其實只有25年是真正的"世界帝國"，涵蓋極大幅圓，高宗之後對很多地方只有名目上的統治而已。與唐同期並存於歐亞大陸的"世界帝國"則有(由東到西數算)：(1)突厥、(2)伊斯蘭、(3)拜占廷和法蘭西帝國等串連成的政體。其實較早前那隋煬帝也有興趣做草原-農耕混合體的霸主建"世界帝國"的----拘禁東突厥可汗，又去西征，但成者為雄(唐太宗)敗者為蟲也。

有項有趣軼事可助說明再輝煌的王朝也要做很多工夫去掩埋其陰暗面的。話說唐三藏違反朝廷禁令私自出關一路向西，但那是發生在何年的事卻相當"神秘"，原因估計與那個年度很敏感有關--------是年也李世民禁錮老豆殺死兄弟奪了政權，shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh，真是不要多提為妙；另一項有趣事是玄奘在西域一路順利行走(與西遊記有出入)，乃是得西突厥可汗之助------但西突厥與唐不是友邦，所以這點也是不提也罷，讓大家去想像和尚被盤絲女妖開餐吧。

這些都一再印証諸權力中最重要的是寫歷史權，所有掌權者都會緊握這一瓣--------生前維穩身後名嘛。可憐莘莘學子/女從來都是獲得"國教"，歷史教訓又是"國教"中脫颕而出的識做乖乖所總結的，更慘烈的是國家普及學校教育下更加沒法跑出太史公這類怪傑來寫歷史.......所以正規教育辦得愈成功(無所不涵蓋的文憑証書愈有根有據)，"揭竿而起"這種以身體、生命來寫歷史的情況愈難出現；而議會辯論與精英圓桌討論則愈來愈長，政策白皮書與改革方案亦愈來愈厚------這些便是今天的教材、明天的"歷史"了。

收拾到戲曲書一欄，順便把粵劇書抽出與散放它處的有關讀物如六國大封相、梁醒波傳等集合，可惜接下來全部無位擺放，只能坐在我床頭(地上)。隨手拎本本地<<電影節1987粵語戲曲片回顧>>(留意"粵語戲曲"這稱謂多麻煩)看，之前沒看完，今次一口氣看完文章，真是不知應該好氣還是好笑。

也許節目負責人李焯桃的朋友圈多是昔日中國學生周報(日後文林)的影評文人，所以都是就著其趣味來寫文章/選文章----而其趣味所在則必環繞仙鳳鳴(的白雪仙)，當然就是偏頗極了。而且像邁克那樣的捧仙文章，向來卻係隨性(他本人的性情、性議題)發揮，縱有品味亦非戲曲品味，所以難望有甚麼知識性資料性，與這種出版物的nature不符可想而知；倒是連插圖都是任白劇照佔80%-----電影節選任、白、唐(滌生)合作的片則佔7/26，好像比例不大對-------更令人大為驚奇。

任白唐影片佔這個7/26比例(還有雛鳳的帝女花)我不知是否合理，如依代表性來講就唔算合理：新馬片(雖然粗鄙些)但一套都無，何非凡只一套.......。若就有關的戲劇的藝術價值來評，則任、唐、吳(君麗)的白兔會為何不選？若考慮的是電影拍攝技術，那七部片導演的大批其餘作品又為何不見多選？

[與此同時區域市政局出版的一本<<粵劇服飾>>(其實是本雜錦書，不限講服飾)，則見不少當時紅透舞台的雛鳳班子的身影(衫影)，但這是80年代雛鳳獨領舞台(市場)的時勢，其它戲班難以生存，故自然如此。]

所以難怪非常口直心快的吳君麗有次接受訪問時說：「要"留名"也不易啊，任劍輝也是得白雪仙努力(promote)才會到今時今日聲譽不減呢」。白的promote當然是任白一併來promote啦--------雖然<<電影節1987粵語戲曲片回顧>>中有篇異數文章我很同意，作者認為任的自然演出，與白的略誇張、風格化演出實不甚相襯---------起碼在電影鏡頭下如是；我嘗坐電影院第二行看蝶影紅梨，這不相襯真是纖塵畢露，令人不安。倒是波叔與任很合拍，令人看得舒服。<<梁醒波傳>>就講到任退休後常去看雛鳳演出，看到老友波叔的表演就說：「死老鬼真係愈老愈做得好」，惺惺之情無限呢。

大、小歷史是怎樣寫成的？

好在間中也有閒人寫閒話，做閒事，如黎鍵編/寫的粵劇文章、朱慶祥(棚面頭架)師傅的徒弟寫師傅、徐蓉蓉記錄任冰兒講她的"阿姐"任劍輝、有人在美國一個垃圾箱撿回幾段任劍輝演大紅袍.........歷史，便尚有從旁邊寫出/演出，從側面閱讀的可能性。

2013年7月22日

1. 防蚊(殺蟲)藥通常有DEET or permethrin

DEET (N,N-diethyl-meta-toluamide) is used in more than 230 different products

會導致Memory loss Headache Muscle weakness and fatigue Shortness of breath Muscle and joint pain Tremors permethrin

This chemical is a member of the synthetic pyrethroid family, all of which are neurotoxins. The EPA has even deemed this chemical carcinogenic, capable of causing lung tumors, liver tumors, immune system problems, and chromosomal abnormalities. Permethrin is also damaging to the environment, and it is particularly toxic to bees and aquatic life. It should also be noted that permethrin is highly toxic to cats.

2. 天然防蚊

- Cinnamon leaf oil (one study found it was more effective at killing mosquitoes than DEET)
- Clear liquid vanilla extract mixed with olive oil
- Wash with citronella soap, and then put some 100% pure citronella essential oil on your skin. Java Citronella is considered the highest quality citronella on the market
- Catnip oil (according to one study, this oil is 10 times more effective than DEET)8

3. 讓蝙蝠自由飛翔，就可食曬d蚊

結論：保護蝙蝠。勿噴殺蟲藥-----毒蝙蝠。

2013年7月23日

人類向生態作的孽。Chernobyl and Fukushima

基因變異中的物種亦說明了"低劑量輻射"的殺戳力(可能比高劑量更)強-------不馬上殺死生物，卻讓其導致的基因變異令物種的生存適應力代代下降直至滅亡，大概像現時人類患癌及其它免疫系統病症大幅增多的痛苦軌跡吧(按：像美國，1900年cancer rate是1/8000，現在是一生人中機會為1/2，香港是1/3以上)。這是一篇充實的好文章-----旁邊那box也不錯。

http://www.earthisland.org/journal/index.php/eij/article/radiant_wildlands

Both the Chernobyl and Fukushima power plants were located in small cities surrounded by farms and woodlands. When the disasters struck, radioactive fallout hit trees, shrubs, and grasses. In Chernobyl as much as 70 percent of the radionuclides fell on forests. Over time rain and snow washed plutonium, radiocesium, and other radioactive particles onto the forest floor. Plants and fungi soon began taking up these particles and passing them on to the leaves, berries, and pollen that insects and other animals eat. Traveling the very same biological pathways that normally bring sustaining nutrients to forest life, the radionuclides permeated entire ecosystems.

The prospect of a permanently altered ecosystem is even more disturbing because of the decades – perhaps centuries – these nuclear forests will remain dangerous. Still beautiful in spite of the contamination, they stare us in the face with the uncomfortable truth that when our human adventures in high technology go awry and crash through the natural world, we are utterly unable to control the consequences. Nuclear forests may be the ultimate Anthropocene environment.

2013年7月24日

炯林，姓陳，台灣屏束人，黝黑皮膚、蜷曲髮，像"真正"的台灣原住民，今年30歲，譯了<<核電員工....>>和小出裕章的<<核電是騙人的>>，譯得很好，黎兒提到他也大讚。去年4.26我們在葵芳街頭有紀念Chernobyl行動，中段休息有人(彩雲?)約了他和一些自費來港參加活化廳青年活動的人來相見，接受獨媒訪問，來者都是反核的；席間三木做了日文傳譯，不用炯林"開工"，我們便趁機"抽了水"與他談起來，當時根本不知他是誰，但講起反核及其它話題都令人精神爽利，還著實地安慰了我們慘澹的香港反核，那時覺得------

是這樣的年輕人
教我們安心老去。

世事蒼涼若此，凋零若此?

無論如何，讓我們做好本地反核，莫負炯林。Lily，請做三個要求的update表格給大家，讓每人一個月內起碼收它50個簽名。

大家亦為炯林的平安祝願。

Si Wai

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2013年7月26日

寄件人：msw
主旨：a few words

炯霖的朋友開了個gmail a/c，請大家寄語、寄意去，讓炯霖的家人更了解他做過些什么事，代反核之眾草了幾句send去。

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香港反核之眾(30個民間組織和一些個人組成)

永記炯霖對我們的鼓勵：一點一滴積聚的愛土地的工作，總會有聽到回響的一天。那一天，縱使我們都不在了，歡樂還是共享的，而一定是與炯霖共享的。

每個人有其出處，亦即其歸處，無論那是森林或海洋，沙地或濕地-------活著的每個日子，必以愛和頌歌戰退醜陋的貪婪；成為祖先的一份子，必予永久的守護。

感謝地球上的短暫相逢，炯霖，你分享了你的永遠。

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2013年7月26日

寄件人：choi

寫得很好，謝謝。

你也保重！很多人也很掛心你呢！

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2013年7月27日

寄件人：msw

2013年7月27日

本週為下週再吊化療針作準備，自己多作運(走)動及購食療材料備戰，周大師則開了補(充)血(球)的藥------這表示此藥引發IgM狂飊的危機暫成過去。

「補」血之下精神尚佳，加緊收拾書籍，現已觸及之前未敢觸碰的農耕、園圃樂、自然行腳等藏書----因為涉及多年前離開的「故業」，及近年少行高山，遊不「出境」的現實，難免要克服「與過去不再一樣地生活」的某種不安。

收拾到明祟禎時的計成所寫的《園冶》，閱到日後降清的阮大鋮所寫的序。阮當時已講自己為雙親、為貢獻社稷不能率性歸隱blah blah，故享受(人造)園林之樂便是兩存其美blah blah。誠然如是，但大隱隱於市，也所費不菲呢﹗

尤其是在拚命發展的地方，誰可買地造林建花園？就算你發了(如中了Mark Six頭獎)，造了建了園林，明天旁邊也會建一列屏風樓，或Spa酒店，或地鐵站再來上蓋豪宅兼商場，或索性請田生買起你同你個園林。除非你是黃永玉。

黃大師賺了錢而那錢實在是大錢，一幅畫隨時過百萬元(雖然我覺得他的畫設計味卡通味濃，特別是他「斷尺賣」那麼超大幅的畫，如果是設計味卡通味就很難有趣味甚至很不是味了)。更重要的是他在北京買了8畝地建其「萬荷堂」，那8畝地是給300畝果園護衛著，後面更有7,000畝絕不容有建設的政府綠化植林區------作靠山，總之是10,000畝地屬他個人享用呢﹗

從大陸的(我想像是)搜刮民脂民膏的暴發官商囊中賺了(黑)錢，以建築藝術回饋自己鍾情的地方本來亦無壞，但你認為有鉅款就可得到10,000畝靠山嗎？應該還要付出額外一點努力的----例如要畫出毛澤東紀念堂中高置中堂的那幅山水。

還有那千年神木----「陰沉木」，從三峽水庫運到北京又讓他的朋友「送」給他運到鳳凰作為他在故鄉建的第二間樓房的主角(他建的第一間叫「回龍閣」已成旅遊廣告中的地標)，你認為那是因為作為藝術家便可以得到的回報嗎？如果我是藝術家我會問自己：我願意畫一幅掛毛澤東紀念堂的畫嗎？如果我像他那樣被那個毛澤東所搞的文革把對自己最重要的木刻藝術生命搞掉了----文革完了人也老了無力量做好木刻要改行作畫了，那麼我會如何選擇？[我沒有看過那幅中堂山水，不知道他有沒有隱藏了對毛的嘲諷而大家都看不懂；不過也不像如此，因為他還接了其它類似的order/人情欠單，包括為慶祝香港大公報110週年免費畫一幅，也許是(當年愛新中國之)舊情難忘也許不是，我不知道。]

又或者他或他的子女(黑蠻黑妮，在六四時有點認識，似是非常熱情熱心的人)將來會將各間大宅捐出來與大眾分享？也說不定......所以，到底人應怎樣住、怎樣造園林、怎樣留名、怎樣貢獻社稷、怎樣為一個向錢衝的國度保留藝術根基，由於關係到「關係學」的理論與實踐，實非所我長，就此打住。

話雖如此，黃大師到底是個傳奇人物，寫的文章更是漂亮乾淨，一個地方有個渾身藝術色彩的文化猛人居住----或有了一至多間他隨時可以居住其中的樓房----的確生色很多。「陰沉木」在他鳳凰之「玉氏山房」中被刻上小篆體詩經選段不是不優雅；以前我到旭龢道步上太平山，經常在他那「山之半居」附近碰見他散步、寫生、溜狗之類，在中環住的日子坐巴士也會與他和他夫人同車，滿車氣質頓時提升。不過他已選擇北京長居，大概與我等文化水平不高的人同車對他來說不夠爽(他五零年代住北京大雅寶胡同時阰鄰而居的有李可染、李苦禪等等呀，當然當日的鄰居今日都仙遊了，但這些「比他老的老頭」之外的今日來賓，唔，總不能不享受他一手設計的十萬荷花處於九曲迴廊、亭台樓閣之間的壯懷激烈).........不過我卻認為旭龢道登山路口山澗四周的野薑花別有滋味，起碼絕對是濕漉漉、桀傲不馴的南國野味。

人老了，要設計的事往往愈來愈多。一半是逼於無奈----如食譜、養生作息時間都不可不加思索，但一半則因怕失去----不再受注意、不再是talking point，故此，「大」搞作會特別多。

畫要大，屋要大，銀碼要大，名更要大大大。對我來說，雖絕非相同處境，但仍不免對自己說句：勉之、慎之。

「執」書接近一個階段完成，把存放位置作大調動讓「歸類」做得更好(靠記憶已不大行得通)，發現有本《聞香》幾有趣味。大篇幅講香道(與茶道花道X道Y道一樣，始自中國，在日本大盛/成)，既是道不免與修身有關，修身日後又與禪修有關，又由於香道涉及茶道，其中講及茶庭之設計便有這一段公案----有次千利休(日本戰國期間著名茶人)參加茶會，於某茶庭中見一吊門，有人驚嘆曰：「蕭、寂、簡、雅」，千利卻持相反意見：「吊門製作得很不錯，但我卻一點也沒有你所說的蕭、寂、簡、雅的感覺。這個吊門肯定是從遠方的某個古寺中得來的，花費大量人力、財力才運到這裏。如果從真正的茶人素樸的心境出發，安這樣一個吊門，應該親自去小作坊或賣柵門的小店提出自己的要求，請對方用松樹或杉樹的邊角料拼製一個粗製的吊門......」想起南蓮園池從大陸運來數千古樹及各種奇石，近期還敢向聯合國「申遺」，修為水平可想而知。

宋代真淨克文禪師有詩：「事事無礙，如意自在。手把豬頭，口誦淨戒。趁出淫房，未還酒債。十字街頭，解開布袋。」

再想想黃永玉他今時在大陸那八架名牌車(包括艷紅的跑車兩架---BMW、法拉利)和鋪張過街的私家馬車(不要忘記他在北京的第一部車是全北京的第一部私家車，當年是胡耀邦親批他擁有和駕駛的)，看訪問，這些四輪之物是真正令他老人家十分興奮之物，而不是自來自去的過路相逢而已。

可幸我已執拾好食、住、行幾類藏書，內含不少可參考的alternatives，縱然做不到也有提醒力量，再談。

2013年7月28日

(1) Plutonium from Sellafield in all children's teeth

Sellafield前身是Windscale(再提鍊廠)，英女皇主持開幕一年後(1957)就出意外，大量alpha particles外泄，包括1/4噸Plutonium漏到愛爾蘭海，之後該廠恢復"生產"，直到去年才關門，但遺害世代兒童....... (該地兒童血癌數字特高，但政府及其專家一向都說與該場意外及平日排放無關)

http://www.guardian.co.uk/uk/2003/nov/30/greenpolitics.health

(2) Plan to ship [Canadian] radioactive material to Sweden for recycling cancelled
By Joshua Learn, The Canadian Press July 27, 2013

http://tinyurl.com/nsmaptv

反核(just say no to nukes)是可以成功的-------核廢料"再造"為日常用品十分危險，必須反反反。只有全面廢核才可停止核廢料繼續被散佈到全球人民的生活空間。

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A plan to ship 16 radioactive steam generators through the Great Lakes and St. Lawrence River for recycling in Sweden has been cancelled after delays caused by public opposition.

An agreement was reached in 2009 between Bruce Power in Tiverton, Ont., and Swedish company Studsvik but company president Duncan Hawthorne said they delayed the plans to allow further discussion with First Nations, Metis and other groups

........But the idea of blending man-made nuclear waste materials into scrap metal for general commercial use, without even any labelling to indicate that the "recycled"metal contains nuclear waste, was another powerful motivator driving many to oppose the Bruce Power plan.

Increasingly, the nuclear industry is seeking permission from governments to be allowed to freely release radioactive waste materials into the environment and into commercial products. Citizens from all walks of life must be alert to this dangerous trend which will result in irreversible contamination of unregulated sites and manufactured goods.

(3) 舊聞一則

http://www.hket.com/eti/article/9bc41fec-45d6-46a5-a0b6-caf8bed41bf9-263989

文中所指的中電成立的"核電教育展覽中心"已向市民(學生!!)開放，有冇人去過接受教育---包括理解"機組的壓力容器頂蓋"為甚麼要更換？之前是否漏出過甚麼？

香港兒童的牙齒又有冇輻射物質？

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... 另外，大亞灣核電廠於03及04年，為兩個核電機組更換壓力容器頂蓋，但沒向外公布。電廠港方股東港核投昨強調，更換頂蓋不涉及任何事故或安全問題，故當時無將有關資料上載至網站。保安局副局長黎棟國表示，更換頂蓋屬正常維修，毋須特別通報，港府當年透過港核投董事局知悉事件，看不到日後有需要通報維修事項，而中電未來會對公眾加強核電安全的認識，包括成立核電教育展覽中心。

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2013年7月28日

寄件人：WT

Aiya! Brainwashing education?

題目： 食物與輻射
http://www.weather.gov.hk/education/friends_hko/newsletter/Vol51/Vol51_p20.pdf

講者： 翁忠海先生　(香港天文台學術主任)
摘要： 你吃了多少輻射？本講座會簡單介紹輻射的各種來源及食物如何受到放射性物質的污染，讓大家了解各種食物含輻射的概況及如何減少當中的輻射。
日期： 2013年8月3日﹙星期六﹚
時間： 下午2時至3時30分
地點： 九龍尖沙咀彌敦道134號A
香港天文台總部 百週年紀念大樓會議廳

~ 免費入場。座位有限，先到先得。 ~

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2013年7月29日

寄件人：msw

天文台的"讓大家了解"="讓大家放心"，有朋友得閒就去收料吧-------"如何減少(食物)當中的輻射"的確是天方夜譚、超科學的神秘經驗。

2013年8月7日

立秋已到，驕陽不減，這個暑天不是暴雨就是萬里無雲，農民加倍力量也不易令作物成長、蟲害減少，可幸這一期每周保持送菜，我們沒有"絕糧"，感謝付出許多汗水的勞動者。

暫無近憂，也有遠慮，如昌哥大部份的田2015年將加租5倍，地主也不肯簽約........希望我們日後可以用適當地支援三農(農民、農地、農業)的方式，去讓本地生產不致被趕絕，供菜給我們的農民可以安穩地耕種，及不用太勞累。

趁下一期即將開始，請大家努力邀請送菜路線上居住/工作的朋友加入，分擔運輸費和減低燃料浪費。

(另：記得每次交還菜袋給義工。)

2013年8月10日

看完鍾叔河之《小抄》，愈往後的文章愈妙，"串"完四庫全書(及它的吹捧者)又"串"大嘴巴亂up的楊振寧，最後收錄的是為南方都市報寫的，妙絕了，可惜病後怕用輸入法改用手寫版，而手寫版又多不認同我的書法，所以經常勞役利利打字，否則抄下來讓大家過下癮。

先解釋一下：星期三立秋，以南北不同計，大約這裏還是「大暑」天時吧，總之是「陽曆八月，"暑假"時期，炎炎之下，讀書最"正"」-------這是數十年的感歎，即做中學生時平日要兼顧上課，打斷看書，不爽，教書後平日多少要為備課看書，書雖不是不好書，也覺不爽，唯暑假放可盡情盡性，發癲發狂，亂看一通之際，甚至間中還有看到學問的門檻(在那遙遠的地方)的幻覺........。以下鍾叔河「談談職業與業餘」一文選段可提供有關背景：

- [引陳寅恪]------「決不可倚學問以謀生」，做學問必須「另求謀生之道」；「做官以及做教員等，決不能用我所學，只能隨人敷衍，自儕於高等流氓，誤人誤己，問心不安。」

- [陳]考證錢(牧齋)柳(如是)因緣..........則完全是業餘研究，若不如此，而是先列規劃，編預算，討經費，搭班子，請那位書記來領導，選那個女生當助理，三卷本的《柳如是別傳》只怕未必能成。

至今人生是進入「長暑假」階段，書在招手，人卻被化療藥搞得整天昏睡及胃反轉；為免筋肌內臟萎縮，起來散步，又PK，現在家養膝傷......

只好選最有趣的來東翻西閱----在昏睡與療傷的罅隙中。

看完Pollan講BBQ，跳到我最感興趣的發酵。嘩，全世界都在發酵﹗全人類文化都搞發酵(此所謂culture也)﹗這是說，每一個傳統都與生態共舞，讓分解世上物質的細菌大放異彩，死中有生，生生不息，從中生物又取得自己儲存食物與營養增值之效益。但如今到處以化學、輻射etc殺菌，只怕地球上的垃圾(超負荷的物質)再無法腐化、清理、循環-------人類自以為是的清理方式，結果耗費能源、製造更多垃圾(超超負荷的物質)........

看到製泡菜(西式、韓式)方式----其實不成功而成仁的機會不小，又想起我們的鹹菜，於是利利又拾回那本原來決定「清理」掉的《唐魯孫談吃》再看-------一篇講到南方醃菜，卻只是四川泡菜，總之來來去去都是只適合在不那麼熱的地方造的。再翻出去年看過那本《蔬食記》，則以江南(上海)為焦點，講的是醃鹹青菜(青菜=白菜)，總不見我們的鹹酸菜出場，還有冬菜........

但《蔬食記》有引用古文獻去講豆醬、豆豉等的舊時製法(醬在中國至少有五千年歷史，但是否豆醬則未詳)，去年因為接待福島小朋友便研究一下味噌所以順帶看看其中國源頭(即豆醬)......一想起這事，便又拉出《味噌之書》與《豆腐之書》，兩本都是一對美-日夫婦幾十年前合寫的。味噌那本當年在西方是大熱書，兩人還駕車巡遊美國去講解。但我看除了歷史那部份有些資料可參考，對日本各地的味噌描寫十分平板，與妹尾河童那本《邊走邊啃醃蘿蔔》判若雲泥；作為實用書(製作味噌)也不很實用；作為烹飪書，也許可取。但味噌現今已絕大部份工業(即加速甚至使用化學元素)生產，農家與寺廟作品已所餘無幾了，不自造恐怕再難吃到真味，也失了做發酵食物幫助地球保存野生細菌的生態意義，也無健康意義。

豆腐那本比較耐看，雖然與發酵無關------除了順帶講講中國腐乳與日本納豆的小段落，但都沒有講製法-------現時市面上賣的這些，我都覺靠不住。

食品工業集團搞傳統發酵食品，總是以「食物安全」之名，樣樣消毒、樣樣劃一。消毒是殺菌而非養菌，與發酵本意相反，Pollan舉的例子大家不會驚訝：現時醃製食品一般用醋，太酸了，只能殺菌，醋本來也是發酵而來，但製作時卻被高溫殺菌了；而德國酸菜(sauerkraut)及韓國泡菜也是高溫殺菌然後真空包裝。至於造麵包或甚麼的，都是買酵母，劃一得很。

還有東南亞魚露、中式臭豆腐，令人神馳於昔日，卻懷疑於今還有多少是慢慢憑野菌發酵而成？

從前，你發酵我發酵------文化交流發酵豈可少？去年接待福島小朋友的整個過程可作明證。利利拿果皮講解酵素(洗滌用)製作時，小朋友來自農業省份福島大概都知味噌製法、臭可變香的道理，所以容易理解。我隨後介紹了普洱茶，很後悔只提及是全發酵，自己便沒有深究此發酵利用了甚麼(拉丁名的)菌，又會帶來甚麼育養人類的營養........附帶說明：利利說喝茶餅的普洱後很快會上廁並很舒暢，看來是那些我所不知的拉丁名字的益菌到了腸道耍樂時，順帶對宿主作點回報。

最後兩則預告：

1. 已成功讓一株從種子培育的(大)蕉樹新生命發芽------這對豐富(大)蕉的基因庫有些微貢獻，長大一點後誰會收容讓它成叢呀？以前曾作這樣培育的一株，已長成一大叢現應還在大埔林村。

2. 文化歷史也要在表達多樣性之下發芽、展露、發酵、繁殖，將會看這樣味道的一本作品《故宮的風花雪月》，下回報告。

2013年8月11日

(A) 單以美國為例，近期決定收檔的Nuclear reactors 有四個，情況包括關了機要維修太貴決定不重開；又有供電其實過盛無須核電......... 其中續了期的也一樣照關。經濟考慮是重要，但其民間(包括它們的環境團體)努力爭取也是事實。(大亞灣表面沒有為消費者製造貴電，但這沒有計算為後代及鄰近人民製造的生命與健康代價)

- San Onofre (2 reactors) in California http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/San_Onofre_Nuclear_Generating_Station#2012_shutdown_and_subsequent_closure

- Kewaunee in Wisconsin http://www.reuters.com/article/2013/02/19/utilities-dominion-kewaunee-idUSL1N0BJ9CF20130219

- Crystal River in Florida http://articles.chicagotribune.com/2013-02-05/news/sns-rt-utilities-dukecrystalriver-update-2l1n0b53zt-20130205_1_nuclear-plant-nuclear-reactors-containment-structure

更有Institute for Energy and the Environment, Vermont Law School 的Cooper 預測三打reactors會提前關門。

(B) 亦有放棄新nuclear reactors project (包括已投資的) ---- Prairie Island in Minnesota, LaSalle (2 reactors) in Illinois, and Limerick (2 reactors) in Pennsylvania.

最新消息是Levy nuclear reactor project in Florida也放棄了。

(A) + (B) 告訴我們三項要求完全不是唱高調，不去要求是自己先站到對方立場去打擊己方(運動)所致，即是自己是對方最大助力，是可憐的，也是可恥的。

Si Wai

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2013年8月12日

寄件人：my

Chance of nuclear leaks 'very slim', expert says

City University head and nuclear specialist says coal burning creates more radioactive pollution

http://www.scmp.com/news/hong-kong/article/1295974/chance-nuclear-leaks-very-slim-expert-says#comment-33287

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2013年8月12日

寄件人：wt

有一次晌天文台門口搞反核抗議，長毛教大家：呢啲叫屎忽腦袋，有冇教錯？

最慘係思想污染！

有中學教科書唔教radiation pollution，卻教風能發電有visual pollution。

高中考試思考題問：香港可持續發展有甚麼問題？其一model answer係失業；甚麼思考？點解釋外國社區風能發電可以製造千計就業機會？點解高中學生個腦可以比人咁搞？

點收科？

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2013年8月12日

寄件人：msw

家長將教育的責任俾曬學校和教科書是一個基本問題。唔教子女"咪信國家統一辦理的教育會教真相"是未盡家長責任---------當然，你可以話家長都被洗曬腦，咁就係時候搞家長教育了。

但如果家長覺得真理唔緊要，屎忽腦袋只要長大能賺錢出人頭地就得，咁就教科書教乜都冇所謂啦，因為都係一句：搵食啫。

"外國社區風能發電可以製造千計就業機會"其實都係大家鬥宣傳而已。如果進入問題核心，應該係理解到有job冇job的論述本是"金錢主導"，"搵錢主導"，而搵埋搵埋咪又俾番地產商銀行資本家？學識做人道理和做d有益既事---------如搞社區風能發電，如反核，才是正路，唔使做為賺錢而做的job，生態和生活才真正有可持續性可言。家長唔以身作則爭取一個這樣的社會，同教科書教學生邊庶有job就學邊一瓣基本上是同一口徑；我一向認為"可持續發展"係最衰格的口號----明明唔肯/唔敢去檢討個"發展"觀念，仲加個"可持續"在前面爭取道德光環，將關心環境進而批判建制的可能性都騎劫埋。

教育家長，可從邀請她/他們以身作則，反對以job縛死人的制度，即是那吓吓講發展的制度，要爭取de-development，從反核(簽名支持三項要求)做起。

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2013年8月12日

寄件人：msw

今天東方打來訪問，東方早期很肯報我們的言論，之後開始登日本東北美食稿就停了採訪，開始講福島重建等垃圾，近期又倒過來，此消而彼長，記者仍是最初那位，大概對我們還是有印象。

他今天問的是大核、陽江與台山，最初問題完全是黎廣德與GP的"關注點"，即我地既在香港自然(只能)關心：(1)如何搞疏散計劃，(2)監察組織應點搞(又點監埋大陸未來企圖增建的核設施之類)，我清楚解釋了這樣pose個issue是會導致假安全意識，非常危險。而大核(+嶺澳)、陽江與台山，關的關，停建的停建，才是正路；而監察到底監d乜?你班友會同工人一起入去換配管、處理乏燃料現場去"監"咩?都行到鬼咁遠並且隔住幾道門享一粒塵都冇的電腦前睇演習按鈕睇文件仲飲杯茶交下心啦。

鵝一輪之後他的問題漸入正路，我覺得真係要努力指出黎廣德與GP等的反增反擴下的所謂批評焦點的根本問題，不斷指出，以抗衡其污染，否則香港真係可以成為全球最核突之偽反核。

至於"香港對位處境外的核設施除了要求參加監察又有乜say喎"這一個班偽反核大帝常散播的hidden大前提，我今日用了"不受輻射傷害是人權，點解唔可以要求關、停"為回應。

訪問結束前他有點心虛地說：我仲會訪問黎廣德架---------雖然全程我未提過佢個名。所以我地講清楚d問題與立場傳媒是會分得清的，至於最後老板鍾意報邊個的看法就無法由我地決定。

請努力做好三項要求簽名運動，過程中向人解釋為什麼這樣反核是應該做而是可以做到的。(如要進一步解釋請參考上次記招的採訪通知，及我們網頁的資料)

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2013年8月15日

寄件人：my

東方訪問在這裡

http://tv.on.cc/index.html?s=3&ss=top3&i=ONS-130815-12652-03M&d=1376511729

另外才發現您這個回覆沒有按回覆所有人，其他人看不到，您再send多次吧 :)

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2013年8月15日

寄件人：msw

太簡單，報紙版不知有冇。(怎麼把我十幾廿年前的玉照拿出來？)

冇左當日個context，唔send俾大家喇，再有機會至講啦。

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2013年8月15日

寄件人：my

哈哈玉照！

有報紙版呢

http://orientaldaily.on.cc/cnt/news/20130815/00176_097.html

還有相關的

http://orientaldaily.on.cc/cnt/news/20130815/00176_098.html

2013年8月13日

《故宮的風花雪月》是祝勇所寫，此人近年搞了好些電視紀錄片(執筆、導演)得到大陸好些獎，但我未看過。他在北京故宮的書畫組工作，接觸到好些北京和台灣故宮的真跡及疑似真跡，每天在武英殿上班，很難不生起朝代盛衰的敏感，並就此寫將起來。

祝是個博士，並名符其實頗見博學，隨時引用中外名句加強說明這點那點，但間中引號之餘並無註明出處，令人腳踏一空，也怪其出版社不留神，還是香港牛津出版呢。[我不是註腳迷，但既然言論兩頭加引號又無原作者資料，便像末完稿。]而牛津出版又竟不好好校稿。

書內每篇長文寫一件作品與歷史的相遇------緣起、闡釋、遭遇、文化長河中的地位與牽連，有甚多有趣觀察，甚多無定案的思想太空漫遊。對我來說比較不熟悉的也最吸引的是倪瓚一章。

倪真是潔癖，真是人物，是要凝固世界的權力(暴力)的大對立面、大反叛者--------他是以投入自然、畫中連一個人都沒有來找到他的(無)立足點。講開又講，他的路似乎與千幾年後的黃永玉剛剛相反-------他把積聚了的文物寶藏與家財及家居建築群散去，連屋都一把火燒掉，然後泛舟太湖，再進一步退入山林--------但朱元璋仍不放過他，因為朱是權力(暴力)的終極化身。

倪與黃永玉雖走相反方向的人生路，但黃在文革時被打224鞭而不吭一聲(那天還是他44歲生辰)，看來從倪身上學足了本錢--------倪當年不肯替那抗元自立吳國的吳王張士誠畫畫，被張鞭打亦不聞吭聲，事後人問為何，答"出聲便俗"。可見要不做奴隸總得先有點對高於奴隸式生活的追求與癖好-----如潔癖，如由藝術而求"道"的興趣，如有過生活中"上與造物者遊，而下與外死生、無終始者為友"的時刻。

另一個我不熟悉的是唐伯虎。點秋香絕無其事，他的畫我亦認識不多。賈寶玉午睡在秦可卿的"閨"房(其實秦與老公賈蓉到底是真是假夫妻？的確令人生疑，難怪劉心武為她煞有介事地編個甚麼逃走公主的出身)，房中那銷魂的唐寅畫作到底有無其事，自然不必深究；薛蟠說"庚黃的畫"也只是曹雪芹拿薛蟠來"遭質"一下之餘，也拿祖父曹寅的諱來曬一曬；只是，今時才看到唐情聖寫了首《落花詩》，那麼雪芹/寶玉與此前輩的關係就非淺了，而詩中竟有這樣的句子-------"花落花開總屬春，開時休羨落休嗔，好知青草骷髏塚，就是紅樓掩面人。......"

熟口熟面嗎？真是唉呀呀 ﹗

而現實上唐情聖與雪芹/寶玉落難時境況大概也差不多："青衫白髮老痴頑，筆硯生涯苦食艱。湖上水田人不要，誰來買我畫中山。"(唐寅詩)

"十二美人圖"那一章，和圖所涉及的那時期的史料，都算得上頗熟悉(後者透過讀史景遷Jonathan Spence的一系列著作總會有點心領神會)，但祝勇對雍正與美人圖合起來作的心理分析還是有趣的；最後作結更以M.Bakhtin"內心自我感受"與"外在形象"之間插入的一個"透明的螢幕"作為審美上的需要(一個他/她者的需要)之說，解釋美人圖正是雍正的"透明的螢幕"。這令我想起許多藝術家的作品-------不是其"本行作品"，而是她/他們的自傳﹗剛搜出大堆電影藏書，包括一堆導演的自傳，沒有一一看過，但看過的--------波蘭斯基的"透明的螢幕"太明顯了，他太需要他/她者了，以致我對於參與其事(閱讀此書)略覺尷尬、壓迫。Kieślowski的自傳看不下去，因為他這螢幕顯示了與捷克的Ivan Klima一小說(的螢幕)中的某專政政權下一名道德存疑的導演角色非常酷似，雖然我其實了解到1989前波蘭與捷克社會的藝術界生態本就不同，很難以一套標準衡量另一套。伊地卡山的自傳更不敢看，因為他怎樣豎起他的"透明的螢幕"，去讓當日他所"出賣"的那些遭麥卡錫迫害的荷里活同儕的事跡穿透？確不忍睹。還有是黑澤明，他的好看，結合其多年或多部片合作的場務野上照代及編劇橋本忍的自傳來看，就更精彩-------螢幕與螢幕互相參"照"，"照"得幻影幢幢，耐人尋味良久。還有還有......

[BTW這些導演書歡迎借閱。不過要留意那些都是我輩人成長時追的經典導演，最新只到Almodovar及Derek Jarman，之後我的狂熱漸減，或，讓我狂熱的導演/影片漸減，乃至消散......]

但祝勇的書好看，雖然大家或已諳熟仿蘭亭的事跡或墨跡、韓熙載被李後主的密探畫出韓底最cynical的末世風情、清明上河之人事湧湧----那個北宋那些人﹗然而再看祝勇，你總會(一)對權力與變態的萬古不易仍覺得震驚，(二)對"作品-時代"有立體的灼熱體會，(三)對讀書人包括藝術家更覺其可走之路似有還無，一片迷離烟霧。

又回到王世襄，他在袁荃猷鼓動下，三反-->文革後兩人走"自珍"("珍重珍重"是我倆的精神)道路，包括誠實，和努力不懈地工作。工作當然包括荃猷努力替世襄的著作畫"繪線圖"，及在她80歲時受世襄煽動，將自己長期以來的刻紙畫稿出版，她於是"老發少年狂"刻紙264幅(新刻多於舊刻)，終於出版了《游刃集》，世襄事後後悔道，兩年勞苦，勞死了她。

"自珍"的確是個可行可敬的讀書人包括藝術家的座右銘，但是否又有個座左銘是"養生"？怎樣平衡？可否平衡？有沒有必要平衡？難有定論，自己選擇吧。

2013年8月17日

說過想輯「好」文章，「好」是有品味之外還要刺激common sense成長+文化修養的。但有此刺激性的文章有些可能以此時此地觀點看為錯謬百出，起碼極富爭議，但這沒問題，沒有錯謬與爭議，那得有思考？雖然此構想係發下夢(因為實際問題太多，包括版權--------縱使只放上網)，也有時會嚴肅地為此思索一番。

其中一個問題是：是否需要導師？但導師十分危險，會令人奄奄欲睡、望文生厭、隨口總結教訓阻人體味..........但沒有導師還有人會主動看文章-------還是古文佔相當份量的-----嗎？所以還是要「導引」(conducive)之師，那麼，怎樣可以保證有合適者？而合適者又為什麼要認同你這些選材？可見此路不通。

一個構想是將文章放上網，讓有興趣於此道者先來討論一下，然後將有啟發性的討論簡撮起來，權作「導師」。或云，如此隔膜地「導」缺乏了親身從旁鼓勵，不太「正常」吧，算啦，就讓世上多點不正常吧；反正學習過程每人不一樣，最正常的狀態(即：在學校對著過度疲倦或過份熱心推銷的老師，在家吃飯時接收電視宣傳的意識，其餘時間對著whats app messages)也不見得有甚麼好學習可言。我自己少年時「親身」遇見的好老師兩個，但都是我自己決定喜歡看書之後才碰到的(同學大多不覺得他/她們有甚麼好)，由此卻可說明：有幸「自摸」到「好」書，不用導引也是可以有強烈回應的。

另一個方案是把「相關文章」三兩篇同放上去，那麼自學就更容易了。

近日執拾中國古藉的書櫃，主要是麥子、許子、梁麗雲、左冠輝諸君昔日捨棄贈人，寄放陳皮村的精品，也有舊時至今日檢自新檔舊攤的。見有舊學生相贈的兩本《古文觀止》在那裏(我幼承庭教的那個copy是線裝書，在床下底)，及一本《古文評註》，少不免拿來翻閱。原來前者由台灣出版，經已在註釋之餘整篇以語體文翻出，自學第一步已無問題。倒是想起初中讀〈方山子傳〉那種惡劣教育-------被「教」完了也不知方山子就是那民間喜歡講的怕老婆典範陳季常；又不知他作為光黃間隱人的「隱人」身份在中國文人/文化中的意義--------他又是個好武功的呢；更不知「黃」之黃州就是蘇坡叔從文字獄中爬出來被朝廷「軟禁」所在的黃州，及陳蘇兩人在黃州的友誼是怎樣美妙發酵的。又翻至〈項脊軒志〉。當年在初中課本中尤其喜愛這篇(不用被「教」也能自讀啦，所以明清散文應可多選)，上課聽不出所以然，卻心裏很激動，便在課本上畫了一幅「歸有光站在項脊軒外望」的幻想圖像。......

總之從前是一塌糊塗地甚麼也學不好，不要讓來者重蹈覆轍為是。呀，由我的塗鴉又想到用古/今(?)畫作甚至其他媒體襯托文章可也。

想遠了，回頭看基本問題：何謂common sense與文化修養。Common sense是現代教育勤於扼殺的人類自主生存基本元素---------- 扼殺方法是透過令人分神的分科分類分等思想桎梏，操控學習者令其在生活上成為侏儒，所以，亂世用重藥，要用有濃烈生活氣息的材料來對治。至於文化修養，可參考陳寅恪發揮王國維之「二重證據法」為三方面而說明--------

三方面是：
(1) 取地下實物與紙上遺文互釋證
(2) 取異族古書與本國舊籍互補證
(3) 取外來觀念與固有材料互參證

確是較全面的認知法，據之學習者可望達致一定的修為(尚有玄思--------這是陳大師所卑厭但我認為不應放棄的)。循此方向，則地下實物、異族古書、本國舊籍、外來觀念都是必要的選材，另加玄學、文學，和地上實物、實情。ho ho ho，不得了。

但本國舊籍(+新籍)是甚麼？為何選「中國」材料--------其實主要是「漢文化」材料(當然「漢文化」其實就是多文化，是個大雜薈又有不可抹煞的差異在其中)？無計啦----這是我僅能認識一點點的範疇，生於斯長於斯呼吸於斯，命運使然也。以前陸鴻基批評中文課本只選風雪中的北平篇而沒有香港颱風篇，吸收此教訓後應兩者都選-------如果是「好」文章的話，兩皆不選-------如果都是爛文章，除非做反面借鏡..........同理，廣東陽江地震都可以選呀，新疆羅布泊核試也可選，台灣的陳炯霖流麗地譯出小出裕章的反核書也可選。

至於何謂爛文章？實難一語辨解，我的一項卑微小標準是：「不為嘩眾取寵而作」，嘩眾取寵當然包括那些在每年香港書展前急急出爐的月前甚至日前的報紙專欄文章結集。

或曰：台灣的都選？豈非大中華心態乎？(想死咩-------大中華，政治不正確得很呀)答曰：誰叫台灣人寫的中文靚啊，怎能不選？！至於臧否大中華的討論，唔，若有「好」文章關乎此，則又選之可也。百無禁忌之時，一樣可以介紹各時各地的禁忌，這才好玩呢。

Hester代買了《錦灰二堆》、《三堆》，有一些王世襄感謝溫家寶的文字，因為他就所緊張的「在天安門放養觀賞鴿」而寫的建議書獲溫某覆信；又他在論証中國養觀賞鴿有悠長傳統的長文(前半截寫得邏輯與趣味性很強，可做一級教材有餘)中，竟在後半截包括了講周恩來、宋慶玲也好觀賞鴿這一套文字........那到底是怎樣的一回事？我認為如果要選這一篇，可只選前部份，又甚至可選全篇(除非因太長)-------因為可以引發思索、探討在受了一個多世紀帝國主義的氣，特別再加上親身經歷日本侵略，那一輩知識份子的「國家」觀念特重的問題，尤其像王世襄這些選擇1949留在大陸(王自小讀"international school"，1949前甚至後都有為學術交流出國的經歷)，他/她們當然有其對在廢墟中「建國」的情意因素-------也不能貿貿然稱為情意「結」，因為這好像我們自己沒有結似的；也不能輕易嘲弄，因這涉及(殘酷的)歷史現實，嘲弄就是一種迴避。而這些，恰恰是我看香港目前由我那一代人加碼煽動「城邦思維」之下引發的鄙視大陸的一切，何以略覺不妥之故。I mean，our generation should know better。沒有對前人、他人的「蔽 」的sympathetic understanding，對自己的「蔽」或將會產生的「蔽」，也不會有警惕。

回頭說輕鬆一點的，王那篇文章提到近世廣東人養鴿不是競賽(賭)就是為吃乳鴿，對保留多樣品種不利，這點我可証明當年起碼在香港的確如此--------童年天天目睹賽鴿(但沒有吃過乳鴿)；我外祖父在天台也養很多，他雖不賽不賭也不吃，但鴿還是那賽鴿的白色單一品種。不過再想想，北方人批評老廣又會有政治不正確之嫌，又不是那麼「輕鬆」的課題了，不講也罷。

至於「來生不做中國人」之語，實在講來無謂----------來生做甚麼人都「唔惦」，不生在中華人民共和國之「王土」(包括香港)又如何？我看香港的外籍人活得比我們還老搏，在超市購物未見自備購物袋，買junk food一大堆-------膠樽飲品鋁罐飲品像個山，製造垃圾量絕不低於任何華人家庭。來生若為他/她們的「同胞」，要祈求他/她們不要返老家。

若真有來生，香港住不得，大陸住不得，那些外籍人的原籍地不見得住得--------或者當地的寺廟、修道院是例外(*)。Pollan 講到Connecticut一修院的修女勤做傳統歐洲芝士，更派修女某唸個microbiology的PhD去對付官僚系統以衛生之名打壓raw milk、傳統造芝士的木工具等等，結果修院贏得漂亮。好吧，來生，若有來生(最好冇啦)，看來像只有寺廟、修道院一路可走。

(*)本地寺廟、修道院看來也住不得----------月前到附近山上的「神樂院 」，那是之前養牛、製十字牌鮮奶之現場，現已多年不生產，但附近仍有不少果樹，雖已無人打理，但有教友義工長途至此幫忙打掃庭院順便收成，剛有一名中年講純正香港粵語的神父(神樂院始創的眾大陸南來神父如尚健在現年應100歲左右了)走出來，他看見水果好像連辨認都有困難，更奇怪義工怎會懂得去採摘，是典型香港人吧........

希望輯了「好 」文章，可以些微有助於未來的本地神父修女師姑和尚道姑道士拜火教修行者等等等保留過較像樣的自足生活的傳統，也算今生能做的丁點功德。

2013年8月21日

---------就是認清跨國企業(包括石油工業)將水商品化之恐怖，是成為地球的朋友的第一步。

樽裝水也非常不安全。
保護水源才是出路。

http://vimeo.com/25473955

2013年8月21日

本來想放棄陳家三姊妹寫的《也同歡樂也同愁》，但取來作最後回眸時，發現當中講陳氏及有關連的「世家」文化及陳家戰時逃難的經歷十分詳盡，遂留下。陳家者，以陳寅恪唐篔為主軸的家庭也。以前不想留此書，是因為看了陳鍵東的《陳寅恪的最後二十年》(二十年即1949-69)後感觸很大，三姊妹卻在老豆老母蒙難的二十年中(在該書內)隱形，而之前粗略看一下《也同歡樂也同愁》，也是寫到1949而已，覺得在癲狂世界下陳氏連同他那輩知識份子的生存/生命型態之抉擇，不會從該書中看得到。

如今再翻一翻，又覺得不了解陳的「世家」文化及戰時經歷，很難理解這個對中共了解得、預知得最徹底(比錢鍾書楊絳夫婦更厲害)的大師級，為何會選擇1949年不乘坐國民黨政府給他安排了赴台(甚至隨時轉往歡迎他去任教的歐、美、香港)的飛機，而南下廣州中山大學，從此在共產政權下生足二十年的氣，憤鬱並被磨折而死。多年來，他還是全中國(相信是)唯一公開稱「我不會依馬克思主義做學問」的知識份子呢。

於是又細讀(幾年前都已讀得很細了)陳鍵東那本，的確是同類書中寫得信實(用了中山大學的archive)而生動的一本；但到了文革那部份(陳進入三年漫長「死期」)，真不忍看，因為絕對地粗暴、不文的要革文化的命的時代，卻遇著一個最衰弱的肉體而懷著最強頑的文化火把，可以想像其消亡過程之慘烈慘痛。

當然，他不是唯一死於文革的知識份子，但他聰明、敏感、火氣大、學問大(看上去似清朝訓詁餘韻但引申的觀察可大呢)。而且(還是那句)他還是全中國(相信是)唯一公開稱「我不會依馬克思主義做學問」的知識份子。

陳撰寫王國維清大校園紀念碑的全文，與其人其事，自然也是可選的「好」教材。

當年買了上、下冊他在1949之後寫的(一直秘密收藏起來的)詩-------他稱「砍頭詩」。他是以詩言政，當然亦抒懷，但懷中豈會無政治？比較高興一點的(自我開解的)詩作，都是次蘇坡叔韻，可見坡叔真是悲慘世界裏的「開懷果」。

尾二收拾的是我的捷克+蘇東波革命書籍，沒有「清理」掉多少，捨不得，只棄掉兩三本卡夫卡的評介書吧。以捷克暨幾個中、東歐國家為表表者的上世紀末期革命，當然至今日仍吸引我的是：革命的基本力量來自文化-------即，動力在追尋過道德生活(而不是說謊成習)的尊嚴。極權統治或任何壞政府的恐怖特色，正是令「人民」(包括反對者) 的品質氣質向它等齊；「革命」必須起自人民自覺地要超越那低水平。

從前在香港及捷克買的這些書差不多都一一看過，但仍有小部份是利利後來為陳皮村訂的今次取出來抹去塵污順便看看，看舊夢可否重溫？---------當時(97前後)希望自己多認識之餘，亦向社會多介紹這樣的「革命」，但說這些迂闊的話顯然沒有甚麼「成果」，當今不追逐既有統治者所擁有的那種劣質既有權力，不只想到取而代之(如比較會關心生活中回頭是岸、回歸本源力量)者，希矣。

何況廿多年後的中、東歐國家本身，以道德力量鼓勵民眾的上一代知識份子或(in the case of波蘭)工人這批領導者，亦早已不合時宜---------選民(普選啊親愛的普選)情願選擇昔日的共黨份子轉眼變身過來成為跨國大財團代辦的「財經專業」，而「新秀」之vulgarity絕不遜色於任何世上政壇人物。

哈維爾在捷克國內與這些「新秀」鬥法，歷兩屆總統任期，自己的境界也被拖低了？他與NATO(和美國)打得太火熱令人驚訝，然後纏綿病塌多年逝世；喪禮上美國權貴坐在前排，很不好看。

之前未看過的一本1990出版《Without Force or Lie》文集拿出來看，竟然看來看去還是沙哈洛夫與哈維爾的經典文章最耐看。這本書很怪，有些甚麼西德(西方)工業家在那裏介紹未來前東歐國家內大有商機之類，又以哈維爾在美國國會之演講作結---------大概書是代表西方(當日)對這塊新鮮肥肉的垂涎三尺，也印證了一個悲涼的千古定律：革命後(這裏是指1989後)一切都不是那種味道了。還有篇Gunter Grass說德國絕不可統一的文章，說統一必是富者(西德)欺凌窮者(東德)的局面，看來也頗有預見。不過道德文章及作者其人的關係往往很詭異，Grass後來又被爆(少年時，噢當然是少年時)曾接近納粹..........

比較令人高興的是讀到沙哈諾夫partner Elena Bonner的《Mothers and Daughters》，寫她與河婆阿媽三人的事----------當然是在那大(荒誕)時代裡發生的。也許我難免隱約把自己經歷投射其中(看書很難不如此，所以陳寅恪不研清史，只寫一本自撰年譜性質的《寒柳堂記夢》涉及晚清)，覺此書情深義重。阿婆(in my case 阿公的角色重些)傳遞前革命氣色(包括文化、藝術與家務)；阿媽是十分投入的蘇共擁護者；自己是離心份子--------成長時受阿婆育養的影響較大。但Elena阿媽1937年終在史太林清黨時坐牢三年，後來母女感情亦佳---------1987年Elena 陪伴她安靜地慢慢地在家離世(Elena是醫生但不把母親送到醫院等死)，細節讀來感人；而書的第一句就是

"My mother died and created and emptiness so awful I thought my heart would burst."

真是刻骨之誌。11年前我媽走了，griefing period中之超強烈感受就是如此，且該段時期超乎事前所料地長。當日我把中大圖書館所有griefing的書都借回家看都無補於事，只有留待time heals。現時還頗有些關於失去親人的藏書，都是之後開始陸續購入的。用書來解憂縱然做不到(也不應是看書的主要動機吧)，但像Elena那樣，馬上動筆寫下三代女子的事，則對我們大有補助。在可怖的政治現實廢墟中，出現一個永恆的課題-------母與女關係的張力(對此男士們可能永不了解)，回憶起來那得不加倍神傷？

Elena母親死前的筆記還說阿女不應阻止到訪客人向她提及1937的各種慘事，反正最慘的事她都經過了---------包括她個人(及其丈夫------Elena之繼父)作為共產統治集團成員身負內疚之慘痛，已百毒難侵，而她認為Elena並不明白她。

因分類故又找出兩本捷克可愛小畫冊來，一本是一個看來像平凡人(不懂捷克文得個估字)所繪製(大部份是平版印刷)的火車圖象。是個火車迷無疑，對車站、鐵路人員、不同時期的火車、車拐過山間/田野/城市、車走在四時及不同天色下.....都細細描來，情深一往。

另一冊是集合捷境內館藏的動物畫作雕塑等的一個展覽所出版的圖集，由古到今，由當地到外國作品都有。出自本人偏心偏愛，捷克的藝術作品常特別覺好-------有帶著憂愁的黑色幽默。這批展品中(按圖來看)最喜歡的是一隻中國2-1B.C.的熊雕像、一對西藏的大象圖(果然因古典得非常好玩故被捷人收藏？)，另有多種捷人的近/當代作品也抵死中帶淡淡哀情，如一青蛙陶塑，有似空洞仍帶深情的眼睛，你能忽視牠嗎？一般來說，捷克本身的古典作品常有現代性的衝擊(如之前談到14世紀Master Theodoricus筆下的聖像，在相對光鮮的眾聖人之中，出現了一個堪稱一副倒霉相貌的耶穌，此外如有些鮮藍斑爛的小鳥令人開懷......總之看了感覺絕不僅是虔敬。至於捷克的modern art極多抽象作品，對我這不特別嗜好抽象作品或裝置藝術的行外人看來，又覺很喜愛，甚至曾在其Contemporary Art Museum 內流連忘返，看來是作品繼承了其揉合亙古以來的無厘頭與時代的哀愁之傳統，所以令我特有感應。

類似氣質在捷克文學作品也常見-------你看Hrabal寫「劏豬」的場面，劏豬者全心全力但其實又很可笑，這些傻人也包括他自己。我每看他寫劏豬便想起捷克人對豬(肉)的喜好與中國人同，由吃做成了文化靠近也不出奇-------所以捷克有悠長的「漢學」傳統？

當然，豬肉是引子，引出來的可大了--------友人Olga Lomova最近出版了她譯作捷克文的《史記》(她之前的研究領域包括賦、王維詩等等等等)；她說當年投身漢學是要以一個遙遠時空的文化來拉開眼前政治、社會的黑暗，讓生命美善還可展現。她絕不是個逃兵，曾落足工夫爭取捷克自由，然後失望，然後加入綠黨........不斷請大陸dissident作家訪捷，每年在布拉格紀念六四----------因為在可怕的權力(即常規政治：不論是共產或非共產政治的版本)面前，中、捷人民也是難姊難妹。我自己十幾年前自覺地墮進捷克的「文學-政治-理想」世界，何嘗不是尋找遙遠時空的文化所提示的希望？不過我譯不出半本捷克經典來，沒有生產和貢獻。

必須向辛勤的文化耕耘者致敬，特別在癲狂歲月裡。

[第四次化療應在下周，但希望爭取多一星期讓我抖順條氣，多看兩本書。明日到QM可揭嘵。]

Si Wai

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2013年8月22日

寄件人：Grace

一位朋友的丈夫突然離世。朋友幾近崩潰，帶著眼淚不斷的唸《地藏經》。一直唸一直唸，她說真的不可思議，心竟然慢慢定下來，從崩潰的邊緣回來，雖然griefing 到現在(5、6年後）還沒有停止。

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2013年8月22日

寄件人：A

文柚：

星期六不能赴會，看來和你家中的藏書欠了點緣份，如果有機會，就幫我留一些吧，（前）東歐的，自傳，文學類吧，還是那句：人生流離，書是故鄉！This applies to me. 想必你另有懷抱吧！保重！

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2013年8月22日

寄件人：KY

a) 未有最癲， 只有更癲；餘此類推。

b) 這個時候，就想再看Plato's Republic

c) 張力之於母女， 還是母子，孰強孰更強，猶如說獅子老虎，邊個好打？看看Sons and Lovers, Paul Morel (= D H Lawrence) 的說法，恐怕也令許多大男人難以終卷吧。

d) 「劏豬」的場面，小時在新界西貢“聽” 過，年長在鄉下劏豬及屠狗場“見”過，眾生都是“傻”乎乎者也。不過，傻呆比癲狂，好似好D。

e) 《史記》翻譯？ 周不時在港島徑龍脊行所謂“山”，對有人扎扎實實登珠穆朗瑪峰，有如夏蟲想像吃紅豆冰吧？

f) 祝長長氣氣，惠我筆記。

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2013年8月22日

寄件人：msw

reply to (c) -----不單大男人，小女子亦鬱悶至深，难以终卷。DH Lawrence寫任何人的關係都是可怖而sexualized，寫人與自己、人與自然的關係也是可怖(de-sexualized之下又活不下去)，我看過的只有一篇短篇Rocking Horse Winner寫虐待小孩，震撼但與其他的不同，有強烈同情心之故吧。

2013年8月24日

寄件人：msw

收件人：kk

2013年8月25日

寄件人：msw

收件人：K

Hello K,

Lily found out that you had a serious road accident and undergone some operation. How are you now? Anything friends can help? Hope you are recovering well and do not suffer from much pain now.

I have been in a dreadful position of cancer relapse since beginning of this year, leading to being forced by hospital doctors to undergo chemotherapy (they said unless i comply i won't be given the life-saving blood transfusions). Currently i am suffering from various side effects of the chemo's, including the most recent 生蛇 onslaught。

Life has so many unpredictable twists and turns, but the lessons seem almost certainly to include the one which instructs us to treasure each day - by doing what should be done on that day, i.e. not to do too little but certainly not too much, so that there is always time to relax and feel the fine details of the good moments.

Cheers,

Si Wai

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2013年8月25日

寄件人：K

收件人：msw

是的，七月中旬被車撞到頭部， 卻奇蹟地至今沒何異樣。左臂骨斷裂，做了手術， 現在体內有長長的金屬條和一些螺絲釘。復康也是個歸零重建的過程，推掉很多工作(真好，連帶本要作卻不想作的也可借傷不作了!) ，生活被各種治療佔據了(針灸、物療、職療…)。以現代人"進展"的角度看, 我的狀況當是停滯不前，但我又覺自己有很多別的體悟，所以生命者不該單是勇往直前的。

最痛的階段該過去了，現在是未見底的療養路。西藥我早已拋掉了，但在住院期間還是嗑下大量止痛丸、接受多个輻射項目。

你也要多加保重，養身養心, 別動輒動肝火呀! 你的問候來得有點意外， 卻叫我眼泛淚光呢!

前兩天聽了個哈維爾的講座，他可有甚麼著作你覺得很精彩的? (其實近來很易累的，對知識還有點貪婪，不過總是力不從心！！)

K

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2013年8月25日

寄件人：msw

收件人：K

aiya, EVERYthing written by Havel moves me. How about reading his plays first. A bit dark but bearable.

His best, in my opinion, is his Letters to Olga獄中書簡, but avoid the chinese translation version of Taiwan, which skips all the most "metaphysical" letters. the english version is very good.

when we get better and we'll talk more about Havel and (former) east european literature and politics.

yes, i think i can understand 生活被各種治療佔據了.... and 狀況當是停滯不前，但又覺自己有很多別的体悟....... i am learning quite a lot in being very ill recently too.

2013年8月27日

有個"關注子宮頸癌聯盟"請醫生(即係自己)到全港學校向女生推廣打疫苗，請關注洗腦(+殺人)"教育"者留意，更須調查這些醫生收左乜著數。

只要性伴侶衛生搞好，或用安全套，便不會有子宮頸癌，這才是關注子宮頸癌的應有訊息。

2013年8月27日

新招陸續有來........... 現代女生到底接收甚麼"通識"?

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New 3D Mammograms May Triple Your Radiation Exposure
By Dr. Mercola

Breast cancer has become big business, and routine mammography is one of its primary profit centers. While mammograms are touted as the best way to prevent breast cancer death, studies suggest otherwise.

The fact that you are reading this article gives you an enormous advantage, as most women are unaware of the mounting research indicating routine mammograms harm far more women than they save.

Despite the facts, the industry is fighting tooth and nail to keep mammography alive by downplaying or outright ignoring its significant risks.

One of industry’s latest tactics is introducing a “new and improved” type of mammogram called 3D tomosynthesis, which is basically a CT scan for your breasts. Tomosynthesis is a clever re-branding of the status quo.

The multi-millions of dollars spent on creating these invasive machines could have been better utilized for educating women about cancer prevention; developing less dangerous technologies, such as ultrasound and infrared imaging; and inventing completely new and safer technologies.

3D Tomosynthesis: Three Steps Down on the Ladder of Progress

Two of the greatest mammogram risks are high radiation exposure and compression of breast tissue, which potentially causes cancer cells to spread. 3D tomosynthesis does not reduce or eliminate either of these risks!

In fact, with this “new and improved” technology, your radiation exposure is even greater than from standard mammograms—and by a significant margin. This is disturbing, as we know that all levels of ionizing radiation can cause cancer.

According to one study,1 annual screening using digital or screen-film mammography on women aged 40–80 years is associated with an induced cancer incidence and fatal breast cancer rate of 20–25 cases per 100,000 mammograms. Meaning, annual mammograms cause 20-25 cases of fatal cancer for every 100,000 women getting the test.

The 3D mammogram requires multiple views in order to achieve three-dimensionality, so it stands to reason your total radiation exposure would be considerably higher than from a standard 2D mammogram.

With mammography, each breast is X-rayed at least twice—once from top to bottom and once diagonally from the outside in. With tomosynthesis, the X-ray tube rotates around the breast. Twenty-five exposures are taken, with up to two pictures per second. Multiple images result in higher radiation exposure. But the picture gets even worse...

3D mammography is not a stand-alone diagnostic test—it’s typically an add-on to the standard mammogram. So, not only do these 3D images prolong your exposure to radiation, but if you’ve already had a regular mammogram, they further compound your risk. This is certainly NOT progress—it’s a huge step backward, making breast cancer screening even more dangerous than before.

3D Mammograms May Actually TRIPLE Your Radiation Dose

Just how much more radiation are you getting with these new 3D mammograms? There are different estimates in circulation, partly because some folks are not including the radiation exposure from the standard mammogram into the total. When you add the 2D and 3D scans together, utilizing tomosynthesis at least doubles your radiation exposure, and some estimates have your exposure tripling, such as this 2011 study published in Radiology Today,2 which states that:

"Because the digital breast tomosynthesis (DBT) exam requires two additional exposures over a standard mammogram, the total radiation dose from the combined 2D and tomosynthesis examination is three times that of a standard mammogram."

The authors note that both scans (2D and 3D) are required because studies done prior to FDA approval failed to conclusively show better sensitivity of 3D alone, compared to 2D imaging.3 They also state that it’s too early to know how useful this new breast imaging technology will be. Some insurance companies—Aetna4 for one—have rejected it, citing “insufficient evidence of its effectiveness.”

The bottom line is, the industry reports tomosynthesis has 1.5 to 2 times the radiation dose. The FDA reports it has double the dose. And the radiologists, who are looking at total exposure, report triple the dose over conventional mammograms. You can see this comparison in a chart on page 8 of an FDA Executive Summary, “Average Glandular Dose per Breast.”5

Tomosynthesis is being touted by the industry as being particularly helpful for identifying cancer in women with dense breast tissue. However, these women already have a four to six times greater risk of developing breast cancer. Knowing that ionizing radiation is a direct cause of cancer, how can a test that triples your radiation exposure be of any benefit if you have potentially cancer-prone breasts to begin with?

Smarter CT Scanning of Kids Would Prevent Over 3,000 Childhood Cancers Each Year

Women are not the only ones being excessively irradiated with unnecessary medical scans. Children are receiving more CT scans than ever, and CTs expose them to much more radiation than standard X-rays. The average American child gets seven radiation scans by the age of 18. One CT scan exposes your child to 100 to 500 times more ionizing radiation than a standard X-ray. Your child’s growing body is even more sensitive to radiation than yours, being more likely to develop radiation-induced cancers, such as leukemia and cancers of the brain, lungs, thyroid and colon.

Previous studies have estimated that at least one-third of CT scans in children are medically unnecessary. How many children could be saved from cancer if these unnecessary CTs were eliminated and replaced with safer diagnostic tests? A team of researchers actually set out to answer this question. They calculated that smarter CT scanning of kids would prevent 3,020 children from developing radiation-induced cancers each year.6

Did You Know That 30 Percent of Breast Tumors Go Away on Their Own?

Getting back to breast cancer, it is important to realize that, if your immune system is healthy and strong, it’s capable of ridding your body of tumors—even cancerous ones. According to breast surgeon Susan Love of UCLA, at least 30 percent of tumors found on mammograms would go away if you did absolutely nothing.7 These tumors appear to be destined to stop growing on their own, shrink, and even go away completely. Nearly everyone has cancerous and pre-cancerous cells in their bodies by middle age, but not everyone develops cancer. The better you take care of your immune system, the better it will take care of you.

One way to strengthen your immune system is to minimize your exposure to mammograms and other sources of ionizing radiation, especially mega sources such as these new 3D scans and CTs. But you can also build up your immune system DAILY by making good diet and lifestyle choices.

Breast Cancer Prevention Strategies

Cancer screening does NOT equate to cancer prevention. Although early detection is important, using a screening method that in and of itself increases your risk of cancer is simply not good medicine. Preventing breast cancer is far more important and powerful than simply trying to detect it after it has already formed, which is why I want to share my top tips on how to help prevent this disease. The American Institute of Cancer Research estimated that about 40 percent of US breast cancer cases could be prevented if people made wiser lifestyle choices, and I believe that estimate is far too conservative.8, 9 Below are my top breast cancer prevention strategies.

Avoid sugar, especially fructose. All forms of sugar are detrimental to health in general and promote cancer. Fructose, however, is clearly one of the most harmful and should be avoided as much as possible.

Optimize your vitamin D Levels. Vitamin D influences virtually every cell in your body and is one of nature's most potent cancer fighters. Vitamin D is actually able to enter cancer cells and trigger apoptosis (cell death). If you have cancer, your vitamin D level should probably be between 70 and 100 ng/ml. Vitamin D works synergistically with every cancer treatment I'm aware of, with no adverse effects. I suggest you try watching my one-hour free lecture on vitamin D to learn more.

Please consider joining one of GrassrootsHealth’s D*Action vitamin D studies to stay on top of your vitamin D performance. For more information, see my previous article "How Vitamin D Performance Testing Can Help You Optimize Your Health."

Get Vitamin K2. Remember that if you opt for oral vitamin D3 supplements, you also need to increase your vitamin K2 intake, as vitamin D increases the need for K2 to function properly. See my previous article "What You Need to Know About Vitamin K2, D and Calcium" for more information.

Get plenty of natural vitamin A. There is evidence vitamin A also plays a role in helping prevent breast cancer. It's best to obtain it from vitamin A-rich foods, rather than a supplement. Your best sources are organic egg yolks, raw butter, raw whole milk, and beef or chicken liver.

Lymphatic breast massage can help enhance your body’s natural ability to eliminate cancerous toxins. This can be performed by a licensed therapist, or you can learn to do it yourself. Avoid charring your meats. Charcoal or flame-broiled meat is linked with increased breast cancer risk. Acrylamide—a carcinogen created when starchy foods are baked, roasted or fried—has been found to increase breast cancer risk as well.

Avoid unfermented soy products. Unfermented soy is high in plant estrogens, or phytoestrogens, also known as isoflavones. In some studies, soy appears to work in concert with human estrogen to increase breast cell proliferation, which increases the chances for mutations and cancerous cells.

Improve your insulin receptor sensitivity. The best way to do this is by avoiding sugar and grains and making sure you are exercising, especially with Peak Fitness.

Maintain a healthy body weight. This will come naturally when you optimize your diet and exercise. It's important to lose excess body fat because fat produces estrogen. One of the most effective strategies I’ve found for this is intermittent fasting.

Drink a half to whole quart of organic green vegetable juice daily. Please review my juicing instructions for more detailed information.

Get plenty of high-quality animal-based omega-3 fats, such as krill oil. Omega-3 deficiency is a common underlying factor for cancer.

Curcumin. The active ingredient in turmeric, curcumin in high concentrations shows immense therapeutic potential in preventing breast cancer metastasis.

Avoid drinking alcohol, or at least limit your alcoholic drinks to one per day.

Breastfeed exclusively for up to six months. Research shows breastfeeding can reduce your breast cancer risk.

Avoid wearing underwire bras. There is a good deal of data that metal underwire bras can increase your breast cancer risk.

Avoid electromagnetic fields as much as possible. Even electric blankets can increase your cancer risk.

Avoid synthetic hormone replacement therapy. Breast cancer is an estrogen-related cancer, and according to a study published in the Journal of the National Cancer Institute, breast cancer rates for women dropped in tandem with decreased use of hormone replacement therapy. (There are similar risks for younger women who use oral contraceptives. Birth control pills, which are also comprised of synthetic hormones, have been linked to cervical and breast cancers.)

If you are experiencing excessive menopausal symptoms, you may want to consider bioidentical hormone replacement therapy instead, which uses hormones that are molecularly identical to the ones your body produces and do not wreak havoc on your system. This is a much safer alternative.

Avoid BPA, phthalates, and other xenoestrogens. These are estrogen-like compounds that have been linked to breast cancer. An alarming new study about glyphosate (the active chemical in Roundup weed killer) found it to be highly estrogenic, driving breast cancer cell proliferation at extremely low exposures—in the parts-per-trillion range.10

Make sure you're not iodine deficient, as there's compelling evidence linking iodine deficiency with breast cancer.

Get enough sleep: Proper sleep is essential for optimal health, and it helps metabolize stress hormones better than any other known entity.

Epsom salt baths (20 minutes, three times per week) are a simple, inexpensive way to get magnesium into your body.

Take Control of Your Health to Avoid Becoming a Statistic

Most women are unaware of the mounting research indicating routine mammograms harm far more women than they save. Many also don’t realize the “new and improved” 3D tomosynthesis mammogram actually ends up exposing them to more cancer-causing radiation than the older version.

Please understand that there are other screening options, each with their own strengths and weaknesses, and you have a right to utilize them all. Also remember that in order to truly avoid breast cancer, you need to focus your attention on truly preventative strategies, which may necessitate your making some lifestyle changes.

Educating yourself is a major part of being proactive with your health. Peter C. Gotzche, MD of the Nordic Cochrane Centre recently published a groundbreaking book, Mammography Screening: Truth, Lies and Controversy.11 It offers a comprehensive take on the evidence, and a critical look at the scientific disputes and the information provided to women by governments and cancer charities. It also explains why mammography screening is unlikely to be effective today.

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2013年8月28日

寄件人：C

It's difficult to tell whether a medical procedure is really justified or not. Only testing on humans for a long period of time may tell...

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2013年8月28日

寄件人：msw

2013年8月28日

近日生蛇，痛甚，蛇襲擊的是神經，以百計水泡還是其次；聞患淋巴癌者後遺(神經痛)比較嚴重。五年半前嘗作短暫標靶"治療"那藥可能傷了神經，令我早前病發痛不欲生(唔係誇張)，現時受化療藥影響免疫力下降又是神經首當其衝。

提醒我未來第4次化療不該做。

今日求助於民間治療-------燒蛇眼，非常神奇的測定蛇眼位置方式，然後啪啪兩聲，是蛇眼在"香"(拜神那種)火點兩點之下的反應，理應是攻陷了發動神經襲擊戰的病毒本營，整個程序前後一、二分鐘，希望有效。

施此技的女士不收錢，因教她和治好她阿媽的人當年也不收錢。她的正職是做火炙，治療中心內不少是被化療打散了又治不好的癌症病人，看上去滿目瘡夷，但人還是要重拾一點精神，令人欽佩。

寫這貓是因為太痛了要分分神。能看書時間不多，乃至只能極之斷續地重看張恨水的百來二百字雜文--------民國人材真鼎盛。之前寫的"報告"也無精力打出來。總之是元氣又一次大傷，練功也因痛不能，真是身體大大中化療毒成了殘軀，不好，不可，夠了。

Si Wai

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2013年8月29日

寄件人：kc

1. 記得小時生過, 不知是誰讓"香"給我燒過蛇頭就好了, 希望你也可以如此走運

2. 我跌親頭, 努力做氣功, 其實是深呼吸而已, 好像很有效, 兩高樓已日漸消散, 目前, 尚有少許腫而已, 意志加氣功, 好像是最有效的藥物

3. 反核的簽名信能否再傳給我, 我可發給各友好 ?

4. 甚麼時候合適送上Shirley 的曲奇餅 ?

5. 訂菜支票剛寄出, 抱歉遲了, 謝謝眾方因緣, 謝謝農夫的辛勞, 謝謝Lily及您的後勤安排, 感激感恩......

加油練功!!!!!

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2013年8月29日

寄件人：msw

the snakes seem like spiders or squid. some subside while some emerging. very painful. start a 10 day acupuncture treatment today. hope will get better.

the see fu asks me to 戒口，暫與cookies 無緣，will tell you when i get better.

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2013年8月31日

寄件人：my

生蛇

找到一些資料：

竟然也提到心絞痛，果然一直都是神經的問題：

“神經痛是本病的主要症狀，急性期是由於神經節的炎症反應，晚期神經痛是由於神經節以及感覺神經的炎症後纖維化引起的。有時在皰疹出現前有劇烈的神經痛，此時常易誤診為急腹症或心絞痛等。老年體弱或淋巴瘤患者常有神經痛後遺症，有時可持續數月。”

嚴浩是否有效？
http://www.yimho.com/1120.html
http://www.yimho.com/1126.html
http://www.yimho.com/1128.html

杠板歸？？
http://blog.sina.com.cn/s/blog_65c924040102dy49.html

http://gzdaily.dayoo.com/html/2011-10/19/content_1503692.htm
“發病早期可採用紫外線照射的方法減輕皮膚疼痛，促進水皰消退。不過，頭面部“生蛇”的患者一般不建議採取“光療”，尤其是已發生大面積潰爛的人，以免日後留疤。

　　患者平時則要注意避免疲勞，最好戒酒，少吃酸辣等刺激性食物和海鮮，以免復發。如果已經產生了後遺神經痛，除了服用止痛藥外，可以採用中醫的針灸、點穴手法以及西醫的理療方法治療。還需指出的是，患者應該保持精神舒暢、樂觀，避免精神刺激，生活有規律，以增強免疫力。

　　陳永鋒說，通常情況下，成人得了帶狀皰疹後，就會獲得免疫力，以後不再發作，而老人、長期使用抗生素治療的患者以及進行化療的腫瘤患者有可能反復出現帶狀皰疹。”

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2013年9月1日

寄件人：msw

未到後遺症已痛到十級，簡直嘆為觀止。

上次金銀花經驗又令我不敢自用藥。那針炙師傅很好，一百蚊次講明永不加價，徒弟幫手，服務街坊。

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2013年8月30日

寄件人：hrx

六舅生過蛇，在腰部，很疼說，我不知所以，怎性病他能生？後來，我也生過蛇，很疼，好在是大腿外側，醫生很麻木，給一種成藥完事。但好後留下一圓圈30多粒永久一片象蜂窩一樣的白麻點。

今天電影中心7：40有一片《我是人，我反核》《輻射村求生記》97分鐘的反核組小電影。

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2013年8月30日

寄件人：msw

2013年8月29日

the world has come to know quite a while ago that fluoridation of water was a policy implemented because the chemical industry did not want to be punished for discarding its cancer-causing byproduct - fluoride, and governments came to their assistance. it was and is still a scandal.

what i don't know is early in the 1970s in Holland, 100,000 people took to the streets and had fluoride removed from their drinking supply immediately.

as greenpeace people in HK claim that they are 90% against coal-fired plants and 10% against nuclear, why don't they shift the 10% effort to work against fluoridation? it will make life easier for those who do a genuine no nukes campaign, and may be 100,000 will follow their lead to have fluoride removed from our drinking supply immediately........ Who knows?

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This interview was recorded live in Holland in the 1970s, and as a result of it being broadcast, 100,000 people took to the streets and had fluoride removed from their drinking supply immediately.

In Dr. Dean Burk's own words; "This amounts to public murder on a grand scale, it is a public crime, it would be, to put fluoride in the drinking water of people".

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2013年9月7日

這一大輪過完全動物生活----整天就是(1)痛到叫，(2)吃到飽，(3)痾到夠，人類文化生活只餘被動式接受以下兩項：(1)加強版中藥，(2)氣功針灸。群蛇出動(應是眾數來的)，令我也變成了一條絕對神經蛇，即(1)不能動彈如打了蛇餅，(2)在神經不斷被咬之下神經質地聲聲哀號。

除Mary老同學吃中藥治蛇外，已知所有遇蛇的朋友都吃西藥了事，故沒甚麼可參考之先例(Mary條方有金銀花等令我溶血的成份故不能取)。之前燒蛇眼可能在初發階段始有效，故只為我壓抑新蛇，未能阻止陳皮蛇聯袂出遊，翻江倒海；又或照Lily查醫案之說----可能要連環燒。

Anyway，無先例自己做先例----因西藥絕不能吃，是致癌毒藥，而當致癌毒藥治不了蛇，還要用類固醇，所以與化療無異。自己做先例學費是大痛不止。打電話到QM血科說我周身蛇星期四五化療cancel，覆曰：那改下個星期做好了。人非機械，怎可散左都重新裝嵌起來再化療一下的？﹗

買了隻針灸師傅授課光碟來看，很多點子，茲舉一二：
乙肝之類可用以下任一方連飲數十天清肝，或可根治。
(1)綠豆煲綿茵陳
(2)豬肉煲綿茵陳
包住綿茵陳來煲綠豆和豬肉就可以食。

如遇肝炎，豬肉煲二斤白茅根。

至於類風濕關節炎，師傅說百幾個骨節個個都要持續運動，可防惡化。隨口說來，都可做「健教」課文。

其實光碟也是聽，坐起不能，躺著也痛，看書更不用說了。半夜要起來在屋中步行或四腳爬行鎮痛，白天連眼都睜不大。

言歸正傳--------不，並無正傳可言，只有歪傳及四個「餘波」。

先是歪傳。

歪在床上長時間都只能採用同一姿勢才會局部痛，否則全身痛，但同一姿勢令全身僵硬又引來全身痛............這些時候若有半滴精力搾得出來看書，我便會看-------與捷克有關的文獻。

<>以每日每小時事件簿式紀錄1968蘇軍入侵布拉格，太苦，不看(更令人想起日後自焚的學生Jan Palach，苦苦苦啊)。<>由蘇東波到西單民主牆都講，太一般性，又似甚麼西方(自由電台)的趣味，不看。<>是在捷克買的(Samizdat直譯是非官方出版物，其實是反對者的刊物，該字源自蘇聯)，選捷克Samizdat的一些文章，共分三部份：(1)文學，(2)社科，(3)哲學，便拿來細翻。

捷克文化作為旨趣與情調是黑色幽默，並帶點國家長久喪失獨立的悲愴(先被奧國、繼被納粹而後蘇聯統治)，是已知的事實，其中文學和電影更是笑和悲到爆炸。你隨便找一套或一篇來看，都會不是心翳便是笑丟大牙，多數是兩種症狀同時發生，所以不用看這書的文學選篇亦可。社科部份和哲學部份，凡看過哈維爾長文者都可說是得睹這些方面的最高風範，而本書所選的一系列短文中，更透露某些其它特色--------我願意稱之為「封鎖性(非全球性)的可愛」。一個國家或地方的夢想家有自己的社-經追求，有何不可？書中有評者說這種「狹隘」在日後開放時會是捷克的不利因素﹗唉，的確不利---------不能預見1989後全球化力量之銳不可擋，於是這批當日夢想家便第一時間應聲出局﹗但他/她們真的因「狹隘」而不行嗎？他/她們真的不行嗎？幾年後某屆民選政府因貪污醜聞下台，過渡工作由這批Samizdat老柴臨時頂上，竟有一番新氣象，關顧老弱、環境.............不過新氣象命比曇花，到政府又組成了，回復自由經濟了，社會便繼續搏懵到盡。

哲學方面更有趣。捷克小國也，共產政權下給踢出學院或根本無法踏進學院的「愛智者」，數目更小，他們無傘無扇，卻百變出各自各的(非專業的、非圈內的、非學術期刊上的)哲學來。寫的人各用各語，視乎自己的背景而定---------卻不論從那裏出發，都在尋求哲學(活出真誠)﹗

其中一篇是哈維爾的弟弟Ivan寫的，他是個數學家，當然也寫地下文章，他有興趣的是科學哲學。事實上，短文中有不少會自稱是科學哲學探討--------這批捷克民間哲者喜歡探討「客觀」科學之外的形而上/「主觀」/價值世界，認為讀書人有responsibility to metaphysics。

Ivan在乃兄死後在Charles University(而非官方)的紀念會上致了辭，據說演辭甚正，是講科學哲學的，有人為我留了該晚的programme，可惜尚未到手。

每次在低谷，都想起捷克二三事：文章千古事是其一，走不媚俗的政治道路是其二，這些都是形而上/「主觀」/價值世界的事，而在現實「客觀」世界中，這些都是可以被擠壓到邊緣之邊緣，而對此總不會太過灰心--------便是第三事。

帶著未癒的蛇患，走出低谷。

【過場語】「捷克書」中還有好一些二戰時捷克Terezin集中營的紀錄。被囚Terezin的猶太人下一步就被送往波蘭Auschwitz，再從那裏被分成兩路：絕大部份走進gas爐然後消失在焚化爐，極小部份留得殘命為納粹做苦工。有本<>是四個有命回「家」(？)的女人的故事，看得無限景仰，有智慧、有勇氣之餘，還要體格壯健--------如能做最厭惡的照顧者工作和具有可冒充廚子的餓不瘦的「個頭」，都是活命板斧。此外，這些閱讀又令人憶起Rosalie Bertell在她那本<>的前言中所講：大家接受極不正常(殘酷﹗)的事物為正常，並持續參與其中，就是大禍到來的理性程序。Bertell引用歐戰中猶太人的事跡，要講的卻是有關核能的故事。

餘波一：

之前講過母女關係，KY有回郵講起母子比母女關係之難搞，難分伯仲，他以獅和虎孰更兇猛喻之，並共以DH Lawrence <>為例。[DH Lawrence在母子關係之外，亦令所有關係都在sexualized的框架下難搞度大增，而de-sexualized之下-------如人重歸自然------又被他認為不可能(見"The Man Who Loved Islands"，最後竟死之可也)。羅素認為Lawrence此公是法西斯，不無點道理，暫不論。]

我無兄弟不知其詳，但見我阿媽晚年與後輩男子關係融洽，令我不免想，也許這樣真可緩和與我的關係緊張，未嘗不是好事。就連她突然其來的「絕症」消息也是由一位那樣的後輩和她講出，她聽了頗快消化，後輩走後，我才承接著與她安排我們倆共走的最後一程，她在一點淚光下點頭接受。

我又想像父女關係總比父子easy-------其實待證。藏書中有兩本攝影集，一為父女照，一為母子照，美國家庭版。從畫面看，母子在一塊一面倒地比父女在一塊舒泰很多。我聽來的許多華人故事更是男人與後代總難親近，無分與仔或女，在家庭中總是個半陌生人，老來是個可憐人﹗這情況現時改變過來了嗎？是今日的母親都變成了父親，都只是安排子女考功名而已？又或在一起消費購物過程中，父母子女的隔膜盡散，融融無限。

餘波二

a說：人生流離，書是故鄉。我添足引申：人生苦樂皆短暫，偶然回首每多無味或只教人莞爾而已，唯連繫到更高、遠處，如文化，如大地，如海天、夜半星空外的無數(？)星雲，苦與樂才得到深味之依據--------過客身份既明顯不過，珍重、珍惜、欣賞、不搞破壞之情念，方有所歸趨，有所確定。[Hundertwasser說：You are a guest of Naure, behave! ] 書，當然是此中的引子；沒有書，若先天稟賦高-------能特敏銳地體驗-------亦可能做到。

於我看，這是讀書識字的唯一因由，所有教育機構的missions and visions或hidden agenda、大部份家長的期盼，都是讓讀書讀入邪路而已。

餘波三

不看不看還想看-------幾頁書，就翻幾頁「圖」書，如Taschen之藝術家介紹。按圖重溯了Hundertwasser生平(他還在世？)，以前曾看一「大部頭」的他的作品--------他的文字與他的建築，初步知他的藝術很有在世的「可見」影響，而屋之外又有衫有鞋，有自己屎尿滋養自己房子的天台及騎樓植物............甚麼都有美妙生活(生態意識)在其中，他寫的許多宣言是關乎社會的與藝術的，兩者亦難區分--------如回撃那些不准人自塗自畫自己窗外的牆壁的觀點，皆鏗鏘可聞。他的藝術，就是他的無數瘋狂構思與實踐。

但今次竟看到他以「永恆」(在他而言是與自然和合的藝術)為「現時已一直壞下去無得救的世界」在大崩壞之後，做好準備----------那時，人們就可用其留下的ideas，理解他的作品，從中得到養份。這真是一個令人絕望稍減的好建議。就像當年看Iron Cross那套好戲，末了仗也打完了，老一輩的德軍長官某，告訴他欣賞的一名有良心的年青手下，要好好珍惜條命，在那一切都崩潰(包括道德)的德國中，建一個較好的未來。同理，Hundertwasser指出，即使無命睇咁遠，也有好的東西留著，讓後人他日可用。

他是非常非常反核的。

另一點學到的，是他利用其高度才華為全世界各種campaigns設計posters，一枝彩筆，十分醒目，令人一看就記緊那訊息。

餘波四

翻查若干捷克藝術書，有本<>，是之前說過「捷克文化乃黑色幽默X悲愴情懷」的antithesis，是雕刻家處於捷克身份被囚而追求解放的19至20世紀交叉的緣故？是那些密度甚高、生來就要承載的金屬或木頭媒體所致？<>中，由一個小孩到一個民族icon的形象都要沉重得小鳥和天空都塌下來；即使欲飛升的形象，也不過像俯伏在布拉格墳場裏的哀傷天使，為人間傷心不已。真箇是登天無路，在地為艱的時代產物。Wenceles Square那個旁邊經常躺坐著大量疲累遊客的John Hus雕像，是最好的說明(John Hus因宗教改革理念被焚殉道，是捷克的三個良心icons之一)。該像沉重在天地間之餘，又有典型Art Nouveau作品的「不完整狀」，令沉重與撕裂一起湧現。

這些雕塑也許部份替哈維爾解釋他為何後來那麼貼近NATO-------是為了尋求捷克的生存空間；但他畢竟還只能是個哀傷天使，撕裂而破碎。1989後捷克先來一幕斯洛伐克要分離(他認為當中並無高尚的原則考慮，只是利益為先)，再來便是滿街重建(拆歷史建築建四季酒店之類)，和蘇式核電廠改為美式，並建更多更多.........他自己固然頂唔順，而迎上了NATO，最終又能增加共和國幾多分的獨立性？

至於前面講到那些集中營九死一生的猶太裔捷克人(重要的離心作家Ivan Klima也是其中一員)，她/他們留得殘生從集中營步進戰後的捷克，因自己活著這麼多人死去下半生定要活得真實的意念驅使，在共產政權統治之日，不甘屈從.........這些人，現今又如何了？(Klima 1989後只見出過一本小說，大大不同於之前以Samizdat形式的極多產，那本「新」書灰到盡，講年青人吸毒........)

Si Wai

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2013年9月8日

寄件人：KY

On “歪傳”

1. "哲學方面更有趣。捷克小國也...", 孔子魯人，魯亦小國也。

2. Responsibility to metaphysics, 跟 elimination of metaphysics，孰對孰錯，唉！真真慚愧。

3. 易乃蔔筮之書，經孔子而形上化，惠我文化，內內外外，前前後後，左左右右。所謂：“練拳唔練功，到老一場空”者，不才也。

星期日開工，聊作 acknowledgement of receipt, 不敢說 echo 也。

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2013年9月9日

寄件人：msw

那痛難頂啊，幾乎想用止痛藥，淋巴癌下的蛇特別兇。一躺下就劇痛。

十分需耍美玲把我僵硬的全身"鍊"鬆，但暫時還是滿身傷口碰不得。

顧小培認為洋蔥素效比嗎啡，正合我用，周大師亦同意我吃(他要為我追殺蛇毒，下回合才搞痛的問題)。已急請Mandy代買。

希望痊癒後也飲點山楂------我是依劉太醫處方。

我與我老豆無緣，見時融洽，但七歲後已幾乎沒見面了，也不知他死左未，應91歲了。

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2013年9月10日

寄件人：Grace

Si-wai,

Many thanks for sharing your not so random thoughts w us. It's esp touching to know how Hundertwasser made efforts to make the world a less discouraging one, and to see how even w a frail physical body you insist on your pursuits to make HK a little more hopeful.

Take good care of yourself, and I hope to see you soon.

Grace

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2013年9月10日

寄件人：Wong

寫得出咁長的讀後感, 都重係正常既你…..

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2013年9月10日

寄件人：SY

呵呵！佢不嫐都好正常喎…

關鍵係佢呢句 ...........這些時候若有半滴精力搾得出來看書，我便會看-------

對於佢，書裡乾坤是靈丹妙藥……

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2013年9月11日

寄件人：kc

2013年9月10日

寄件人：hrx

說起生蛇，我當初時得的原因，幾天的酒後濕毒在身，後又辛苦，就象是跑完馬拉松，加上沒在天熱時即時沖涼，沒抵抗力，有菌。時間得了挺長，半個多月。

你也該好了吧，好在毒攻擊你皮膚，要是內臟就更麻煩，疼得來還給你一個警鐘。

報紙賣日本的啥聖方：姬松茸。一合4800元，化電療特需補劑。可惜是日本的。

說起故宮，小學5年級時，一周一次勞動課，去離的近的故宮裏鋤草，草挺多，一人一把小鋤頭，干了一年，滋滋有味。皇城根下的草民。開闊舒心。那知那麽多故事曾經在這裏發生。一晃我們離作古也不遠了。

祝

早日康复。

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2013年9月11日

寄件人：msw

謝謝，先簡覆：雖生蛇死不了人，卻原來淋巴癌遇上蛇是個擴大化組合，蛇的打擊面會大而時日甚久。閱顧小培文章指"洋蔥素"效比嗎啡，正合現時我用，周醫師亦同意我吃(他要為我追殺蛇毒，下回合才搞鎮痛)。已急請人代買。真要命。

姬松茸一直有吃，也不一定日本才有，亦不貴，但生了蛇又要戒菇類。

2013年9月17日

寄件人：L

Dear all,

This is only a cartoon but there is a lot of validity behind it.

http://www.youtube.com/embed/WfGMYdalClU

Cheers
L

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2013年9月18日

寄件人：msw

2013年9月21日

一個月來蛇患纏身，資料顯示當淋巴癌遇上生蛇，就會蛇粗氣大。兩星期來神經痛更步步升le，就算動也不能動都24小時身如刀割，痛而不捨。西醫的特效藥會致癌，不吃，止痛藥更傷神經，打嗎啡我認為未到時候，皆不取，故只有捨得一身剮----不是它死就是我亡。

如此到了追月那個晚上(昨晚)，首次有劇痛退潮跡象，竟覺詫異。

這痛在我的痛履歷上據新高位，所以兩星期來不能看書(拿不起一本書，無法專注一行字)，只能每次儲夠一點精力就翻一兩頁攝影書，如此共看了六本捷克攝影集。《1968》、《1989》是某次攝影展中輯成出售的，紀實之作，不算最精彩，但有清楚的人民面貌，精誠、專注地追求自由，絕不同於本地近年流行吹捧的「快樂抗爭」。《1989》有三個重點：人民/學生力量(身臨見血場面)、東德難民湧入、執政黨下台，重翻之下驚覺是這麼多年了。那時人人是演出者(actor)，不是旁觀者(spectator)----沒有誰會拿著相機(更不用說手機)到處拍，或你拍我我拍你，更不會自拍。

另外《Safe Conduct》也是1989-90作品，內容捷克為主，也有匈牙利，雖在那個時刻，卻不見大時代革命主題。哈維爾為這書寫了序，說官方政治框框下的作品從來不是藝術，不因其政治理念錯誤，而是作品虛假，同理，反對政治為題的作品也不一定是好東西，非政治題材的反而大有成為藝術之作的空間----關鍵都是一句：真心。真心之作，見諸《Safe Conduct》的農村景色：一驢、多羊、大堆田間揾食架生，也見諸工人在車間(革命後一樣要開工嘛----不過眉宇間好像頗見寬懷)……

《Josef Koudelka》是大師攝影系列之一。Josef Koudelka 1970離開捷克，1968蘇軍入侵時曾有震驚世界的攝作，但他的藝術/人生「主題」不限於此，更沒有從此在西方大賣1968慘案。他的吉卜賽人系列、在世界各地流浪所得的chaos系列，都是心到意到，蕩入靈魂之作；劇場系列(好獨特的對捷克「風格化劇場」的捕捉)如夢幻、如驚醒。

捷克人，起碼那一代，藝術就是政治，兩者都不要妥協、不要妥貼，乃棱角崢嶸的反思也。

是否記得《生命中不能承受的輕》裏的薩賓娜？她自共產捷克「邪惡」媚俗中出走，卻在西方的「善良」媚俗(包括對她這種來自共產國家的「浪漫可憐人」的同情)中窒息死亡。書中尚有一個場面：30個法國醫生聯同100個西方記者，再加上美國女星，奔往有大量可憐人的柬埔寨施予救援，其中有法國醫生聲稱我是左翼知識份子的歐洲人，不擁美，美國白種女星手抱亞洲黃種可憐童的大型poster則從此面世。

媚俗(cliché，可譯作陳腔濫調，媚俗是韓少功的譯法)，據我理解是offering simple solution to complex problem，不但求其滾過去，更以高度熱情/煽情掩飾那求其，和擁抱這simple solution，從而理直氣壯地取代真理的追求。

五十年後，哈維爾一類當年的捷克知識份子，若然還被記起，是因為他/她們曾經力倡「政治是道德」？是他/她們的藝術？還是他/她們以至深的自省追求真理？現在開盤，請各位下注。

還有一本捷克(還是斯洛伐克？)攝影集是一位叫Dagmar Hochova的女攝影師作品，街童相簿，可愛到極，但絕非cute cute地可愛。孩子玩鐵欄，玩衝跑上牆，自製滑板，在棄置建材之中攀爬；有時會扮野----如站高做指揮，有時自由自若地無特別野要搞----如東張西望，勾肩搭背。是窮國家的衣著寒酸孩子，穿插在破破舊舊之中，但看真，他/她們是在大雕像堆裏，在大型掛畫叢中，在有個掛著自製鞦韆爬滿攀藤的亭子裏來而復往，搗蛋結聚。孩童不會成為攝影機/攝影師之外的怯生生的spectator，或被攝的客體目標，他/她們一直與鏡頭齊齊玩，與攝影師同為actors，甚至可當Augusto Boal所講的spect-actor----自覺地玩這個玩。這令局外的我們也不甘作spectator，起碼看照片集看到七情上面。

所有攝影皆黑白，即最豐滿的色譜。

沒有特別細看的是《Czech and Slovak Photography of the 1980s and 1990s》，一來因為至此本人軀體已極殘破，二來是所選照片不見得特別。書首幾篇文章探討捷克vis-à-vis斯洛伐克在1980 vis-à-vis 1990年代(分裂前後)的攝影風格異同。命題下之展覽，選擇標準是要找出與命題相干的齊全人腳(攝影者)以便表達命題，但不保證作品之感動。

當劇痛達到顛峰狀態時，用腦袋與採取身體姿勢都全化作回憶中的事，人在半夜裡便只能長久地將背貼靠著椅背等天光，而那時就只有找最易消化的因為已反芻過很多次的仙鳳鳴x屆場刊來再消化唐滌生的文章。如果他日搞甚麼「文選」要選一些介紹自己的創作歷程的作品，唐氏這些文章實在不是很好的選擇。他抄了大段其劇作所據的元劇、明清話本中的曲詞或羅列其中XX齣的名稱，然後到文末只用三言兩語說自己在這麼精彩的前人作品基礎上作了三幾點小改動，希望得到大家接受。這樣的文章真不好看，但卻是真正的創作者的胸懷與境界的表現：這樣的人極之謙虛極之低調以致無調可言，因為他/她們才知道何謂創作----真正的創作是只有天才方能做到而自己則近乎及極可能永遠做不到。(唐氏作品又恰好令後來嚴格的編劇家自憐自歎：讀唐氏劇後，令自己幾乎不敢再寫，起碼不敢再自言創作。)

又據這些1950年代的場刊來簡單瞄一瞄唐氏劇本的「最初面世稿」(與今日經白雪仙隊伍如御香梵山、葉紹德等改過的稍不同)，竟發現今日最精警的辭句早在唐氏初稿那裏便有。不能說後來改壞了，但起碼有一處令我感於原意義之深遠，可能是後來者、修改者無論怎樣都難以企及：

《紫釵記》裏的李益向霍小玉憶述拒娶太尉之女，唱「吞釵拒婚將世諷」，這句後來白雪仙隊伍為了要反映李益對原配小玉之200%堅貞，便改為「吞釵拒婚拚(音poon，上聲)命送」，但吞釵和在那情況下拒婚都已是「拚命送」啦，根本毋須重複，但更重要的是「將世諷」所顯現的唐氏的識見。在此劇中李益拒再娶固然是他個人的愛情選擇，但不單是一份「愛的宣言」，而是對整個官場與權力世界的叛逆----那是一介文人活出自己要與俗世不同的姿態，是「回答時勢的宣言」。文人當然沒有能力與世界對抗，但至少能「將世諷」。

三個字說明了反媚俗的傳統中國版。

Si Wai

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2013年9月21日

寄件人：kc

每次看你的電郵, 每回都是驚心而暗喜, 今回喜的是又跨過削壁千仞, 劇痛退, 可以下山了吧, 驚的是你平靜的道來, 當中苦楚原是不足為外人道,

想到你的反核是為生民憂, 生病卻又儼如代萬民痛, 真苦也!

期待上天予圓月, 颶風, 帶來好的氣場, 令你得感應, 長功力, 用自發功制伏蛇魔病魔!

如我所願 !

2013年9月21日

寄件人：K

思慧：

收到你的電郵時，正值左手麻痺，啥方位也感不適；受傷已兩個月了，痛楚已大幅減輕，但對你描述痛的實況，雖是小巫的我，也能感受得到。幸而你尚有豐盛的精神世界供你遨遊，不致讓痛成為生活的主調（當不是劇痛當道時），我之前也曾想人能否與痛共存，能否習慣痛的感覺……或許是上天「善」意安排的生物機制吧，人一旦習慣了痛感，可能就不懂得趨吉避凶了。是以，即使歷經無數次針灸，我還未能甘之如飴，只能相信這於我康復有益，予己精神上之慰藉也。想起之前的兩個月，極其量只讀了一部武俠小說和我喜愛的羅爾神父作品。

不知道cliché原來還有媚俗的意味，我以為kitsch/kitschy 才叫媚俗。

願精神境界繼續壯麗，人生舞台唱作依然。我呢，總覺得自己的故事仍有下文，我仍願意編寫，追看下去。

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2013年9月22日

寄件人：msw

肉體之苦有很多故事在其中，你我將之紀錄、闡釋必有意義在-------至少對自己人生之反思必不可缺此環節。我不同意痛為值得celebrate的說法(大半年來聽這"安慰語"聽得甚多)，只是認為既有之，必探之。

我是病/痛昏了，應是kitsch，雖是滿咀是cliché者也未嘗無媚俗之念也。

祝好。

2013年9月22日

終於看完Michael Pollan講做麵包的政治經濟營養技術問題，其實只餘幾頁，不過因痛拖了許久。

如果我們不全採用華南人適合吃其水土所最宜種之穀物----稻米，並因而認為吃小麥對我們來說有點「寒濕」，又或者我們已無可救藥地上了吃自製麵包、饅頭的癮，而(全)rye、pumpernickel麵包還未進入一般的廚藝和食譜，那麼，營養豐富的whole grain小麥麵粉便是我們追求的目標了。但有以下事項必須深究：

(一)買麵粉對soft 100% whole wheat一類宣傳字眼要小心，因為追求soft的whole grain有根本的矛盾，這種麵粉看清楚label中成份應是普通的白麵粉為主，再加回一些bran和germ，但那些bran也不一定是小麥的bran，而germ經打磨掉又放回去，已受破壞因此沒有發芽的潛質，這就等於是完全失去吃whole grain(而得到germ的高度營養價值)的原意。當然這樣的死germ正合大麵粉集團長期保存的商業需要，卻與麵粉本來就要吃社區內農民種出、磨坊即磨的那個傳統不符。

(二)保留germ不受破壞的麵粉打磨法，stone milled是其中的可靠者，故可用”stone milled whole grain”為購買指標。但即使如此，也要check清楚這種stone milled麵粉是否該包麵粉的主要成份﹗

(三)但全以(真正)whole grain麵粉自製的麵包，不容易「發」得好，這顯示要做此種麵包必須有準備自做酸種來好好地「發」之。

(四)但這仍出現麵包形狀有點塌塌的----即外殼不夠堅、脆從而讓空氣好好地被包在裏面----將酸種中的菌/香氣好好發揮。Michael Pollan就此有兩對策：(A)預先浸濕麵粉----讓內裏的sugars、amino acids等更「出」，有助形成麵包之高脹外殼。(B)篩出麵粉中較粗的bran成份(約10%)，待麵種成形後，加在其濕的外皮上，這樣也有助形成高脹「脆皮」云。

總之，大把實驗可試，或可翻查傳統技術(還是已失傳了？)，不過這些事宜絕對不合control freak這類人士來做。要追尋受全面控制麵包、人及農作物等等，還是買市面的白麵粉麵包來吃，和接受全面的基因改造工程吧。

麵包不易搞，大米又如何？

去年泰國大水災，很多稻米田浸得沒有收成。作物與各種動物淹死在田，失收已成定局；倒是腐化的生物化在泥中，形成極好肥料，農民不用大灑化肥也順利種得今年的好收成----天然靚稻米。大豐收下，卻原來即是米價大跌----由原本的12,000銖/噸變為7,000銖/噸，簡直大出血，大虧本。

泰國朋友見香港的泰米價錢高企，想起家鄉農民失收也破產，豐收也艱難，心也痛了。大家當然心知肚明，高利潤跑到哪裏去了。

我和泰國朋友講：可否請農民將大豐收的所謂過剩稻米打糙米，然後做糙米粉----以前吃的泰國米粉有微酸的發酵味，令人陶醉，今時今日可否重拾合理的營養與口味，及合理的生計？

還是日痛夜痛，不停想著「食事」，乃我之鎮痛單方。

2013年9月26日

阿燕：

因淋巴癌令生蛇後遺難康復，有可能出現劇痛長期纏身，不知何日停止，24小時半身劇痛很難捱，中醫開了玄胡索等未湊效，我因有溶血問題不敢甚麼都試，更不想讓西醫來開嗎啡。你是否有外敷鎮痛的方法教我？

如非這次生蛇其實我身体在調理中是慢慢復原--------但之前的化療毒素卻惹下這場災。

(水泡幾星期前已完結，皮膚全康復，就是神經痛不完。)

思慧

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2013年9月28日

寄件人：燕

幫你問了一下中醫外科的醫生，說可以試一下蜜蜂蠟療，熱敷。

蜂蠟治療帶狀皰疹

2013年9月日

某日聽電台戲曲節目訪問年輕一輩的花旦陳咏儀，她說近期患了(本是兒童患的現已擴及成人圈子的)手足口病，主持人口多多地安慰說：小病是福。她正色糾正：不是小病來的(此病大概也涉及神經痛)。她便講起那種痛感令她如今了解何以人會因病厭世。陳花旦雖然年輕，經過了病痛，好像成熟了些(戲行認為沒有眼袋的演員演不出好戲)。

所以，某種西醫「治療」----如化療----導致病人免疫力大降，然後生蛇，而我認為生蛇絕不是小病，這樣的「治療」，當然是很有問題的，是應該放棄的。

周大師宣告我的神經不易修復，他的藥幫不了忙，剩下來只有稍為鎮痛的藥方，現正嚐試，卻沒好轉，看來這劇痛隨身的情況會延續下去，直到一個它要離開的時刻就自動離開，又或者我頂唔順看不見曙光，先離它而去。走著瞧吧。

再把彩圖飲食書《京都、大阪飲食散步》拿出來看。作者池波正太郎(以下簡稱波波池)的《食桌風景》去年看過，十分喜歡。他是日本歷史武俠小說作家，年輕時寫戲曲腳本，但我認真看的就只是他的飲食文章，覺得夾雜很多時代、歷史、市貌、人情的變化，食得不簡單。這本《京都、大阪飲食散步》有文選，但以介紹老食肆為主----特別介紹老飲食傳統，和與這些傳統穿插交融的過百年甚至以數百年計的讓代代市民(也有當年公侯武士)來而復去的街道風景。波波池最討厭是上世紀的東京奧運會，說經那一役該城市已埋沒在「追新」裏，甚麼都剷除去(年前閱《東京媽媽町之夢》知道尚有年青主婦們企圖在東京追溯些少舊痕)。所以波波池要重尋心愛的東京便要去京都；但京都也一直在東京化了。還有大阪，他年青寫劇本時常隨劇團到處去，認為大阪也很能吃出滋味，但後來說連土生土長的大阪人也覺得城市喧鬧到住不下去，不是搬出，便是「閉居」。

有心的食肆老闆也投訴：「好的食材再難找到」。

之所以看這本美食散步書其實另有動機在：為了令自己對一套日劇更生興趣，可煲起來，暫忘痛楚(下一套想看的是大長今，我永遠是嚴重落後於群眾)。事緣進一步的江總之前送來兩套光碟，其中一套就是這日劇《鴨、京都＾行＜》，看第一集覺得電視劇的味道很濃，但不是我飲的那杯濃茶(因數十年來我都怕電視劇)，但題材涉及京都人的滋整、慕古是否會被東京式的效率化、俗化取代？故想看。兼且故事環繞京都的一家三百年旅館(傳統旅館當然包括提供飲食)，所以其實很想看完它---遂向波波老求助。果然，一閱波波老，對京都鴨的好奇大大增強，連煲多集，歎太快就要完成。

題邊話：煲碟途中又令我回想去年招待福島兒童時受日方(成人)文化的衝擊(撃得我方焦頭爛額)，真是隔海如隔世，亦歎「前世」﹗這套鴨片有一集講個人為了保集團(如保商號)，可以承受莫大屈辱，食晒死貓還自己找多幾隻來食，及扒在地下食，這時刻，此人又被描述為看上去空前地美麗----這種文化，教我吃驚﹗不純粹因為那種「忍」，或集體主義，而是扒在地下的(被屈辱者)既心知，要人扒下的(屈辱人者)也心知，都是一場遊戲，沒有任何一方面需要使出「真心」，只是表演程式而已。但這樣的表演，按我這非哈日者來看，是對人的感受和認知都多麼損耗(阻礙發育)。就此打住，看完再評。

又，由於打利利清理CD、DVD櫃所騰出的空間的主意，想用來放字帖，故趁今時痛到不知所謂，便煲幾隻碟以定碟之去留；至今有三套小品可推介：(1)[日]給親愛的你；(2)[伊朗]繼父；(3)[英]愛情洗剪吹。一向喜愛伊朗及英國小品，有同情冇濫情，既可發下癲，又癲而不謔，寬大為懷。剛巧(1)和(3)都觸及死亡的題材----態度嚴肅，但matter of fact而釋放。

講開寬大為懷的電影，我有三套是暫時能記起來的首選：(1)Jean Renoir的《大河》；(2)艾慕道華的《論盡我阿媽》；(3)宮崎駿的《千與千尋》。大家有何心水？

煲碟是日間活動，夜闌人靜(除了間中被本人狂痛之下的狂叫聲劃破)就看飲食書，這次看飲的---《醉話酒文化》，作者何滿子(不知何許人也？)，好像也為這個商務的中國人的生活藝術系列寫其他的；知道有這類作家能暢說出歷史故事來呈現文化知識，真是佩服兼安慰。講起穿插在歷史故事之間的侃侃而談，很難不憶起我的中學中文老師，及那代人(我老師還加了點對戲劇的興趣，邊說邊演) 那種揮灑談笑。思憶老師(死去廿幾三十年了)，神經再痛也狠狠地繼續看這本《醉話酒文化》，兼在三更半夜記起老師講《西廂記》的艷句----比教性教育的老師那種怎樣都說不出所以然，好聽多了。

一天在這世間繼續吃，便繼續看吃的書和煲吃的碟，料這樣以三吃「續命」，不致太無聊吧。

Si Wai

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2013年9月28日

寄件人：K

說到以死亡為題，豁達而淡然的電影，想起的只有韓片《八月照相館》，導演許秦豪是唸哲學的，果然氣質不凡。他的《傷逝》講失戀後的成長，替那小夥子感欣慰（女角就是大長今）。

看過宮崎駿的《幽靈公主》沒有？史詩般的氣魄。《哈爾移動城堡》那個因魔法而變成八九十歲的老婆婆，生猛豁達強烈又本真，叫人心動。

最近上映的《字裡人間》，對文字的熱愛與堅持，也是心頭好！ 哎，好戲太多，時間太少。

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2013年9月28日

寄件人：msw

> 說到以死亡為題，豁達而淡然的電影，想起的只有韓片《八月照相館》，導演許秦豪是唸哲學的，果然氣質不凡。他的《傷逝》講失戀後的成長，替那小夥子感欣慰（女角就是大長今）。

噢！

> 看過宮崎駿的《幽靈公主》沒有？史詩般的氣魄。《哈爾移動城堡》那個因魔法而變成八九十歲的老婆婆，生猛豁達強烈又本真，叫人心動。

自再見螢火蟲後他的都看過，《幽靈公主》屬印像最深，為天地萬物哀，對小人物(雖與萬物競逐求生存而殺戳)也十分同情。總之是生之哀歌。

> 最近上映的《字裡人間》，對文字的熱愛與堅持，也是心頭好！ > 哎，好戲太多，時間太少。

近年少看戲，年青時看的經典仍充斥著，供下半生回味，抵睇。

Si Wai

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2013年9月27日

寄件人：Mandy

巳找到大長今及鄭醫師，明天送貨。

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2013年9月27日

寄件人：msw

2013年9月28日

寄件人：msw

dear KM,

got the Celtic music CD. really relaxing - thank you for your kind help in making pain-ridden daily life more bearable for me.

Si Wai

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2013年9月30日

寄件人：KM

Dear Si Wai,

Glad to know that it eventually arrived, as it was ordered some two weeks ago, but only dispatched a week later. I can't say I understand the physical pain you have to endure daily, and I only wish anything that could distract you from it would make your life a bit easier. Hope these Celtic melodies could take your spirit to the grand landscape, the wide ocean and the high sky for an outing from time to time.

My college will soon be merged with two other to form a new one in a month time, and things are suddenly moving very fast after the summer. Not much change to us the teaching staff at the moment or in this academic year as we are delivering the courses as before. Now is time for "earthquake" at the management level where administrative posts will be reduced to fit into the new structure after merger - to be finished before end of October. Changes will come to teaching staff of different departments before next summer.

Sunday Chinese language school has begun, so weekends are busy time for me as well. Just want to have some more time to talk to LH as he is at a stage of rebellion, honest to say, causing troubles at home everyday -- fortunately, he is smart (or timid) enough not to cause troubles at school!

Well, take good care of yourself and find enjoyment in small things as much as you can! Missing you.

2013年9月28日

寄件人：Mak

I saw a documentary about Taiwan underwater volcano and write this. No need to reply if you are busy.

2013/9/28 台灣核電

環洋地震帶
台灣此一丘
東臨深海溝
火山現噴口
海嘯只日月
防堤不止憂
核電宜三思
免蹈福島愁

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2013年9月28日

寄件人：msw

鄙人沒有詩才，玆forward以下資料聊作談資。

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ABOUT Radioactive Bananas:

While it is true that the element "potassium" (K) has a primordial radioactive isotope called potassium-40 (K-40) that gives off its disintegration energy in both beta particles (89%) and gamma rays (11%), and it is also true that an average banana will contain about 1/2 a gram of potassium from which the K-40 will contribute about 15 becquerels of radioactivity, NEVERTHELESS eating a banana does not add to the annual radiation dose of a human being.

That's because the body already has a lot of "natural" potassium (including K-40) [which is unavoidable], and any new "natural" potassium ingested is balanced by eliminating a comparable amount of "natural" potassium to maintain the "homeostasis" of the body. In other the words the body's own mechanisms will not allow for a net increase in potassium levels and therefore will not allow for an increase in K-40 content in the body.

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This is from the Oak Ridge Associated Universities' website:

http://tinyurl.com/yrhu4s

http://www.orau.org/ptp/collection/consumer%20products/potassiumgeneralinfo.htm

"The human body maintains relatively tight homeostatic control over potassium levels. This means that the consumption of foods containing large amounts of potassium will not increase the body’s potassium content. As such, eating foods like bananas does not increase your annual radiation dose. If someone ingested potassium that had been enriched in K-40, that would be another story."

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The same bodily homeostasis mechanism does not work for radioactive cesium, which does not exist in nature at all. Consequently any foodstuffs or beverages containing radioactive cesium are automatically enriched (from 0 percent up to x percent) and so ingesting these materials does represent an additional dose of ionizing radiation to the person so exposed.

Gordon Edwards.

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2013年9月29日

寄件人：Mak

Dear SW:

Glad to hear from you. Even enriched K40 is not very harmful because it has a very long half-live, but not Cs from radioactive sources which may replace K40 in our body. I am slowly losing my ability to walk without knowing the cause,besides this everything is fine. I write poems for fun to kill time. Someone asks me how I write. This is my answer.

2013/9/29 譜詩

誦詩聞時事
尋網覓古今
譜曲定大綱
情謁為知音

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2013年9月29日

寄件人：msw

this poem of yours explaining how you compose poetry is surely very touching. add oil!

i am currently hardly able to walk because of the excruciating pain created by an earlier onslaught of 生蛇，this is (hopefully) temporary but it makes me recognize how much enjoyment a daily casual stroll in the neighborhood can bring. i think you can try all sorts of ways in the mean time to revert your conditions EVEN WITHOUT KNOWING THE CAUSE OF YOUR CONDITIONS. Or, we can say that there are other kinds of "cause" besides the modern scientific interpretation of it as the state which when subjected to some physical mechanism leads to another state ("effect"). So, why not try some kinds of "curing methods" which may not provide one with any "sound" cause. In other words, you may try the "pragmatic approach" which will take whatever "works" as "hitting on the 'right' cause".

just my wild suggestion - but i have been taking that kind of approach in handling my complicated illness(es). Earlier i tried 燒蛇眼to handle生蛇, it wasn't effective but i would still give this traditional method benefit of the doubt - such as i went to the "see fu" not at the appropriate time (too late, when the 蛇 is already well formed) or, it at least has stopped a new 蛇 from forming in another part of my body...... Besides, i would think it is quite possible that the shock created by the 燒 impact could really bear positive result on the nervous system. after all, 生蛇 is a virus attack on the nerves.

so on and so forth. many interesting things to try - and you might like to write poems on those off beat topics too?

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2013年9月30日

寄件人：Mak

2013年9月29日

我們在11年311後即認識了廣瀨隆其人(他的反核履歷甚悠長，是早應認識的人物)，當年四月出版的<<反核-----向生命負責>>以他的訪問作頭炮。以下是他近期的良心文章，可傳給愛去東京及愛體育和健康的人士。

http://www.counterpunch.org/2013/09/26/a-letter-to-all-young-athletes-who-dream-of-coming-to-tokyo-in-2020/

Winnie: 不用心焦，要來的總要來，同樣，不來的也急不來。台灣七成人反核(4)，有人指主要是劉黎兒個人努力與人脈勁(她10月又回台再搞起來了)，當然也有團體適時的配合(綠盟、主婦聯盟...)，但還是搞不出公投來，政黨利益還是先行。德國的反核已幾十年，還不是福島核災令它修成正果？(之前"就近"的Chernobyl也沒能讓它核時代結束)......可見核利益輸送面之廣，反核幾乎就是"與世界為敵"(枷道理在中港"民間"的影響就深不可測，各國皆有這類情況)。此外，這個mailing list中好些是我的個人朋友，並無團體關係，我讓大家溝通反核訊息，有搞作時就互相支援，並不是請她們像團體般去搞動員。至於反核之眾的團體，不少是你個人努力在11年lur回來的，動員於反核實不容易，當時如此，現亦相同。總之，自己估量一下，希望投入多少就自己儘做吧。

2013年10月1日

資料顯示，免疫力低者(如我)生蛇的後遺劇痛可達一年，西藥以麻痺神經處理，副作用多而不會令人康復。但我身體差不易令健康神經重新長出唯有儘量鍛練，如唔行得都去散步，因為資料顯示生蛇長痛一族想尋死的數字高(在各疾病中排第三)，我都唔想再推高這可怕紀錄。

欲借大長今前輩來分神，可惜借得的影碟有問題，多集看不清，又中斷數集，令我一邊痛竟能一邊暴跳。又幻想遇見今前輩，佢咁好心又叻女，定能救民(and文)於水火-----資料顯示1/3的50歲以上人士會生蛇，應是人類吃太多西藥免疫力下降的結果-----今前輩快重來人間打救，並幫助對抗西醫西藥(廠)霸權吧。

利利則日日閱醫書、醫網、古代醫事，暫時冒充翻生今前輩；她與我又分頭充當滅蛇的蠶蟲顧問，想出種種方法來治痛。結果都以失敗收場，也許還痛上加痛。這場人體實驗真夠刺激。

食書雖盡力看，卻以不滿意的居多，<<來自廚房的明信片>>講各地風土一二事配以食譜，生硬無情，雖是澳洲名廚之作，亦中途棄之。<< 瑞草之國 >> 講茶事茶史，資料頗多但有為數不少的以下一類的陳腔濫調，難頂，亦棄之。[廢話如："惟有那三卷七千字的<<茶經>>，使他(陸羽)進入聖人行列。他一生固然沒有子嗣，但他有茶相伴終身。他使茶香溢人間，而茶，也使他萬古流芳。"]

在此心煩意燥容忍力不高(忍痛已忍到滿額) 時刻，只能看與重看最好的，於是又閱一次 <<東京昆蟲物語>>。不是想吃日式燒昆蟲，而是這書的繪圖和文字都濃淡得宜，可迴味再四。當然，那個"昆蟲東京"都是過去式了------像那由泥地、蹲廁組成而無盥洗設備的日式廁所就不再存在，常駐那種場所的灶馬(一種長腳昆蟲)便消失了，那種廁所京都還有，所以灶馬可能還在，與如廁者打招呼。還有與從前東京家庭會種的無花果樹為伍的黃星天牛，當然亦隨樹一起莎喲啦啦於新派的東京城啦。

講起靚繪圖-------精細、在適當處又簡約、構圖甚至顏色都似有還無的那種手繪鳥、獸、草、木、蟲、魚圖，都是我的天堂享受。見這類專書或有這類挿圖的書很難抗拒不買，原來是日後痛中良伴。抽象一點的鳥獸草木蟲魚也可接受，不過要精挑細選，像北齋那種就好，他筆下連人都竟有可愛處，不過限於市井小民。

痛著痛著卻是執倉的日子不可拖延，從倉送書往中大博群書節的日子快到了。這星期死都死去倉篩選一下，然後大工程下星期由利利統領完成，誰可幫她一把？

還有一請求，誰收藏有不會出現劇情劇集中途出走的大長今碟，請借我。

Si Wai

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2013年10月2日

寄件人：my

Pik說過她不算追韓劇的，但最喜歡是《大長今》和《醫道》。

另外她有段時間追過韓劇《Pasta》，當然不能很批判去看，但作為煲劇來說都幾有意思，講女主角從打雜一直努力的廚藝長進過程，男女主角互動也幾得意。

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2013年10月6日

寄件人：my

今天出門口去火車站的路上，媽媽來電說快遞剛送到樓下，於是折回頭……哎呀呀，醫道竟然趕得及呀～～～！！！

我看了下，都算清晰，韓語和繁體字幕，但沒有逐集視頻打開看了，希望你們看時順順利利，唔會再現中斷數集而要暴跳～～

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2013年10月7日

寄件人：msw

謝，真好，我看來有排痛，很需要。

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2013年10月7日

寄件人：my

真希望世間多點好醫生為民除病除痛啊！

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2013年10月2日

寄件人：msw

收件人：Ying

對疾病與醫療我不單視作個人的問題與抉擇，有我長久的文化知識與政治社會理解及詮釋在其中；適值自己也病了，就儘量活出信念吧。

二十多年前趁在英做交換學人也私下遊過Cambridge，給我深印象的也是橋，當然還有尋找到的先哲足跡。

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2013年10月2日

寄件人：A

Don't know if the following is of any use.

From CU library

火針療法.
Title: Huo zhen liao fa. [videorecording] / bian dao Li Xu
Author: 李旭 ; Xu Li
Subjects: Acupuncture ; Acupuncture Therapy Description: 火針療法視中醫針灸的一種特殊針法。是提高針灸療效、治療多種疑難病證的重要、有效的針灸方法之一。本片介紹了火針療法的常用針具,火針的功效及適應證,火針臨床操作方法,使用火針療法的注意事項等,並詳細介紹了帶狀皰疹及帶狀皰疹後神經痛、網球肘、腰痛、痛風(痛風性關節炎)、肩周炎、痤瘡、難治性面癱、雞眼等8種疾病的火針治療方法.
Detailed summary in vernacular field only.
Series: 中醫治療系列. Zhong yi zhi liao xi lie.
Publisher: 北京市 : 解放軍衛生音像出版社; Beijing Shi : Jie fang jun wei sheng yin xiang chu ban she
Publication Date: 2007
Description: 1 videodisc (26 min.) : sd., col. ; 4 3/4 in..

From Baptist U library - a sample of several online journal articles, of course the quality is questionable. (if interested, need someone from BU to access it)

中醫外治帶狀皰疹後遺神經痛概況
by 王粵湘 張秀華 黃瑾明
廣西中醫學院學報, ISSN 1008-7486, 2010, Volume 13, Issue 2, pp. 60 - 61
帶狀皰疹後遺神經痛是指患帶狀皰疹後,皮疹消退,但局部有明顯神經痛的一種病症[1]。據研究,10%～15%的帶狀皰疹患者易留後遺神經痛,這種疼痛短則數月,長者達十餘年,給患者帶來很大痛苦,並造成一定的精神壓力。近十年來, 後遺神經痛, 帶狀皰疹, 中醫外治

中醫治療帶狀皰疹後遺神經痛
by 賈高增
中國民間療法, ISSN 1007-5798, 2012, Volume 20, Issue 9, p. 23
帶狀皰疹後遺神經痛是指由水痘～帶狀皰疹病毒感染後導致的相應節段神經系統損傷，引起疼痛，是困擾中老年人群的頑固痛症之一，其疼痛持續時間數月至數年。由於患者長期忍受疼痛折磨而苦不堪言，治療效果卻不盡如人意，嚴重影響患者的工作和日常生活品質。筆者用TDP特定電磁波理療、針刺、拔罐、擦藥的方法治療本病168例，療效顯著，現報導... 治療效果, 疼痛部位, 帶狀皰疹後遺神經痛, 神經系統損傷, 中老年人群

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2013年10月2日

寄件人：msw

seems like different packages of curing methods. shall i interpret each package as "try different means to see which one helps"?

actually i've tried and am trying acupuncture (and massage too) and i have this feeling that local "healers" are not very aware of the seriousness of the after effect of this illness. so i doubt whether they can really help. Dr chow understands but he admitted that he may not be able to help.

it's said on the web that people spent up to $1,000,000 and still cannot find the cure.

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2013年10月4日

寄件人：A

Among all the ailments that acupuncture claims to heal, the strongest evidence (by western style research) is pain relief. This emphasis seems to be less noticed in local healers - can you ask around for those focus on pain relief?

The Science of Acupuncture _ BBC Documentary _ Traditional Chinese

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=41vm87qq1KU

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2013年10月4日

寄件人：msw

could not have agreed with you more. but have yet to find the right acupuncturist. sigh!

2013年10月4日

宇生你好！

謝謝你的金魚和金魚草，兩樣都很有"生"氣。

當我的劇痛結束可以重新出門，我便會去探你和其它朋友。

我今天學了4個古字：一個是一個魚字，一個是兩個魚字(上下排)，一個是三個魚字(品字排)，一個是四個魚字(上二下二)，你有興趣知道詳情日後和你講。

請代問候妹妹月山安好，媽爸安好。

2013年10月4日

寄件人：MY

http://mag.udn.com/mag/life/storypage.jsp?f_ART_ID=394494

【台灣新生報／記者蘇湘雲／綜合外電報導】

神經受損患者常飽受神經疼痛之苦。台灣研究團隊進行動物實驗發現，運動可減少某些發炎促進因子，進而幫助舒緩神經疼痛。研究成果已登上國際麻醉研究醫學會（IARS）所出版的六月號「麻醉與鎮痛」醫學期刊。

研究首席作者為中國醫藥大學物理治療學系副教授陳郁文博士。研究認為，運動可減少發炎促進物質「細胞激素」（Cytokines），未來或可用來治療神經性疼痛。

神經一旦受損，患者很容易出現神經性疼痛，很難醫治，創傷患者、糖尿病患者都可能承受神經疼痛之苦。截肢病患常出現幻肢痛，這也是一種神經痛。

陳博士研究團隊進行老鼠實驗，研究人員先讓老鼠坐骨神經受到損傷，然後讓一些受傷老鼠做漸進式運動，運動項目分成兩項，包括游泳或在跑步輪跑步。研究持續數周。研究人員再透過觀察老鼠疼痛行為，評估運動對神經痛的影響。

研究結果顯示，運動可以減輕體溫、血壓異常反應，神經痛老鼠只要有做運動，無論是游泳或跑步，神經痛都獲得明顯改善。運動雖然無法完全消除神經性疼痛，但老鼠在運動一段時間後，疼痛異常反應減少了三到五成。

研究另發現，運動也會減少坐骨神經組織中的「腫瘤壞死因子α」、「介白素1β」等細胞激素表現。這些細胞激素會促使發炎反應加劇，過去研究顯示，神經受損時，這些細胞激素可能是神經痛幕後黑手。

此外，運動還可增加「熱休克蛋白27」表現，這種蛋白質如果表現旺盛，很可能會讓細胞激素表現下降。

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2013年10月4日

寄件人：msw

2013年10月5日

寄件人：Lily

收件人：R

Dear R,

As acupuncture therapy in general needs quite a long while and it takes much trouble (actually painful) for Si Wai to travel, we need to assess whether it is worthwhile to do it, pls try to find out more information from Dr. Tsui. Below is the condition of Si Wai -

六星期前左邊腋下開始生蛇，後擴展至前胸後背及手臂，服中藥兩星期後疱疹結痂，然神經痛繼續加劇，痛感包括刀插(心口、背部)、灼熱腫脹(背部)、電撃(手)。整天都痛，有些時段特別痛，夜晚尤甚。躺下後即劇痛。

病人本身為淋巴癌患者，正在服用中藥。

many thx!

Lily

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2013年10月9日

寄件人：MY
昨天徐醫師的針灸ok嗎？思慧老師加油啊！有什麼方面可幫手的就告訴我啦 :)

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2013年10月9日

寄件人：msw

我叫痛叫足半小時，要陪去的朋友在旁不停講故事，很滑稽，但捱過了。雖講明不吃他的藥，針的針對性與我的血病有無矛盾日後還要和他商量。

2013年10月6日

Please read the following update on GMOs. 奇怪香港連個爭取GMO標籤的持續而像樣的運動都沒有。

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Toxicology Expert Speaks Out About Roundup and GMOs
October 06, 2013 | 12,564 views
By Dr. Mercola

Dr. Don Huber is likely the leading GMO expert in the world. He is an award-winning, internationally recognized scientist, and professor emeritus of plant pathology at Purdue University for the past 35 years.

His agriculture research is focused on the epidemiology and control of soil-borne plant pathogens, with specific emphasis on microbial ecology, cultural and biological controls, and the physiology of host-parasite relationships.

His research over the past few decades has led him to become very outspoken against genetically modified organisms (GMO) and genetically engineered (GE) foods and the use of Roundup in agriculture in general.

He’s really one of the best scientists we have in the GMO movement for documenting the dangers of genetically engineered foods.

“I appreciate the opportunity to share a little bit of my research and the research of many other scientists who are expressing concern; recognizing that we’ve missed the boat in much of this discussion and much of the process, because it’s really a food and health safety issue that we’re dealing with here,” he says.

Three Things You Need to Know About GMOs

There’s a lot of confusion about the basic validity of concerns about genetically engineered (GE) foods. Many have been deceived into thinking that there’s really no difference between GE foods and conventional fare, and all these worries are just paranoid fear-mongering.

According to Dr. Huber, the following three facts are some of the most important that everyone needs to understand about GMOs:

1. Despite what the media and so-called “experts” proclaim, there are NO peer-reviewed scientific papers establishing the safety of GMO crops.

According to Dr. Huber, so far, no one has been able to establish that there’s a safety factor to either the genetically engineered proteins (i.e. the foreign proteins produced by the genetically modified plant) or the chemicals we’re consuming in ever larger quantities as a result of the genetic engineering process.

There are, however, both clinical and peer-reviewed scientific papers showing the hazards of GMO crops, including harmful secondary effects.

“A group of us met with top USDA administrators. They assured us that they based all their decisions on peer-reviewed science. When we asked them if they would share any of that, they were unable to produce any,” he says.

2. Epidemiological patterns show there’s an identical rise in over 30 human diseases correlated with our increased usage of glyphosate and the increased prevalence of genetically engineered proteins in our food.

3. Genetically engineered foods, as well as conventional crops that are heavily sprayed with glyphosate (the active ingredient in Monsanto’s herbicide Roundup), have lower nutrient density than organic foods. They also contain high amounts of pesticides with documented harmful health effects, along with novel, highly allergenic, proteins.

Little-Known Facts About Glyphosate

You can’t really discuss genetic engineering without also addressing the chemicals these plants are engineered to tolerate. About 85 percent of all genetically engineered plants are herbicide-tolerant—designed to tolerate very high levels of herbicides, glyphosate in particular. These are the so-called Roundup Ready crops.

It’s important to realize that glyphosate is not “just” an herbicide. As explained by Dr. Huber, it was first patented as a mineral chelator. It immobilizes nutrients, so they’re not physiologically available for your body.

“You may have the mineral [in the plant], but if it’s chelated with glyphosate, it’s not going to be available physiologically for you to use, so you’re just eating a piece of gravel,” Dr. Huber says.

Naturally, health effects are bound to occur if you’re consistently eating foods from which your body cannot extract critical nutrients and minerals. Mineral deficiencies can lead to developmental and mental health issues, for example. Glyphosate is also patented as an antibiotic—and a very effective one at that— against a large number of beneficial organisms. Unfortunately, like all antibiotics, it also kills vitally important beneficial soil bacteria and human gut bacteria.

“Lactobacillus, Bifidobacterium, Enterococcus faecalis—these are organisms that keep you healthy either by providing accessibility to the minerals in your food or producing many of the vitamins that you need for life. They’re also the natural biological defenses to keep Clostridium, Salmonella, and E.coli from developing in your system,” Dr. Huber explains.

“When you take the good bacteria out, then the bad bacteria fill that void, because there aren’t any voids in nature. We have all of these gut-related problems, whether it’s autism, leaky gut, C. difficile diarrhea, gluten intolerance, or any of the other problems. All of these diseases are an expression of disruption of that intestinal microflora that keeps you healthy.”

Glyphosate was first patented as a chelator in 1964 by Stauffer Chemical Co. It was patented by Monsanto and introduced as an herbicide in 1974. And then in 1996, Roundup Ready crops hit the market. There’s been a steep increase in the usage of Roundup since then, because you can apply it multiple times without damaging your crop. Making matters worse, they’re now also using glyphosate as a ripening agent—even for non-GMO crops. It’s applied right before harvest time to ripen off the crop.

“We have about a five-fold increase in glyphosate usage on many of our GMO crops. With the Roundup Ready-resistant weeds, we see that rate going up exponentially,” he says.

Did You Know? EPA Just Increased Allowable Limits of Glyphosate in Your Food

Despite well-understood health risks, the US Environmental Protection Agency (EPA) is repeatedly approached by agricultural and biotech companies asking for increased limits of this pernicious toxin in your food.

“The companies say we have to increase the amount of glyphosate that we can have in your food, so we can have a ‘safe’ product – not based on science but based on how much chemical is actually in our food!” Dr.Huber says.

On May 1, the EPA went ahead and doubled the amount of glyphosate allowed in food... Soybean oil may now contain as much as 40 parts per million (ppm) of glyphosate. Meanwhile, research by Dr. Monika Krueger at Leipzig University shows that a tenth of a part per million is all that it takes to kill your Lactobacillus, Bifidobacterium, and Enterococcus faecalis! So soybean oil is now allowed to contain a whopping 4,000 times the known limit at which it can impact your health.

Can GMOs Coexist with Conventional Crops?

On September 20, agriculture secretary Tom Vilsack announced that the Department of Agriculture (USDA) will soon publish a notice in the Federal Register asking for public comments on how agricultural coexistence in the US might be strengthened. At the time of this writing, the USDA has not yet published that notice, but you can search the Federal Register for the latest notices here.1

According to the media release:2

“The Advisory Committee on Biotechnology and 21st Century Agriculture recommended that USDA support agricultural coexistence by strengthening education and outreach on this vital issue... In response, with this notice, we are asking all those with a vested interest in coexistence to help us learn more about what coexistence means to them, how they are already contributing to it, and what more is needed to achieve coexistence. With this input, we can continue the dialogue begun by the AC21 group3 and find practical solutions that will help all sectors of American agriculture be successful.

... Coexistence is defined as the concurrent cultivation of crops produced through diverse agricultural systems including traditionally produced, organic, identity preserved, and genetically engineered crops. USDA supports all forms of agriculture and wants each sector to be as successful as possible providing products to markets in the United States and abroad.”

Vilsack wants comments... How about we start with the suggestion that “Biotech Government of the Year shouldn’t be running the show.” He says the USDA supports ALL agriculture, yet the USDA primarily subsidizes junk food crops—corn and soy—and cave in to the multi-million dollar lobbying of the biotech industry. Meanwhile, the USDA has all but wiped out raw milk, heritage hogs, and most small farmers. So, really, the only agriculture the USDA support is the chemical variety. When asked whether he believes that it’s ever appropriate or possible for GMOs to coexist with conventional and organic crops, Dr. Huber replies:

“We know how to get these genes in; we don’t know how to remove them,” he says. “I don’t see any opportunity for coexistence with the current technology that we have because of that promiscuous nature of the genes. If you have a gene that is spread by pollen, like Roundup Ready alfalfa, it’s just a matter of time before bees or the wind is going to transfer that particular pollen to every alfalfa crop that you’re going to grow. There’s a very high probability that you’re going to see that genetic component in it.”

The StarLink Case—Proof Positive GMOs Can’t ‘Coexist’ with Natural Plants

According to Dr. Huber, our knowledge of what we’re doing in the genetic engineering process is extremely limited. Contrary to popular belief, we’re still only in the initial stages of understanding what we’re doing in that whole process:

“We do know that it’s more like a virus infection than it is a breeding program. In other words, you’re throwing genes in, but you’re not moving all of the regulatory and control mechanisms with those genes so that they’re only going to function at a time when the plant needs it or under conditions when it needs it. It’s a flawed science to think that you have one gene or one little group of genes and it’s going to do this particular function and not the other things.”

Clearly, that’s not the general perception. Most people are still under the illusion that genetic engineering is a very precise approach. That’s certainly what the industry wants you to believe. But as Dr. Huber points out, we learned some very important facts from sequencing of the human genome: There aren’t nearly enough genes to do all of the things we know are done within the human body.

This is related to the profoundly important relationships that epigenetics controls. We found out that a gene actually functions in relation to the environment and its relationship to other genes or other genetic components in that code. When you disrupt those relationships and the integrity of the genetic code, you end up with mutations and epigenetic effects that we’ve yet to explore.

“We know they occur because for every one of those successful expressions that you get from genetic engineering, you have over a million other things that take place that are negative,” he says. “We also have potentially negative [effects] with the one that succeeded in expressing a particular protein that you want for genetic engineering. But nobody even looks for all of those other epigenetic effects that occur.

One of the things that we do know, since we don’t have the regulatory genes that would normally be part of those components from a regular breeding program, is that the genes that are being inserted are extremely promiscuous. They’re not stable. They may stay in and be transferred through a regular breeding program after they’re introduced. But we know that they can be transferred to soil microorganisms when the stubble or the grain is digested and decomposed in the soil—or in your gut.”

In the latter case, your gut flora can then pick up those same genes, and can start producing those foreign proteins, which are extremely allergenic. A perfect example of this was the StarLink corn, which produced a protein that turned out to be very toxic to humans. StarLink was grown 10 years ago for a pharmaceutical process. It was pulled off the market when they realized it had escaped from its confines and had the ability to contaminate corn destined for food production.

We know that GE crops decimate agricultural variety—countless varieties have been wiped out in order to foster a few monocultures. Now, if GMOs are removed, will there really be less food variety?

This ridiculous concept was recently brought forth by Scientific American.4 The erroneous and illogical claims made in the editorial mirrors claims made by Monsanto—such as the idea that GMO labels could destroy the market for genetically engineered foods in a country where 70 percent of processed foods already contain them. This, they want you to believe, would result in “less variety and higher costs.” Look, we’re primarily talking about ingredients like corn syrup and soy! And food companies do not appear to have any major problems supplying Europe, where GMOs have to be labeled, with products that do not contain genetically engineered corn and soy.

It’s funny how times have changed at Scientific American, as they now tow the biotech line like a well greased PR firm. It wasn’t all that long ago that they had the right idea, questioning the logic and safety of restricting GE crop research to the seed companies that make them.5

Could YOU Be Altering Your OWN Genes When You Eat GMOs?

As discussed by Dr. Huber, research clearly shows that the novel proteins created in genetically engineered plants are highly allergenic, with the capability to promote diseases like cancer and liver or kidney failure. But Dr. Huber points out that there are other factors involved as well, which have some scientists concerned about the spread of those genes into the human gut... Not only do GMOs alter your intestinal microflora, but research shows that human cells are also able to transfer those novel genes, thereby affecting the human genome.

“Especially with generation two genetic engineering, called gene silencing—that section of the nucleic acid can actually be picked up or attached to your own genes, and then start shutting down your own physiology in that process... It’s well-documented in the scientific literature.”

Indeed, last year, University of Canterbury Professor Jack Heinemann released results from genetic research he conducted on this type of GE wheat, which showed without “any doubt” that molecules created in the wheat, which are intended to silence wheat genes to change its carbohydrate content, may match human genes and potentially silence them. If that’s not a concern, I don’t know what is! University Professor Judy Carman agreed with Heinemann's analysis, stating in Digital Journal:6

"If this silences the same gene in us that it silences in the wheat -- well, children who are born with this enzyme not working tend to die by the age of about five.”

Heinemann reported that his research revealed over 770 pages of potential matches between two GM genes in the wheat and the human genome. Over a dozen matches were “extensive and identical and sufficient to cause silencing in experimental systems,” he said. Experts warned that eating the wheat could lead to significant changes in the way glucose and carbohydrates are stored in the human body, which could be potentially deadly for children and lead to serious illness in adults.

Glyphosate—Another Culprit in Bee Die-Offs?

Glyphosate may also play a role in bee colony collapse disorder. As stated by Dr. Huber, there are three established characteristics of colony collapse disorder that suggests glyphosate may be (at least in part) responsible:

1. The bees are mineral-deficient, especially in micronutrients

2. There’s plenty of food present but they’re not able to utilize it or to digest it

3. Dead bees are devoid of the Lactobacillus and the Bifidobacterium, which are components of their digestive system

The bees also become disoriented, suggesting endocrine hormone disruption. Neonicotinoid insecticides, which are endocrine hormone disruptors, have been demonstrated to make a bee disoriented and unable to find its way back to the hive. Glyphosate is also a very strong endocrine hormone disruptor.

Dr. Huber cites a study on glyphosate in drinking water at levels that are commonly found in US water systems, showing a 30 percent mortality in bees exposed to it. And that’s just from common levels of glyphosate in drinking water...

Glyphosate Is a Cumulative Chronic Toxin

Americans are in a tough spot right now, as there’s no telling which foods might contain genetically engineered ingredients tainted with high amounts of Roundup. Labeling would at least tell you that much, and give you the freedom to choose another product.

“A consumer needs to be very concerned. They need to be active in the labeling aspects,” Dr. Huber says. “They also need to be active in the requirement for safety studies. These haven’t been done. When the EPA employed the term ‘substantially equivalent,’ it gave the chemical companies essentially a waiver on doing any of the safety tests. The only thing that they’ve ever tested for is acute toxicity.

Well, we know that glyphosate, for instance, isn’t an acute toxin. It’s a serious chronic toxin. That’s been well-established in peer-reviewed scientific articles. We have more of those coming along all the time. There is no question that it’s a chronic toxin.”

According to Dr. Huber, glyphosate at a mere 0.5 ppm is toxic to your endocrine hormone system, which includes your pituitary, thyroid, and reproductive hormones. Ten ppm is cytotoxic to kidney cells; one ppm is toxic to your liver, and 0.1-10 ppm are toxic to a whole series of human cellular functions or cells directly. Dr. Huber has even likened glyphosate to DDT in terms of toxicity. Consider that, and then consider that we are currently using some 880 million pounds—that’s nearly ONE BILLION pounds—of glyphosate annually on crops grown worldwide.

As Dr. Seneff and Samsel reveal in a recent study conducted at the Massachusetts Institute of Technology, glyphosate is probably the most harmful chronic toxin we’ve ever encountered, both in our environment and on our dinner plates. Their findings show that two of the key problems caused by glyphosate in the diet are nutritional deficiencies, and systemic toxicity.

“It’s just that you don’t get killed or die today from it; you have to suffer through the process of gluten intolerance, leaky gut, Crohn’s, Alzheimer’s, autism, or any of those diseases that are related to the health of your gut, which we’re seeing now on an epidemic scale in our society,” he says.

Why Is the USDA Ignoring This Health Threat?

Two years ago, in 2011, Dr. Huber wrote a letter to USDA Secretary Tom Vilsack, informing him of many of the safety concerns surrounding genetically engineered crops, along with yet another groundbreaking finding that could spell absolute disaster for your entire food supply. He warned Vilsack about the emergence of a brand new electron microscope-sized organism associated with something called Sudden Death Syndrome (SDS) in soy.

It's also found in a large variety of livestock given GE feed who experience both spontaneous abortions and infertility. This includes cattle, horses, sheep, pigs, and poultry. Might it affect humans in the same way? Dr. Huber urged the USDA to investigate the matter and suspend approval of GE alfalfa until proper studies have been completed.

“We know that all herbicides are chelators, mineral chelators. That’s how they compromise the plant’s physiology: they tie up a particular nutrient and shut down a physiologic pathway,” he says. “This wasn’t new from that standpoint. But the thing that was different [with glyphosate] was its biocidal effect. It’s not only a chelator, but it’s also a strong antibiotic to beneficial microorganisms. How do you compensate for that? How do you restore biological activities?

Much of my research, which was focused on glyphosate, was focused on the biology and restoration of those mineral nutrients. I served on the National Plant Disease Recovery Program. I was chairman at that time and also for the USDA. I’ve also served for 40 years on our various threat pathogens committees and recognized what the potential problems were with Roundup Ready alfalfa.”

The American Stock Growers’ Association also testified before Congress, saying that infertility was threatening the animal industry. Dr. Huber saw how all of these issues were connected—via genetically engineered crops and the application of glyphosate. He felt an obligation to alert the USDA secretary and to ask for his help in getting the research done before further jeopardizing not only our fourth most important crop, but also our entire animal production because of the prevalence of this new abortogenic entity, found in high concentrations in GE or high-glyphosate intense growth conditions.

His warnings were ignored, and GE alfalfa was deregulated that same year. Why is the USDA ignoring warnings from a scientist with 50 years of experience with plant pathology, soil-borne diseases, microbial ecology, and host-parasite relationships?

“A group of us met with the top administrators. I’ve never met with the secretary personally. But we did have the privilege of meeting and sharing our concerns and 130 or so peer-reviewed scientific articles that support our position with top administrators in USDA and some of the other agencies. They assured us that if we could do the work, they would be willing to look at it.

Well, they haven’t looked at any of the other peer-reviewed science... And the USDA scientists, who have a tremendous amount of knowledge on the impact of glyphosate, have all been muzzled. They’re not permitted to say anything about it. I got a phone call from one a few weeks ago. He said, ‘I’ll be retiring fairly soon. I plan on moving off and sharing that stage with you because I have a lot that I want to say. I just can’t say it right now.’”

GMOs Are Not the Solution to Feed a Burgeoning Population

There is simply no question and there is irrefutable evidence that genetic engineering is not the solution to feed a growing world population. Rather, it actually increases disease susceptibility of plants by impairing their immune response. It also reduces, not increases, yield potential. There’s never been a genetically engineered plant that increases the intrinsic yield of a plant. Improved plant yield is accomplished through traditional breeding programs that promote improved gene expression.

“We’re only expressing 25 or 30 percent of the genetic potential for yield in any of our crops now,” Dr. Huber says. “There’s tremendous potential there. It’s a matter of using that traditional breeding as we’ve done for many years and getting better expression – not throwing in additional genes to act like a virus and disrupt the integrity of the whole process that’s required for yield and quality.

We can increase all of the nutrient density with traditional breeding. In fact, the Brazilians are doing that. They’ve just released new varieties of soybean with higher vitamin A, and corn with higher vitamin A and vitamin C. We can do all of that with traditional breeding. We’ve been doing it for years. You don’t need to disrupt the genetic integrity and introduce all the collateral damage with its long-term effects.”

I can personally attest to this fact as well. High-performance agriculture is one of my new passions, so much so it’s turning into something of a second career—to learn and understand how to optimize plant growth and the environment. I’ve been applying what I’ve learned in my own garden for a few months now, and I’ve been able to personally witness the maximization of genetic potential that is possible. For example, by using compost tea and mineral amendments, the leaves on some plants, like my lime trees and oleanders, are literally 300 to 400 percent bigger than the typical leaf of these plants. It’s truly extraordinary! You wouldn’t even imagine that plants could grow that big.

Part of the problem is that we’ve gotten used to less than mediocrity, when it comes to plant performance. According to John Kempf,7 an Amish farmer and one of the leaders in the field of high-performance agriculture, farmers and food producers routinely harvest only about 10 to 15 percent of the inherent genetic capacity of any given crop. In a nutshell, the foundation of health – whether we’re talking about plants, soils, animals, or people – it really boils down to two things:

Having adequate mineral nutrition, and

Having that nutrition, in the case of plants, be supplied by an active soil microbial community, or having a strong soil biology

2013年10月14日

寄件人：S

思慧、MY，你們好：

謝謝你們幫忙寄送福島誓言一書。

上週五我將其中一位福島小朋友的心聲拿到核四、五、六運動晚會朗讀，希望更多人知道這本書。

另外，主婦聯盟下期會訊將是談輻射食物，除輻射食物外，我們也想邀請反核之眾的朋友為福島誓言這書書寫1200字左右的書介(可包括組織介紹)。不知道你們有沒有興趣為我們提筆呢？

接下來我們會有跟核能有關的讀書講座，我們也會把福島誓言拿去現場賣，希望更多人知道這本好書。

祝　一切順心、如意。

S

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2013年10月14日

寄件人：msw

MY你來寫吧，這本書我全程參與編輯、寫作，再來介紹很怕會重重覆覆悶壞人。我可以寫簡短的反核之眾介紹的。

在世上樹木蒙災的年代還要出這本書，也不是沒掙扎的，但仍有兩個重要訊息希望傳遞：

1. 幾十年來核武和核電雙雙蹂躪全球，核電為核武化妝和遮掩，核武令核電成為「廉價」能源，當中的醜惡故事似遠還近，我們要認識和反對核電，不能忽略這段歷史。

2. 受災的人民慘被滅聲，我們既然有幸(?)聽得到，就讓更多人聽到吧。

希望這兩點都有助建立反核運動的全球(至少是東亞)團結。

2013年10月15日

寄件人：hrx

重陽節，忙一段過後，清靜下來有些悲涼的感覺，這季節，在南方不好過，因為大部份時間一直潮濕，突然干燥，身體弱處自然反映出來。

你每日在疼痛中度過，心理上找愛看的書、碟，氣功意識轉移，如：自個躺在舒適的山頂，旁邊雲霧繚繞，飄飄欲仙，睡覺醒後作更好。又：在山頂的溫泉池中浸泡，不斷默念松，靜。氣功意識讓生理上自我修復，找些中藥油，能鎮靜止疼更好，擦于患處，舌抵上顎靜躺于舒適中，用意識把全身好的東西慢慢趕走患處疼痛的東西。

蛇毒侵神經，毒去尽後，神經壞了，周大師沒法啦？那西醫有法子嗎？還是蛇毒未尽，有源頭不斷放毒？現在的網絡別浪費，沒事找來查查。

我媽挺好的，就是老了。能吃能睡，要減肥少吃。心理上還算是平靜，比較愉快。

祝

早日康複。身體健康，精神愉快。

讓

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2013年10月15日

寄件人：msw

謝謝氣功建議，會試。

獲開鎮痛西藥，原來是抗抑郁藥，不吃。

周大師忙於我的血問題，開的方令蛇後痛更嚴重。

真可謂什么都試，目前找一專醫奇難雜症醫師針炙，他認為我的情況夠挑戰性。

24小時睡不下，看來唯有練功保命。

2013年10月18日

大家雖以努力工作為念，也要以養生為實踐，缺一不可。

工作有章法、依自己的韻律才不會傷害元氣，我天天學習，勉力保命。共勉。

2013年10月17日

寄件人：MY

祝F君生日快樂，身體健康，順順利利，繼續自由自在自得 :)

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2013年10月21日

寄件人：F

多謝，承妳貴言！大家咁話，身心健康，自在自樂。暫時唔多自由，腳底無故腫脹發痛，跛行渡日，幸有中里巴人，依其書按穴位已大有改善，只是不能久行及負重太多，努力根治。

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2013年10月21日

寄件人：msw

生日要多Ｄ吉利說話，我現處谷底之底，像不見底，只盼奇跡，無力多談。

自求多福，福氣人也，F君努力吧。

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2013年10月21日

寄件人：F

2013年10月21日

寄件人：MY

枇杷葉溫灸熱敷:枇杷樹是古印度佛教的大藥王樹. 枇杷葉煮茶喝可提昇類胡蘿蔔素的含量.其溫灸熱敷的鎮痛效果比美碼啡,是一個非常好用的醫用果樹. http://www.naturopathic.com.tw/ShowGoods.asp?category_id=94&parent_id=0

枇杷葉熱敷的簡介

枇杷樹早在3000年前的印度佛經就記載為”大藥王樹” , 它的葉子煮茶像紅茶, 可提高體內類胡籮蔔素的含量, 熱敷的止痛效果比瑪啡好, 鎮靜安寧的效果有”無憂扇”的美譽, 消炎的功效媲美第三代廣效抗生素. 枇杷子有人用在癌末病人, 效果良好.

熱敷: 最好用艾草棒點火熱敷或將海鹽及砂石用火炒熱使用. http://www.naturopathic.com.tw/ShowGoods.asp?category_id=95&parent_id=0

枇杷葉還有一些新的藥用功能﹕一、治療各種疼痛﹕枇杷葉的有效成分之一苦杏仁經人體吸收後，可分解為具有抗癌作用的物質和一種類似阿斯匹林的物質，能發揮很強的鎮痛作用。 http://www.aptcm.com/aptcm/medinfo.nsf/ByUNID/B50D0A5E6DE9B2B948256D2600164499?opendocument

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2013年10月21日

寄件人：msw

已搞不清是什麼致痛，徐醫師治療下，找出我肺積水、淋巴癌毒素和蛇揉合一起，連呼吸都有困難，全身作反。試過太多野了，都被我體內毒素蓋過，只有等-------日等夜夜等日，其間不斷慘叫。

2013年10月21日

寄件人：MY

看Bertell的書，講書馬紹爾群島遭核試危害時，提及島民糖尿病率世界之最，但從當時研究進度看來好像和輻射被曝劑量的多少不太相關，當時也還沒有找到具體原因。（No Immediate Danger， 72頁）

今早找到一位研究者Seiji Yamada http://ome.hawaii.edu/bio.yamada.htm，有些文章正是講當地的疾病問題，提及糖尿病時，嘗試從生理+社會文化經濟結構去解釋成因。如島民的被殖民歷史、遭受核試不公對待、生活飲食習慣結構和生存環境被迫改變、失去獨立生存能力，從捕魚到被迫接受美國的（垃圾）食品，社經地位低下得不到優質的食物，受壓迫階層的心理壓力，等

http://www.stfm.org/fmhub/fm2001/oct01/ifm2.pdf

http://www.pacifichealthdialog.org.fj/Volume%2011/no2/PHD11%202%20p216%20221%20Yamada%20orig.pdf

他還有另一篇文

Yamada S. “Militarism and the social production of disease”. In Fort M, Mercer MA, Gish O (Eds.). Sickness and wealth: the corporate assault on global health. South End Press, 2004.

Yamada文章有些觀點或引用也不太認同或值得再探究，談及核災的“心理壓力”要很小心，如世衛之流會把核災健康問題歸咎為民眾的心理壓力，而心理壓力源於對核的過度恐慌（即話人無知）。不過他讓我想到的是，核災引起的精神壓力的確存在，而挖掘落去的方向可以是揭露政府對待核災居民的不公、權威機構的互相包庇等等核帶來的不義問題，在此無奈的大環境下災民如何爭取生存空間和權利，出現哪些社會問題……當然同時要強調輻射對健康的直接影響根本是真實存在，不容轉移視線。要很全面的視野去講清楚那些“壓力”的根源……

近年好像有些研究講兒科癌症使用放療會引起將來的糖尿病，這方面繼續會收集下～～

此外找到某人某論文提及其中一個島有70%居民患糖尿病！（很悲哀）

2013年10月27日

核能教育：

從未見核能所做成的"人道及生態大災難(由開鈾礦開始)"被列入教材。

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以下幾則近聞：

(1) Ontario唔添核廠，加拿大再無新訂單。

http://www.theglobeandmail.com/news/politics/ontario-backs-away-from-plans-to-buy-new-nuclear-reactors/article14793803/

(2) 自由平等博愛的法國在前殖民地做的事------

http://www.google.com/hostednews/afp/article/ALeqM5imDlKZ_gT47jCLSWIrf3LVHZDOgw?docId=ef49c2b3-a282-4260-9f58-013c0ba1e33b&hl=fr

(google translate) " The population has inherited 50 million tons of radioactive waste stored at Arlit and Areva continues to pump free 20 million cubic meters of water per year while the population dying of thirst ," reported Mr. Mamane .

According to him, " the streets and homes of Arlit are built with radioactive waste and wastewater and contaminated groundwater dries by Areva's fault."

" The worst is that Areva continues to deny all this," he said.

(3) 福島核廠清理者----------一部寫不完的日本犯罪小說

Help wanted in Fukushima: low pay, high risks and gangsters http://www.hindustantimes.com/world/help-wanted-in-fukushima-low-pay-high-risks-and-gangsters/story-MF9qkvVJuC48RhH5awWzFO.html

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